Pick a Card: What affect do you have on your crush / partner / person of interest? 💎
Pick a pile, from left to right.
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About the Reading:
In this reading, we are uncovering the raw impact of your presence on your crush, boyfriend, partner or person of interest (This can also be your future spouse, your celebrity crush or a person that you might meet in the future).
We will explore, what happens to their heart rate when you walk into the room? How does their body react when you are standing right next to them? What is that sudden, secret thrill they feel inside when you enter their line of sight? How they act around you?
Pile 1 🐆
They keep their distance, but it’s not out of dislike. It’s actually because your presence throws them off balance. They get afraid that they might lose their composure. There could be difference in the way you both live your life, could be cultural or religious. Because of this, they view you through a rigid lens. To them, you represent a totally unfamiliar world. They aren't used to your specific mannerisms, your way of speaking, or how you handle situations.
Whenever you are around, this contrast disarms them. They stay back simply because they are afraid of losing their usual self-control around you. Honestly, it feels like they view you as a sort of mystic or a magician who can cast a spell on them. It feels like they’re convinced that if they let their guard down, they would willingly abandon their home, their wealth, and their entire identity just to be with you.
That is why they step so carefully around you. They actively shield themselves from experiencing who you are. They know that if they allow you to influence them even a tiny bit, they will completely lose the game. It’s like you’ve wrapped them in this beautiful, swirling fog, a haze, kind of like Aphrodite rising out of the ocean foam. To them, you’re this beautiful enigma that they just can't seem to pin down or fully understand.
And the coolest part? The huge gap between your two worlds isn't keeping them away. All those differences are exactly what's pulling them in towards you. I'm telling you, you have them completely fascinated.
Look, a huge reason they keep their distance is pure gossip, the social panic. They know that being seen with you would make rumours spread like wildfire. For someone with their traditional background, maintaining their reputation and the respect of their peers is everything—it’s what sustains them.
But I won't deny it, Pile 1, they secretly admire you. Everything that makes you different actually gives them a reason to smile. Your energy is so youthful, lovely, and bubbly, and they honestly feel like your vibe could guide them toward a much happier, more fulfilled life. Their admiration for you won't ever come out in light. They'll do it secretly.
Pile 2 🐆
Your person literally has two modes around you: complete silence or speaking at 4x speed with zero punctuation while accidentally insulting your entire lineage. You get what I am trying to say? It's giving major “I don't know how to express my feelings so i'm going to talk at supersonic speed and accidentally pick a fight with you” energy. You short-circuit their brain so bad they lose all their emotional vocabulary and just become a chaotic talking machine. A walking Mercury in retrograde personality.
Ohhhh wait! Hold on. The reason your person acts like a malfunctioning blender? They have it bad for you. But because they can’t find a way to express that physical, magnetic attraction safely, they’re stuck in a total limbo where all that intense energy gets bottled up and squeezed right out of their mouth. It turns into a total disaster of words.
They want to be close to you, but instead, they just end up talking your ear off at a hundred miles an hour. Think of a kid who is so bursting with excitement that they just start running in circles—that is their brain around you. Are you older than them, by any chance? It gives such, black cat and golden retriever trope.
This isn’t how they treat everyone. Not even close. It is with you and you only. You are their exception. When they are around you, everything gets turned up to a ten. They over-exaggerate, they use big words, they make big, dramatic gestures—it’s like they have to amplify their entire existence just to match the frequency of how much they adore you. They amplify everything they do because you amplify them, sweetie.
Pile 3 🐆
This is someone who craves intellectual stimulation far more than physical connection. Because of their sharp mind, they often struggle to find a true mental rapport with the people around them. Physically and socially, they might come across as tall, quiet, brooding, and self-sufficient, protecting themselves behind exceptionally high standards and impenetrable boundaries.
But this coldness isn’t inherent. They weren’t born this way. This persona is a fortress built, stone by stone over time. It’s the aftermath of disappointments, harsh breakups, and back-to-back relational trauma.
And then you walk in, like a catalyst. You taste like the version of themselves they thought they buried years ago. You hold up a mirror to the ghost of who they used to be—someone soft, someone who still hoped. You are the proof that not all is rust. This is how they are around you. They feel full of hope. It feels almost holy, like an answer to a prayer they were too tired to even whisper.
They spend hours caught in daydreams of a life where they don't have to be strong anymore, where they can be emotionally naked with someone. They feel like they can cry safely around you. They’ve been a stranger to their own heart for so long. But, just being near you makes them feel within touch of who they really are underneath.
They heavily stalk you. Like, it’s not even a secret at this point. They be dissecting your entire digital footprint. You might post something, then you check your views and they’re just there. They even bring you up in random conversations with people just to fish for info and get the tea on you.
Pile 4 🐆
Around you, this person turns into a total kid. They love to tease you and bother you with the little things, smothering you with clever mind games and verbal cues. They are obsessed with having the upper hand. When you're around, they won’t show obvious romantic interest. Instead, they’ll fire random facts or sharp banter at you, just waiting for you to throw a fireball right back.
They will never act interested when you're looking, but believe me—they are incredibly sneaky. They play it completely indifferent when you’re looking, but the second your back is turned, their eyes are all over you. It’s totally self-sabotaging! They expect you to make the move, but they still play it cool because, deep down, they are terrified of being vulnerable.
Honestly, it can get a little annoying. While they have a pure, gentle soul at their core, their obsession with staying in control can make them look arrogant, even narcissistic. But don't let the mask fool you. Inside, they are incredibly soft. They just don't know how to drop their guard, so whenever you're near, they only know how to turn the tension up.
They talk a lot when you are around, turning into a master of conversation just to hook you in and wait for your reply. For example, if you two are hanging out in a group of five, they might be talking to someone else entirely, but they’ll suddenly throw a little gasoline into the mix—saying something provocative just to see if you’ll barge in.
They love to see how your mind works, sizing up your intelligence and your reactions to every little thing they say. And whenever you're nearby, Pile 4, they have this sleek, cheeky grin on their face that gives it all away. Lol. They know exactly what they’re doing. They love the thrill of pulling your strings.
Think back to when you both first met. If they seemed a bit distant, shy, or even borderline rude or cold - don't sweat it, because that was just a cover-up for how they are crushing on you. If you’ve been second-guessing their vibes, consider this your confirmation that the feeling is 100% mutual.
Once the two of you break through this tortuous mental seduction game, you will be watching their entire demeanor completely shift. The moment they get even a tiny hint that you like them back, their body language will be transform. Suddenly, they will be radiating this pure pride whenever you're around—not for themselves, but simply because they are proud of you.
In crowded rooms, your person will be lingering obsessively at your shoulder, positioning their body closer to you. Honestly, if you’ve told a close friend about your crush, ask them to watch you two sometime. Your friend will be noticing that you look like a total celebrity couple. It's the kind of vibe where everything around you stops and everyone will be staring as you two walk by, because your crush will feel so incredibly proud to be seen with you. They will totally show you off. They love to be seen with you. They feel lucky to have you.
I don't know why I'm picking up on this vibe so strongly, but whether this is at school or the office, you both are likely excellent at what you do. When you two finally come together, you are a total powerhouse couple.
