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I have been trying to go on walks every day. walking and yoga are the only things that don't trigger me right now. In terms of working out for my health, I really want to work my way up to being able to do pilates, but as of right now, I have to start gently, because if I don't, I'll get burned out really quickly.

On the top left, it's the go macro peanut butter chocolate chip and I chop it up and put it over greek yogurt with cinnamon, lots of cinnamon.

Then, I have my belly comfort tea, which is peppermint among other things.

a couple things I thought of....

first I have my lavender sachet from the farmer's market.

then my favorite herbal tea, the belly comfort. It works so well for digestion and for bedtime.

next to that is a calming chai that I was interested in trying. It's just a sample, but it looked really good. I picked it up from my local health food market.

and a picture of me wearing bluelight blocking glasses in the color coffee. The brand is madison avenue I believe. But I actually got them not because of my migraines, although they also help with that, I got them initially because I can't stop playing the legend of zelda before I go to bed......

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greetings

I actually wrote this entire post and accidentally deleted it. I almost started crying and now I'm going to try again.

I haven't made any updates about my health for a while now. I have been struggling with my health, recently it's been declining rapidly. And I've had to make some serious changes to my lifestyle. I am now, I can say which I couldn't before, eating 3 balanced healthy meals a day plus tea and snacks. I'm doing yoga most days and I above all, try to place health as the absolute most important thing that I need to achieve each day.

I had a really big problem with controlling the way I want people to see me, by not actually being the way I am, which was hurting me, very deeply, very spiritually and in a aesthetic perspective, it was also really hurting my health. I now seem to dress a lot plainer and simpler, I don't do elaborate makeup I don't do anything with hair beyond making sure it's healthy and clean, and I don't like wearing flashy colors or anything uncomfortable.

I will always value comfort over style. On this health journey I have realized that I feel closer to myself when I do things for my health, when I value my relationship with God, when I meditate, when I do yoga and when I eat healthy those are the moments in my life where I feel most me.

I have noticed that I don't get as many compliments, I don't get told I'm pretty as often as I used to. And most of the time, I'm relatively overlooked, but if someone can't notice the real me, which is a girl who's just trying to be healthy. Then, I don't think they want to know the real me.

I know this is all over the place, but my mind is scattered and I can't seem to organize my thoughts properly.

I have been struggling with chronic migraines for years, that occur almost daily and because of my recent health decline, they have been getting progressively worse. So I have been doing yoga and treating the symptoms with herbal teas and aromatherapy, as opposed to painkillers, which I have stopped taking indefinitely.

I actually recently ordered a weighted eye mask that is scented lavender, my absolute favorite scent, and I am excited to see if it helps ease my migraines at all.

l a v e n d e r

It's supposed to be here in a couple days, so I will give an update on it.

(It came!!! and it's beautiful! You can either heat it or cool it and it's amazing for meditation!)

Lavender is my absolute favorite aromatherapy scent. Because it is supposed to help with anxiety. Which I struggle with and it is unfortunately oftentimes debilitating.

I am just now realizing that I want to go through life as comfortable and healthy and peaceful and connected with God as I possibly can. And whatever tools and methods and holistic healing I can implement in my life to achieve these goals. I will do.

Like recently, for example, I have been really wanting a pair of orthotic shoes, and most of the time, they're not very attractive, they're certainly not trendy. And I know a lot of people would maybe make fun of me for wearing orthotic shoes at the age of 31.

But I think I just don't care. I care so much more about the health of my body than I do the way I look.

I care about being able to walk and run when I'm in my 60s. I care about building up my muscle density and bone health so that I'm able to hike mountains when I'm old and swim for miles and breathe deeply and live my fullest life.

That's what's been going on and hopefully I'll be able to post soon because I do enjoy it and it really does help me get a different perspective on my life, when perhaps I am dealing with a lot of anxiety.