Manifestations

I hate this uncertainty. It’s driving me crazy. I just wanna talk to you about it to make it clear and just find out where you lie in the grand scheme of things. Do you have feelings for me? Oh man, I suck at communication. I should’ve laid it all out before. I don’t know what I’m doing. Does anyone?

My insecurities are drowning me in an ocean of sadness keeping me wide awake. A stupid dream triggered these waves of intrusive thoughts. You breaking my heart, me not over things, your lack of initiative to comfort me. Oh, it just all scares me. I’m afraid of truly liking you. Being so vulnerable. Defenseless. Oh, man. Gotta risk it for the biscuit, they say.

I have strong feelings for you. Now I’m having trouble sleeping, so I know it’s bad. I just want to sleep next to you again and feel your body’s warmth. I can’t even think of metaphors right now. I just love the way you can continue talking about anything. I love our prolonged eye contact. I can’t wait to see you again.

You are the soul I’ve been looking for. A person who embodies my ideal principles and ethics. I had given up on the thought that anyone like that existed. Even I had failed my own fantasy. You’re a breath of fresh air. I think you’re genuinely good and respectful. I love your company. You make me want to be a better person.

I came to the bar where we had our wonderful date. The person in front of me disappeared as I traveled back to that sunny, summer day. My crush for you is the faintest ghost of genuine feelings I’ve had for a person in the last several years. I like to believe that it’s meant to be and we’ll find our way back to each other. I won’t be in front of this person who’s disappeared from my mind, but instead it’ll be you.