Pile 5 🐆
You walk into the room and they just go completely still. Their limbs refuse to work. That is how heavy your presence feels to them. Your person freezes in awe, unable to do anything except stare and admire you. They feel hot. Like, literally. You have this ability to rise up their body temperature the moment you step into their space.
They become a literal statue when you're near. They won't make a single movement, they won't say a word. They just stare. You are exactly their type. like, flawlessly. They find you so incredibly hot and physically attractive that it’s almost frustrating for them. You’re everything they want to look at.
I feel like you remind them of someone from their family. And not in a good way. It’s like you talk exactly like their father or have the same specific behaviours as their mother, and it hits a major nerve. They might unresolved trauma at home with their family, so being around you basically trigger all their old wounds. It makes them spiral into wanting total control over their feelings for you.
You destabilize them. You cause this crazy polarization effect where they are constantly bouncing between extreme highs and devastating lows. Somedays they love you, somedays they resent you. You ruin their emotional balance and they have no idea how to handle it.
Pile 6 🐆
Cold. Chilly. Aloof. They act like you don't exist. They move with this cool, untouchable nonchalance, completely unbothered by your presence. Like you’re nothing but background noise and they carry on with a certain kind of arrogance—like a king who doesn't need to acknowledge his kingdom. But let me tell you a secret: it’s an act. A beautifully staged lie.
They are acutely aware of you. They know exactly how much space you occupy in the room, and they know what they feel inside. They just know you can never be together, so they carry on like you're a stranger. They pretend. Because staying blind is the only way they know how to survive you. You have no idea how much they’re holding back. Trust me, trying to keep those feelings down? It’s like trying to tame a literal hungry lion. Phew.
You have no idea the impact you have. They feel like they won some kind of lottery just by meeting you. Have you noticed how they change when you’re around? They become softer, more empathetic. Because of you, the way they look at the world has shifted.
Babe, you are a beautiful storm they weren't prepared for. Your person will be in no position to hold your hand. Meeting you will trigger a massive wave of introspection, drifting into a heavy space of self-reflection instead. Yes, you will be forcing them to look in the mirror. They will be realizing just how rare someone like you is, to come by. They will be obsessing over you, mentally and physically, and that level of intensity terrifies them.
It’s an obsession they can’t control. If they could lie their way out of this internal hell, they would. It’s why they’ll either freeze you out or avoid you like a plague. They’d happily deceive themselves just to stop the self-sabotaging thoughts from consuming them. But I’m afraid they are past the point of saving. They can't unsee you, and they can't escape themselves.
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Pick A Card: ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ Why Are They Thinking Of You Right Now ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡
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Pile 1
Hi. The person I'm channeling is someone from your childhood. Someone you've known from a young age, lived in the same town with. The photo itself tells me you two could have bonded over a similar taste in the arts, music, books and painting or the like, winter could be significant. Journalling could be significant. Making things, doing DIY crafts could be significant too.
How are they feeling about you? They feel like you're a toxic attachment they can't get over. Their thoughts of you go round and round in a constant loop. You two could have been in some sort of institution together, school, college, a cult (?) don't ask me why that came through. Religion is coming through strongly. They think of you as someone with a lot of fire and potential, and they know you'll drive many great things in life. They feel like you've left them behind. You've undergone a shocking change recently and they've noticed. They are trying to defend themselves against the comparison that flares up in their mind when they think of you, "Pile 1 could do it, so why can't I?" But they know they haven't accomplished what you have because they didn't put in the effort like you did. They envy you, and they admire you. They are exhausted when they think of you, but they also know you lit a spark in them, you motivated them in a way nobody has ever done. And that's why they cannot stop thinking about you.
Pile 2
From the picture itself, beaches could be significant. Maybe you like eating crabs. It reminds me of the trip I went to recently at the beach, and looking at the waves I realized I deserved more in life. You might resonate with the feeling that you're meant to have more in life, and that you should, and you are destined for greater things than most people imagine possible in life. Something about cats and whales came through.
Your person likes you a lot. So much so that every waking thought of theirs is laced by you. They go through life with rose colored glasses. They see things that reminds them of you constantly. Maybe they see something in a window display of a shop and go "Oh pile 2 would like this!" This is not giving me romantic commitment, more like somebody who has a crush on you. A huge crush on you. But they keep their feelings contained. Maybe they offer bits and sprinkles of their feelings in daily banter, letting you know subtly that they're interested in you. But their feelings go much beyond a superficial desire for affection. There is a deep wisdom in this person who knows that grass is greener where you water it, and they're in this long haul with you. They want the fulfilled version of life with you and they're not about to half ass it. However, you might be a bit closed off to romance so this person for now is playing it cool too. You might be a bit too career focused. Law and criminal courts could be significant, or themes related to justice.
Pile 3
When I first saw the picture, it reminded me of children. I'm not sure why. You might be fond of gift giving as a love language. And of course, the picture has flowers in it so flowers could be significant too. This could be my no contact, or exes pile. Not necessarily but that's what I feel like it is.
Your person views you through a lens of accomplishment. They respect you tremendously. There's so much respect and admiration in their eyes for you. They think you're magnetic and whenever they think of you they feel like you're the best thing that's ever happened in their life. You bring light, joy, hope, happiness, and healing into their lives. However underlying so much admiration is a constant anxiety and dread that you'll leave them for something better. You don't stop for anybody, you don't change your life to accomodate anyone. They appreciate and admire that but they're also intimidated by it. They know one day you'll find someone better, this person feels very insecure. They put you on a pedestal and in turn that left them feeling like the dirt beneath your shoes. They feel like you'll move on from them and they're very anxious and trapped in such thoughts. They love you so much that they're afraid to lose you. And that's the only thing they can think about.
Pile 4
Exhaustion. I feel totally and utterly exhausted. Go to sleep, pile 4. Your energy is tiring me even, let's all go take a nap. *Yawn*
Something about Russian tragedy is coming through. Bowl cut, femme fatale, different language, accent, something foreign is coming through. Disney movies, barbie movies— someone here is fond of children's movies. The letter S and the sign Sagittarius could be significant. This is a breakup pile. This person is one of your exes.
Now, I don't know what happened but this person is in PAIN. A lot of pain. They view you through the lens of a magnetic and fiery being, but following that admiration is just total, utter devastation of knowing they've lost you. There was a period of pause where they let the situation between you two hang before the cord was cut and the connection ended, and the universe wants you to know it was necessary. It was justice dealt to both of you, to even the scales of your connection because otherwise it was too unsustainable. Following that is much, much pain. They have spent a lot of time wallowing in grief, and they wanted to move on, and they're slowly still trying to make adjustments so they can continue on with their daily routines and life beyond you but it's hard. Your connection may have been very unbalanced in nature, one person was giving way too much and the other was taking too much, but either way, they have emotionally walked away from you, and that kills them inside. They see the light at the end of the tunnel, but the pain your memories have left behind is hard to deal with.
