robbylangdon and mcvadi endgame

Did they laugh it off together? Did Langdon feel that bite in the pit of his stomach, that burn of shame, knowing that he’d revealed a vulnerability to his mentor and had been mocked because of it? Langdon learned in that moment that his pain is something to be joked about, not worthy of concern, and that he could never come to Robby with something like that again.

Every day I am haunted. “You could have come to me.” But he had. Before he was ever prescribed a single pill, he had come to him. He had come to the man whose opinion he cared more about than almost any other man on the planet, legitimately believing even then that he was Robby’s best friend. He had brought something out—an admission of pain, of weakness, something often difficult for men to bring up to their friends in the first place—and Robby punted it away with a smile. Taught him that as his golden boy, perfection was expected from him. Taught him to keep everything that followed inside so that he wasn’t teased again.

RL: What the fuck are you doing!? I'm saving lives.

I’ll devour you <3