Hi. I'm genuinely so tired and exhausted. This mercury retrograde has effectively rendered me so physically sick that I cannot do anything else. Goodness. Hope you guys are doing okay!
one two and three piles with intuitive messages about gifts headed your way, i recommend you use it as confirmation of whatever you’ve been manifesting ♡ feel free to claim all
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one
your card is ego or the devil! symbolic objects are a pen and a lavender plant.
i keep hearing something about 3 scoops. i hear you’re putting in your two cents. your opinion is being requested and counting for something big/you’re finally able to SAY something important to you. i’m hearing that you will impress someone a lot. like your talents or visuals will be rewarded because you’ve done an impressive job. i’m also hearing that a manifestation is coming in 3s? maybe that’s what the scoops thing is for. it’s like you ordered one scoop of ice cream but you got 2 more for free! about the ego or the devil message… i’m sensing that a specific attachment or pattern you’ve had that has been upsetting you a lot but for whatever reason has been hard to let go of will soon be coming to a halt. some of you may be planning a calming vacation or writing up a future plan/scripting for a beautiful, relaxing getaway and it seems like this will help you release a lot of negative things. they’ll sort of just wash away. if you’ve been manifesting a trip, this is your confirmation. i’m also hearing that whatever you write intentionally right now has a loooot of power. scripting sounds like a great technique for you to manifest right now !! ^O^ i’m now getting something about 2 people. you and 2 people? getting together and doing something fun? feels like a much needed hang out, getting to see two old best friends/loved ones after a while or meeting 2 people that give you a great, joyous day <3 enjoy your presents! and look out for numbers 23 and 32. they came up a lot for you 0.0
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two
your card is the fool! symbolic items for you are a creamsicle and a white puppy sticker or figure
you’re getting to do something you’ve never done before. likely something you’ve had to pretend you don’t want because circumstances just didn’t allow it. i’m seeing a lot of freedom for you. orange skies. maybe visiting someplace or seeing a sight you’ve always wanted to witness. metaphorically it’s like seeing the sunset for the first time. it’s quite beautiful. i feel like your heart is going to radiate very soon. i’m getting the imagery of past you rolling a wheel of fortune and it’s like you kept stopping it at the wrong time. like something in your life was spinning too fast that you couldn’t catch it in time, and i’m seeing you will finally be able to do so. and i’m hearing the number 4 so maybe in 4 days.. weeks… months… at 4pm or am lol. it could’ve actually been something that only happens annually so you have had to wait quite a bit because it only comes around once a year. but i’m hearing you’re scoring! october could be important. i think you’re celebrating something in october that could feel very much like a milestone in your life. i’m also seeing that you’re receiving the gift of more calm, slowness, and relaxation for your next couple of months. think coffee shops (or whatever is the equivalent of that cozy, leisurely vibe for you!!), watching a comfort animated movie under a blanket, largely minimized worries, and minimalism. just a simpler daily living. waking up with the right amount of strength. no longer over-doing it. taurean energy is Strong with this group. if you’ve been wanting to eat better that’s definitely coming through. maybe you’re also learning something that’s going to make your days a lot easier like a lot of recipes to cook for yourself or a life hack from a magazine that is so helpful. sensory pleasure is definitely incoming/reawakening the senses. the number 50 or the month of may may be significant to you.
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three
your card is the high priestess! symbolic items for you are mermaid figures and a calendar.
i just heard a line from the mermaid show h2o intro song lol. “we gotta stick together” and “cmon this is our adventure”. if you put two and two together i think you are going on an adventure with someone. getting to step out of the normal, i’m hearing “boring” routine. spontaneity. for some of you you may have been on the outs with someone / had a conflict with someone you love that also loves you very much, and you’re finally going to be able to reconnect and start anew. for others of you, you are discovering lots of new things that you will never want to let go of. things and people that you feel so connected to. you’re definitely manifesting that, and it seems like you’ve been doing so actively. i’m seeing most of your incoming gifts have to do with being more active and participating in more activities. action > inaction is the core energy that’s coming in for you. and i’m seeing that some profound truths will be coming to you. your birthday time may be significant. use it as confirmation if ever needed. let’s say your birthday is april 3 at 2:01 pm and you keep seeing 4:30 or 2:01, these are strong confirmations for something you’ve been wanting guidance on. yeah i just keep seeing that you guys are going to discover something super fun that is so foreign to you. it may be something that you have to keep a secret for a little while. and i see that you’re going to be silently accomplishing a lot of beautiful things and receiving a lot of wonderful epiphanies back to back in the following days. your daydreams or sleeping dreams right now could have lots of hidden messages for you, so take interest in them! you are turning a new leaf. it’s going to be different this time.
Your future spouse has a deeply sensual energy and their turnons can revolve around anticipation and power exchanges. Visually, they are very stimulated by confidence, like picture yourself in something that hints without revealing everything like sheer fabrics, lace, net and they would just love when you look put together but slightly undone, it would feel like you have just stepped out of their fantasy.
Mentally and emotionally, big fan of witty banter and dirty talk, like teasing texts turning into full blown sexting, and they may get aroused because you are able to keep up with them mentally, their interests, and hobbies. This might not make sense but hear me out, they would get turned on when you get vulnerable with them and have deep conversations that drift into you pouring your heart out to them, and them making you reveal all of your fantasies which in your fs' mind is a form of powerful foreplay.
They would love light, grazing fingertups along their spine, with nails gently dragging across their scalp. They adore being teased with slow kisses that never quite land where they want, with exploring hands everywhere except for where they are begging to be touched. A hidden trigger of theirs would be when you initiate, they may come off as very authoritarian which could lead people to usually believe that they will always lead. However, seeing you confidently pull them close, straddle them or voice exactly what you need from them will make their desire for you get even stronger.
Finally, daily life, seemingly innocent things that can be triggers could be you cooking in minimal clothing/their clothes, stretching after a workout, or the focused look on your face while you are working, all of these act as secret turnons.
Song: Beautiful Things - Benson Boone
Pile 2
Hi Pile 2~ Hope you guys are staying hydrated <33
Ya your fs is a lil primal, slightly intense and are turned on by your body in its natural state, early morning, haven't showered, brushed, just waking up, your scent, your curves, everything. Seeing you sweaty after exercise, laughing freely or passionately arguing about something you care about, stirs something wild in them.
Visually, they are drawn to movement like the way your body moves when you dance, or do chores around the house, or just walk with confidence, all of it is arousing for them. They appreciate the natural flushed skin, messy hair and loose oftentime V-neck tshirts. They would also be turned on by you possibly dancing for them, or moving your body as they hold you, their turn ons also include hair pulling (mutual), and biting.
Emotionall, they get extremely turned on by feeling wanted or when you are slightly mad at them, like when you authoritatively tell them what to do around the house, or lecture them about something, I am sorry they will always get horny and the arguments are not going to matter lol. Kink exploration can also turn them on and they may love restricting you so you have nowhere to go as they cover you in bites.
Lastly, something that secretly triggers them is your voice. The way you say their name breathlessly, moan or give commands in bed drives them wild, and building on what I said earlier, they also love morning sex or lazy afternoon sessions where you guys can have hour long sessions. Domestic, seemingly innocent things that trigger them could include, catching you looking at them, arguing with them, when you are in the midst of possibly reading/writing, when you talk to them slightly condescendingly.
Song: That's So True - Gracie Abrams
Pile 3
Hello Pile 3! Hope you guys have been getting enough rest recently <3
Your fs is smitten by you truly and their turn ons include devotion and mutual pleasure. They are turned on by gentle affection and emotional intimacy, almost as if being with you is akin to praying for them and they will definitely see sex as sacred and want it to be meaningful.
Visually and sensually, they love taking their time to explore your body, kissing down your neck, tracing collarbones, spending long moments on every sensitive area on your body. They would love your back, and if you ever wore anything with an open back, your fs is going to be frothing at the mouth.
Their strongest triggers are your sounds and responses, where each and every gasp, moan, or whispered "yes" fuels them and they get incredibly turned on by giving you pleasure rather than receiving it, watching you arch, feeling you tremble as they hold you and hearing you lose composure everything just adds to it, and I heard "Oral love language", so what else can I say that these three words have not already said.
Another turn-on for them could be temperature play and they may love when you give them a casual massage, which will almost always lead to something more. Their hidden trigger is when you show explicit care for them. Seeing you thoughtful, making them feel loved and desired outside of the bedroom makes your sexual connection even stronger. They could also melt when you lay your head on their lap or their shoulder. Their daily/everyday thing triggers include, you fresh from the bath, the way you look when you zone out or day dream, and they will always find themselves constantly waware of you.
He likes how warm, sensitive, and emotionally mature you are, and that makes him feel affection and admiration for you. However, he feels that you’re overly affectionate and clingy, and this ends up suffocating him at times because his feelings for you aren’t as strong as yours are for him. On top of that, the way he expresses his feelings is much more subdued than yours, making him feel like you’re on completely different wavelengths. All of this means that, even though he’s somewhat interested, he ends up not taking action precisely because his feelings aren’t as mutual, and because he prefers relationships that start off more slowly, while you end up showing your interest a little too quickly and displaying a sense of urgency (which, as I mentioned, ends up suffocating him).
He has very deep and genuine feelings for you, and it’s as if he truly understands his own emotions because of his emotional maturity. Often, it may seem like he doesn’t feel anything for you, but the truth is that the way he shows it is different from yours—though there is indeed a lot of feeling, care, affection, and emotional connection. The thing is, he ends up controlling his emotions a little too much and prefers to show them gradually so he doesn’t act impulsively and scare you off—keeping in mind that he expresses his feelings differently, and you need to recognize, appreciate, and understand that. In fact, he feels a strong attraction, admiration, and affection for you and thinks you’re an incredible woman who means a lot to him (the kind of person who’s hard to find these days, you know?), someone he’d be proud to introduce to his friends and family, and someone with whom he sees great potential for building a very serious, mature, and lasting relationship.
He knows exactly how he feels about you and exactly how he wants this relationship to progress, even though it's something very new to him. A lot of the time, you may feel insecure because of how quickly he acts with you, but he acts that way precisely because he knows what he wants and doesn't want to waste any time. His feelings and actions are honest and genuine, even if sometimes it may seem like love bombing. However, there is a lot of truth, honesty, and sincerity there (in fact, there's a high chance that he'll want to have a conversation with you). The certainty he has about you comes precisely from the comfort, security, and well-being you bring him, and that makes him want to build something stable and have happy moments by your side. On top of that, he also sees you as a treasure that he found, as a huge accomplishment, and it's as if he had been waiting for this kind of connection for a long time and finally found it (which is why it seems like he rushes things too much). Basically, the connection you two have makes him feel very happy, satisfied, and fulfilled, and it's as if you fulfill a very important desire in his life.
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Pile 1
As the picture says, cream soda babes. Your future spouse likely wants to creampie you badly (or you might want to cum in them if you're a man, take it as it applies). Either way, breeding kink is heavy. There could be a size difference between you two, that turns them on. I'm also seeing an interracial relationship and an inclination towards hotwifing/hothusbanding. They could be into bondage, shibari, rope-play in general. Your relationship has a lot to do with how you act around them. If you're charming and bold, they'd worship you like a devotee. If you're sweet and gentle, they'd care for you like a parent. There is a very strong soulmate feel to this relationship. You've danced on this earth before, you've met each other in your past lives, and you'd meet each other again. There is an immediate soul recognition that will happen the moment you lay eyes on each other. Your partner is kinky as hell I'm seeing wax play, there is definitely a dominant/submissive vibe going on. They might like to really give you sloppy kisses or spit on your mouth. I don't know why that's coming through holy hell. You two might be very fond of quickies in public places. The thrill of getting caught turns you both on.
You may meet your future partner online, specifically, a dating app. Your intuition will ensure that you get led right to them but there will be noise and competition around you when this person enters your life.
Advice- be cautious for the next few weeks, don't try to win battles or pick fights before considering consequences.
Pile 2
Sexting and writing dirty smut could be one way you two flirt. Exhibitionism is something this person is into, they'd like to capture you in frame. Might love to jerk off to your nudes. Your future spouse likes a romantic vibe, candles and petals when they make love to you. Very gentle and romantic at heart. Needling came through. They might enjoy that, or you might try it and end up really liking it with them. They want to see you in lingerie, they like it when you dress up for them or vice versa, you may like to see them doing all sorts of role play in the bedroom!
Your future spouse is not from your local community. This person is a traveller, and someone who comes from a drastically different cultural background than yours. You might meet them while travelling or they might meet you while travelling. You could be into witchcraft or they could have a very deep interest in the occult themselves. Scorpio energy is strong here. This person has a strong gaze, they can strip you bare to your soul and expose all your hidden vulnerabilities without even trying. They may like to rake their eyes over you, strip you naked in their mind even when you're fully clothed because it turns them on a lot the moment they see you. Your future spouse has a protective nature, possessive too. And has a big shlong-
I know I mostly read for a female audience. But for those that are interested in women, they may have really plump and soft breasts. Huge, is really coming through here. This person might be the one and only person you ever actually sleep with. Your future spouse might be the one who takes your virginity or vice versa.
Advice- For the next few weeks, be extremely direct about your wants and needs. Don't be afraid to speak up. Don't be afraid to set boundaries.
Pile 3
At some point in your married life you might end up having a really good vacation in a hot spring. Something about the water you're soaking in would heal you both. They could be into cum play. Playing with cum, swallowing it, spreading it on tits— a lot of things are coming through there. You and your future spouse will go on a lot of dates. You two would like to date even years after having been together. Aquariums, gazing up at the stars in the moonlight, visiting the ocean— you'd like to do it all. Best cards I've gotten so far in this reading (don't tell the other piles). If you want a family with kids and that white picket fence house look no further. Your future spouse is an entrepreneur and a father. Extremely resourceful, slightly tired, but always gentle, kind and caring. They will treat you with so much patience and love (yep, they REALLY love romantic dates and slow love making) you'd wonder what you've done in your life to deserve this. They would have a fascination with your tits and if you're into women, once again apply as it suits you— you would like their breasts quite a lot.
Advice- If you're travelling somewhere, be extremely cautious of your travel companions. Beware of thieves, or scammers. You'll have an opportunity to pursue something that heals or brings out your inner child, go for it. Don't second guess it.
I'll be offering one free reading to the people who comments '🩷' under this post. Offer only valid for the people I haven't read for yet.
Hi my loves! It's been a WHILE since I've had time to just sit down and do a reading. My personal life is going through crazy change and goddamn, I myself feel so terribly single😂 so i sat down and thought 'Oh fuck what good news is coming their way let's just do some sexy time with our future spouses' and here I am! I hope you enjoyed the reading. Thank you for sharing your energy with me and as always, I love love LOOVEEE you guys!
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HELLOOO! I’VE GOT SOME GUIDANCE FOR YA’LL! so take a deep breath, pick a photo and use your own discernment and as always feedback is greatly appreciated
please be mindful this is a general read!
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PILE 1:
Hola my pile 1's, so l am seeing you are a person who has had a rough past. you have been through things and I am seeing that due to that you could live in a lot of indecision or stagnate energy. You could have this idea that the shit you've been thru in the past defines you and that is very wrong. you could give yourself self constructive time limits that you need to have certain things done at a certain age or time. maybe you feel your past defines your worth and it doesn't.
I am seeing you need to let go of the past and let a new stable beginning come in. be comfortable with this transformation. There could be something you have wanted to do for a while now and maybe you thought you couldn't make it. I want you to invest in it and try. I also want to guide you to let go of the past or stop living in it. once you have the willpower to do that you will feel very confident. also be aware of those around you, what do they offer you as people? do you like the people you surround yourself with?
the universe isn't gonna give you everything you want at first but it will in small portions, so be patient and continue to transform. you are like a butterfly in a cocoon ready to come out Imao..
signs: moon in cancer, 12th house, scorpio mercury, 555, changes, transformative, scorpio, pluto, sag saturn? 777, taurus
PILE 2:
wowzers my pile 2's, I am seeing yall need emotional growth, but not only that you need to learn to savor the moment more. you could be feeling lack when in reality you have everything you need and in fact you are coming into something great like an inheritance of some kind. there is something passed down to you from maybe an ancestor of such that will be of great use to you in this lifetime. it could be a talent, a role or just something you are responsible of.
you honestly feel just stressed out due to this and feel responsible for it. you could act as if you are not stressed and deceive your way out of it. you could be going back and forth a lot. I am seeing theres a group you are with that you fake yourself around maybe? or maybe you are a chameleon
I want you to be okay sitting in your emotions. just sit with not knowing everything. shit doesn't need done all the time you can relax and be passive for a moment. I want you to enjoy all the things you have around you right now. find peace within yourself. protect your peace as well.
signs: pisces, pluto 3rd house, moon in libra, 6th house ketu, virgo mercury, sun 10th house leo
PILE 3:
open tf up, you read it, you carry the baggage of the past as if it still means something. stop staying in this mindset of "oh this is how things always are" or "it is the way it is" no, choose the future, matter fact choose a better future than the foolish shit you had to deal with in the past. the guidance here is you need to invest in a relationship, doesn't even have to be romantic but you need a new fresh and fun person to open your hard ass up. I know you'll feel embarrassed and shy at first but we all start somewhere. go talk to someone, open up for a while, stop being emotionally stagnant.
stop over analyzing and giving energy to the unknown, I want you to relax and just be in the moment. Look at all the good you have now, bask in it. go take care of yourself too! and enjoy the moment. plan a better future than how your past was. I also need you to let go of bad habits and get out of the conditions that are holding you back
what might seem like a loss is a win but you don't know it yet.
signs: 11th house neptune, pisces, aqua mercury, 777, 6th house, earth signs, 7th house virgo? jupiter, scorpio rahu, 999
⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★ very random channeled message for u ⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★
kindly pick an image to see your channeled message. left picture will be the collective 1 and the right picture will be the collective 2.
hello! it's petra again here, i've been inactive for so long and i have been saying this every time i come back here hahaha! i have been really wanting to return to creating channeled messages here and reconnect with my spiritual and creative side! i hope you find this reading helpful and insightful ♡
before you read this, i want you to take a deep breath even just one breath and try to visualize a warm yellow light surrounding you and imagine yourself connecting with your inner self and your higher self as well ⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★
⋆.𐙚 ̊collective 1 (ice cream)
I am sensing that this collective, when you were a kid, you liked to play with blocks or you were just someone who is fond in creating things. Because of this, i sense that you are someone who isn't afraid of rebuilding and rebranding themselves. And, i feel like you are not the type of person who is afraid of doing things again or start over again. You just never give up and i think this is something you got from your parents or your ancestors!
Your higher self is soo proud of you right now because you continue to show up everyday. You do your best and you keep moving forward one step at a time. Group 1, please continue doing what you are doing right now. It may feel like you are operating on autopilot but actually, you are showing up for yourself and building discipline in life and this practice is soo important in life.
Just remember this, good things will come to you as a result of your effort, discipline and consistency and your willingness to keep trying even though it does not feel good all the time. The universe will recognize your effort and i sense that universe will be generous to you if you keep on moving forward. Trust your hard work will be rewarded in divine timing.
That's all for Group 1! If you found this channeled message insightful, I am happy to have made it for you! If you'd like a more in-depth and personalized private reading with me, feel free to reach out and send me a DM! Thank you for your energy and time! Always remember that take these messages with a grain of salt xx
⋆.𐙚 ̊ collective 2
ooh collective 2, the universe is suggesting for you to go out more and have fun with your friends and your loved ones! i think this will help you to revive your energy and improve your mindset right now!
or if you can't do that right now, i think listening to music can help you especially those songs that bring happy and positive vibes! this collective, some of you have piscean placements and inspiration is important so you really have to utilize this if you want your day to go well. I do not know if you would find this helpful haha! I just received that download. I also do feel that you need to incorporate something inspiring or motivating into your daily plans. It could make a big difference to your life and to your daily energy!!!
There is one random download coming through from the spirit. I feel that some of you in this pile may have someone in your life whom you need to give one more chance. This message could apply to any connection as i am sensing that it isnt limited to romantic relationships.
But of course, you have to use your own discernment and consider what feels right for your situation. If you have already seen positive changes from this person, I think it may be worth giving them another chance!
That's all for Group 2! If you found this channeled message insightful, I am happy to have made it for you! If you'd like a more in-depth and personalized private reading with me, feel free to reach out and send me a DM! Thank you for your energy and time! Always remember that take these messages with a grain of salt xx
love,
petra
Pick a Pile: What part of yourself is trying to guide you?
There are moments in life when the map simply stops making sense.
The road that once felt obvious suddenly disappears beneath your feet. A plan you’ve carried for years no longer fits the person you’ve become. You find yourself standing between who you used to be and who you’re still growing into, wishing someone could simply point in the right direction.
Being lost has an unfair reputation. People often talk about it as though it’s a mistake, something to escape as quickly as possible. Yet if you look back at the biggest turning points in your own life, many of them probably began with uncertainty. Before a new chapter can begin, the old one usually has to loosen its grip first. That’s an uncomfortable place to stand, but it’s also a surprisingly creative one.
When the familiar path disappears, we begin paying attention to things we previously overlooked. A quiet curiosity. An idea that keeps returning. A conversation that lingers in our thoughts. A dream that refuses to leave us alone. Little by little, a different direction starts making itself known. fIt rarely arrives with fireworks. More often, it feels like a gentle pull.
That’s what this Pick-A-Pile reading is about.
We’re going to explore the part of yourself that’s already trying to guide you. The quiet voice that’s been speaking beneath the noise, waiting for the moment you’ll finally recognize it.
Take a moment to look at the piles in front of you and notice which one catches your attention first. (Pile 1 = left, Pile 2 = middle, Pile 3 = right) You don’t need to force the choice. Curiosity is usually enough.
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Pick a pile: The Mark of the Dragon: What repressed anger do you need to transmute into fuel for success?
Before you begin: Draconian energies are heavy and difficult. You may read things you don't like. The Draconian path is dark and will drag you through the mud. Reading a pick-a-card won't change your life, but it can confront you with things you don't want to face. I speak from my own experience. Now that you've been warned, it's up to you.
Pile 1: Knigth of pentacles 7 of wands and knigth of cups.
Wow, I sense your anger stems from an environment that has been psychologically battering you over and over again in the same way. You're trapped in a relentless situation, a routine, or a relationship where belittling or manipulation is constantly and slowly repeated. It infuriates you that they always try to use the same dirty tactics to step on you or make you feel inferior. And the worst part is that, for some reason, you've come to believe you're less. Let me remind you that you're not.
As the Draconian energies remind you, a blow is not a defeat. There is a beautiful and unbreakable strength within you. Instead of burning up inside with that anger, you're going to use that rage as a forge to shape your mind. Because the pattern repeats so often, you're going to start seeing the strings of their moves before they even make them. You're going to anticipate their actions and elegantly outmaneuver them. Your greatest revenge will be laughing in their faces, proving you're far smarter than they—and even you—thought. If they try to walk all over you again, they'll have to be much more cunning, because you've already learned the trick.
Pile 2: 9 of swords, 8 of pentacles and the temperance.
This is tough, because I can clearly see that you're suffering from anxiety, post-traumatic stress, or something quite difficult. Something very painful must have happened to you that robbed you of your peace, your sense of security, and your sense of belonging. Your anger isn't about what's happening today; it's the echo of an injustice or pain that occurred long ago. It's the accumulated rage from the harm done to you, which has become lodged in your nervous system, keeping you in a constant state of alert that exhausts you.
You might tell me to get lost when you read this, but the energies of the dragon are asking you to stop directing that anger outward and use it as fuel for your own rebuilding. Your mission is daily psychological work. Educating and healing a wounded mind isn't impossible, but it requires the patience of an artisan. Transmute that anger into the discipline necessary to go to therapy, to meditate, to set boundaries, and to heal your emotional wounds little by little. Use your inner fire to heal your own story. Your greatest success will be regaining the peace of mind they tried to steal from you.
Different things work for different people; for me, it's consistent effort and routine, for others it's journaling, for others it's therapy. I don't know what will specifically help you heal, but face that wound head-on and use anger to heal and move forward.
Pile 3: the chariot, 9 of pentacles and the fool.
The anger you feel stems from a stagnation that has lasted far too long. You seem to have a stable, comfortable life, handling things with a cool head. However, it fills you with tremendous rage to feel that, because of so much calculation and control, you're missing out on the thrill of living. It infuriates you to realize that fear has made you too predictable, trapped in a glass castle you don't dare leave for fear of losing what you have.
It might sound crazy, but draconian energies are chaotic; they ask you, or rather demand you, to use that pent-up anger to release the handbrake.
Your inner fire must become the engine of your next leaps of faith. Stop relying so much on logic and start acting more impulsively. Mind you, this doesn't mean hurting anyone in the process; it means having the courage to do the things that terrify you. Use anger to take the reins of your life and dive headfirst into adventure and what truly inspires you, without asking permission. Your success isn't in security; your success is in the courage to dare to be free again.
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Pick a Card: How does your crush view/feel about you?
Pick one pile, from left to right.
Pile 1 🌸
I say, you’ve got your crush in a bit of a state! To your crush, there is something maddening about you, like an enigma, as though they’ve been handed a particularly tricky puzzle that can’t be solved. You are a fever in their mind. Everything about you is a question they cannot answer. They feel themselves slipping, losing their footing in the effort to translate your spirit of life.
They look at you like they see something they have never seen before. They watch you navigate the most hideous difficulties with the grace of a saint. You possess an aura that is quite dangerously bright; it doesn't just light up a room, it simply swallows everything in the surrounding. The funny thing is, you aren't even trying. You don’t want the attention; you’d actually prefer to stay under the wraps and just do your own thing. Your energy is like a solar flare. You could have strong Solar Plexus (Manipura), you could be a Leo or have strong Fire placements or Sun aspects in your chart.
Your crush observes that your self worth does not lean on the opinions and validation of others. They are amazed by the fact that you don't seem to need anyone's approval. You don't hunt for compliments from other people. You fill your own cup.
To them, you’re like a ghost that leaves a warm trail. You can be fully there one minute, and then gone the next without a single word. You don't make a scene about leaving; you just disappear into your own life. Just when they realize you're gone, they see a photo of you halfway across the world—learning Sashiko stitching in Japan or exploring Moscow. You’re always moving, always onto the next adventure. You exist in a constant state of ‘elsewhere’. Your crush thinks you are really good at keeping your private life and public life separate, effortlessly.
They view as someone who is fundamentally possessed with privacy. In an age where everyone is pathologically eager to be known, you feel no obligation to 'report' your life to the world. You don't pry into the lives of others, and you expect the same courtesy in return. You treat your life as a private collection rather than a public gallery; you have no desire to explain yourself. You mind your own business with such grace that it makes the prying of the world seem quite vulgar.
This lack of prying—this refusal to intrude upon the souls of others—is what your crush finds the most remarkable. You don’t feel the need to be seen to feel valid.
You are exactly like the sun. From a distance, everyone can see you, and everyone feels your warmth. But the closer someone gets, the more the light takes over. It becomes this bright, white glare that swallows everything up, making it impossible to see the details of your life. That is your secret: you don’t hide in the dark, you hide in the light. Your joy is the wall that keeps your privacy safe.
To your crush, you’re a contradiction. You’ve got this solar energy that pulls everyone toward you like a magnet, but you couldn't care less about the crowd. They see you command a room with just a look, only to watch you walk away from the noise to go nurture yourself in the silence, or spend an hour being charmed by a stray cat. You're the one person who has everything the world wants, and yet you want none of it.
Your most alarming talent is your sheer adaptability, how you can adapt to anything. Your crush may have noticed that you dive deep into a project or a place, and before anyone can catch their breath, you’re working it like a pro. You have this natural way of figuring out the hardest tasks and working around them with ease.
All of this makes you a total mystery to your crush. They see you like a forbidden fruit—bright, beautiful, and right in front of them, but with absolutely no way to get close. Everyone can see the light, but no one is granted the key to the sanctuary. It’s the most confusing trick in the world: to be the brightest thing in the room and still remain completely untouchable. They can bask in your light, but they can’t catch the star.
Here’s my advice:
Since your crush finds it hard to pin you down, the ball is really in your court. You should be the one to bridge the gap. Find a moment and initiate a long, sweet conversation. By slowing down and giving them your full, undivided attention, you’re essentially "lowering the shield" of your bright light. It lets them see that you aren't just a distant sun or a vanishing enigma, but someone they can actually reach. Without that intentional step from you, they might stay in the shadows.
Pile 2 🌸
Your crush is petrified by you!
They view you with a most distressing mixture of admiration and resentment. They find you irresistible in a way that makes them uneasy. They hate how much they desire you. They resent how much they want you. How easily you get under their skin. They view you as their greatest weakness and their most violent obsession. A magnetic pull so vulgar in its intensity that they have no choice but to resist you. To them, your beauty is a provocation that makes their blood boil with a mixture of lust and genuine irritation.
They view you as an obsession that has taken over them in a way that feels like a bruise—tender, constant, and impossible to ignore. The pull is so violent they have to physically brace themselves whenever you walk into the room. To them, you aren't just someone they "like"—you’re a physical need that’s making them sick. They feel the pull of you like a punch to the gut every time you walk in, and it leaves them breathless and angry. They see you as this impossible tease, someone who is always just out of reach, and the frustration of not being able to touch you makes them act out. They’re grumpy and standoffish because they’re in actual, literal pain from wanting you.
They find themselves being possessive about you, having a carnal ache that is so intense it feels like a bruise on their soul. They feel a constant desperation to perform for you, to be the most articulate or the most interesting version of themselves. They view you as the ultimate metric of their own value. They want your validation.
They see you as a bit of a force of nature, someone who burns a little brighter than most, who feels everything a little too much. In your crush’s eyes, you don’t simply 'take an interest' in things; but you colonize them. They’ve noticed that once you’ve set your mind on a goal, you pursue it with a terrifying focus - be it friendships, relationships, hobbies, projects. They see you want things with a kind of certainty that makes the world feel temporary, like it exists only to rearrange itself around your will. And somehow, it often does. And when things don’t go the way you expect, your reaction becomes immediate. You don’t seem easily shaken. When challenged or misunderstood, you stand your ground and face it fiercely.
To your crush, you come across as someone who is always on guard. It gives the impression that you’re often having to stand your ground—defending your choices, your name, or your personal space. There’s a sense that you may have had experiences where things got amplified or turned against you unfairly, whether in a professional setting, socially, or through public perception (maybe your crush have heard some rumours about you form the past). Because of that, you seem careful about what you allow in and who you let close.
To them, you are the living definition of grace under pressure. You carry an energy that is both grounding and deeply unpredictable to those around you—in the best way possible. Your crush views you a survivor who refuses to let the past dictate your future. While others might expect you to be jaded or "bogged down" by the weight of your experiences, you carry on strong.
Pile 3 🌸
I really like this pile. It feels the most grounded, and it's the sweetest one out of all.
How your crush views you, sweetie, is that you are someone he could spend the rest of his life with—the person he'd want to marry, grow old with, and create a stable, happy family together. There are such strong, respectable feelings between the two of you. It feels like you're already in a relationship, or at the very least, you both know how you feel about each other.
Your crush's energy feels kind, genuine, and honest. I feel like the same energy is reflected in you as well. There's a sense of mutual respect, sincerity, and emotional maturity between the two of you. He is really attracted to you—I mean, really. The attraction feels incredibly strong. Girl, this is the kind of energy that says, "I could have babies upon babies with you."
I sense there may be an age gap between you two. I strongly feel the masculine energy is younger and carries himself like a mature man with responsibilities.
Your crush tends to think about you often. Whenever they see something, they’re reminded of you and wonder how you’d react or feel about it. Even when you’re apart, you’re still on their mind. I can imagine them sending you random photos or videos just to say, “Hey, this reminded me of you, hehe.” This is such a sweet energy, Pile 3. I am so jelly.
For some of you, this could be a high school sweetheart connection, with both of you staying strong together since the very beginning. For others of you, your crush may have been in relationships before - I feel like there could have been several. But with you, it feels like everything is finally falling into place. There’s a sense of balance and “justice,” like they’ve finally found what they were meant to have. And it’s not just them who feels it—their family may also feel that this connection is right. I’m not sure if you’ve met their family yet or not, but either way, their family seems very warm, loving, and welcoming toward you.
There is such a strong sense of family and stability in this pile. Your crush may come from a very traditional background, or maybe both of you do. Either way this energy feels powerful and grounding. They feel like two of you could build something huge together, something real and lasting. Almost like building empires side by side.
Pile 3, if you are not married, I feel like your crush is ready to come toward you and just propose and marry you right away. Oh my god, the energy is that strong. Your crush feels unstoppable when you’re by their side. It’s like you renew them, help them reinvent themselves, almost as if you’re a magic spell in their life.
Pile 4 🌸
Your crush observes you from across the room and that too with great focus. They’re fascinated by you, but it’s not just about what they see on the outside. It’s your brain. You are brain smarts. To them, your ability to have things under control feels like a superior kind of intelligence. They admire the way you handle everything. They just want to be in your orbit, hoping that a little bit of your composure might finally find its way to them. Lowkey, they think you’re really good with words and stuff—like you explain things clearly, write well, and randomly know a lot about that one niche topic that makes you stand out. They may have hots for your voice, like they can literally get off on that! (If you know what I mean.)
Your crush regards you, mon cher, as a “calm in the eye of the storm." You are the cool girl who has this steady, self-assured vibe that says you’ve got everything under control. They aren't just looking at you; they’re admiring your brain and your competence. They’re infatuated with how you always seem to have the answer, how you’re always three steps ahead of the rest of the world.
They may view as somewhat “off-limits" or complicated by external circumstances. There’s this uneasiness—like maybe there’s someone else in the picture, or maybe there already is. Is your crush already with someone else? Or they think that maybe you are with someone else? And if your crush is taken… maybe they would rather not admit their feelings at all. Because noticing you—really noticing you—would complicate things. It would make everything feel like a line they’re not supposed to cross.
Another scenario could be that you both are exes. You are both with other people now or at least one of you, but the new relationship is not real - it’s a performance. Each of you are trying to make the other jealous, trying to prove something like it’s a game, a thrill, a chase.
You still burn for each-other. You catch each other’s eyes, again and again, as if by accident, though you both know it is not.
Despite both the scenario, there is a forbidden sweetness in it, considering the circumstance. The cards show me that you cannot stop looking, and neither can they. And there is recklessness in it. The way you keep looking, knowing you should not, knowing it will hurt, but doing it anyway.
So they hold themselves carefully. Every glance, every almost-moment is measured. They are afraid of ridicule. Not only from you. From everyone. As if this should never have begun. As if even the possibility of it carries something shameful.
Sweetie, your crush is not rushing toward you anytime soon. I’d rather add, they will not make a move from their side, at all! He would maintain his distance. It is his way of protecting himself, of protecting you. Even in the heat of secretly, exchanged glances, he will still be careful. But let me tell you, he still cares for you. He wishes to liberate himself from these feelings that he is having for you, slowly. He does want to be part of your life. He wants to be there through your celebrations and your sadness. There's a genuine sense that he wants to build a place for himself in your world. But the timing is just not right.
Thank you! Leave a comment if resonates. Take care. 🌸
What does the person on your mind say about you behind your back? 🤨
1 - 2 - 3
Pick what you feel drawn to. Choose based on what you feel is right.
Disclaimer: Nothing is set in stone and tarot is not an absolute practice. Don’t take anything too seriously or close to heart. If it doesn’t resonate, pick something else, or just leave it. Don’t listen to anything that may trigger you or stress you out. Take everything said in this PAC with a grain of salt. I don’t condone using tarot for mental health or physical illness. If you are hurting, please seek the help of a professional.
Take care of yourselves 🙏🏾
Pile 1:
Hello my dear pile 1s!!! How are you all doing? I hope you’re well. The person on your mind may describe you as a bright and cheerful person who has boundless energy. They may speak about you being someone who has the skills to do anything you put your mind to. Currently, the feel like that ability is not being directed into the right places, and it’s causing some conflict. They feel like there needs to be some sort of drastic change to get you to where you want to be. Anything that they’ve said behind your back, they’ve most likely said or will say it to your face. (Yay for transparency!!!)
This person could think that you should take a risk you’ve been considering taking, that you have all the skills you need to succeed. This could be a father figure that loves you very much, and just wants you to succeed in life. They may have saw you hanging with the wrong crowd, or just people who wouldn’t have supported where you’re headed in life. My dear Pile 1s, it seems that this truth came to you ,and you maybe had a falling out with this group of people (twins!!!). Or just left them behind to pursue better things. This person thinks that you can move forward in a better direction now without these people holding you back.
Pile 1, your entire immediate family could be worried about your ability to wield discernment 😭. They may think you don’t use your intuition enough to weed out peculiar and unfortunate people. They may speak about how they wish you used this part of you more often. I think that they will succeed in their wish and you will become more wise in this department. Your family—especially your father—are very protective of you. I also think that you may be divinely favored in some way. If you’ve had any hardships, or have been wronged in anyway, then the karma from that will come back to you. I think you have evolved and are changing for the better.
Intuitive messages:
Someone could be going to group therapy, or have their family holding group therapy. Someone here may have been a problem child and has changed things around for the better. If anyone here is close with their father, then he speaks of you very often. You’re his favorite lol. Some of you have a secret admirer who may be speaking about you as well. They adore you <3
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Pile 2:
What’s good my Pile 2s? I’m getting really loud and fun energy, this person could be a close friend or something of the sort. Woah! Big cards here Pile 2, this person may be really really important to you guys. This person feels like you may have given up on something or just in general. Their energy is very fierce and fiery lol. They feel like you need a change of mindset so you can move forward. They ABSOLUTELY believe in you whole heartedly. They believe that you will reap what you sow and achieve your dreams.
Pile 2s, I’d advise you guys to check Pile 1 for some messages, if you feel called to. This person believes you deserve the absolute best, and thinks that you should want this for yourself too. They may have witnessed you experiencing some hardship and wish they could tuck you into a corner and take care of you themselves. For some of you, this could be someone that you were really close to that passed on. They’d like you to light a candle for them, or speak to them in some capacity. For others, your friend (cause that’s the energy I’m getting) could feel that you have some sort of defeatist mindset that they’re fed up with. They feel you need a cleanse, a change of pace. They’d like to take you somewhere to do something fun so you can stop your moping lol.
For some of you, this could be a spouse or a romantic partner. This could also be a friend that has romantic feelings for you. They may see you in this current state and want to ease your worries. You could be getting communication (maybe a confession) from some of them soon. They hope that they’ll be able to bring you back to center with their affection, aweee <3333 This person is hoping that you will be able to achieve peace and that you’ll trust them enough to help you get there. They care about y’all a LOTTTTT and want you guys to be great.
Intuitive messages:
This is someone that’s very loud lol, they could be loud about how they feel about you or just in general. I’m getting many beautiful things for you guys, if you guys think no one really likes you (romantically) then please prepare to be proven wrong :P . Some of you may have some opportunities presented to you by an older masculine. Someone could be announcing their relationship lol. Some people here could be getting married to the person mentioned in this reading.
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Pile 3:
Hello Pile 3s! This persons energy is very mellow, almost tired. This may be someone that’s accepted defeat in some capacity. This feels like someone you may have shut out of your life who’s speaking about you. They feel like they got the shorter end of the stick when you left. This could be some sort of karmic soulmate. They strongly feel the way things ended was unfair to them. They feel like you’ve left them out in the cold completely and they were done dirty.
This person could be watching you in some way and feel like you’re better off without them. They feel like even though they’re able to view you, you don’t share much about yourself and still keep your privacy. They may be viewing you through social media or something of the sort. They want to move towards you in some way. If you’re no contact in ANY capacity then they’re hoping they’ll run into you by chance. They’re hoping that they can speak to you and make amends.
You could’ve gotten rid of this person last year, and may meet with them on the anniversary of the falling out. You could also meet around a holiday or someone’s (yours or theirs) birthday. They hope that they’ll be able to work things out and reach some sort of mutual agreement with you. For some of you this could be an ex or someone that had a crush on you that wants you back. I don’t think that they think of you negatively, they think of the terms you left on negatively. They’re very heartbroken over them.
Intuitive messages:
This person could have dark hair. You guys could have a lot of history together. Don’t go back to them, they haven’t changed. Love isn’t enough to mend what happened between you two. Someone here needs to lock in. Damn they’re like REALLY heartbroken lol, they really do hope you let them back in. Heavy defeated energy, just completely beaten down and broken.
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Sunday note:
WHEW! Girl…Let’s talk about these piles. It was difficult to pull on Pile 1s energy. It’s like they’re trying to be very gentle about what they’re saying. They don’t want it to come off mean. Piles 2 and 3 were very open. 2 especially, I was trying to keep the piles even but they had SO much to say. Pile 3 is just miserable asffff omg. That miserable ass energy girl, do NOT take that person back. I have a feeling that they deserved what they got. They’re just not happy because karma may be getting them in a specific way. Maybe you’ll get to see them grovel though, that’s always fun (to me 🤩). Doing topics like this really scare me because I HATE negative messages. The energy can be heavy and upsetting (like pile 3, miserable ass). I’m glad piles 1 and 2 were just worried loved ones, that was sweet. I know I talk a lot about feelings here but that’s just what these people are saying in context to you. Haven’t we all heard an “I just feel like…” when speaking to someone? I use it all the time idk. I hope to do a more lighthearted reading like summer fun or something like that. I kinda wanna do silly readings as well, idk, send your suggestions my asks are open!!! I hope everyone has a good day/night and this reading resonated with you. That’s all from me,
Just found out I am going on a 5 week trip meaning ima have to meal prep these fucking readings so my posting can stay semi consistent 😪 anyhow..just pick a fucking pile use your intuition and take what resonates, feedback is appreciated!!
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PILE 1:
this person might wanna say things to you but they might be scared to see how you’ll react to what they have to say. this person is guarded and they might admit they’ve emotionally transformed from it. this is also showing up more as, there is shit they are scared to say due to their past. they prefer to ignore the bad emotions and power through cause thats what they are used to. they don’t wanna come off to emotionally reactive. they do want a connection with you and something long term and stable but they might not be at that place yet. they might’ve been through a lot to get to a certain position and now they don’t wanna add anything else into the mix that can fuck it up. they also don’t wanna get rejected. they definitely need this distance and need to work on their self image. the connection may be good, but they are not. there is shit from their past they still worry abt and cant cover up
damn ima say this ones no contact for a good damn reason. was this person an asshole? I can tell lol.. uhh they have shit they REALLY..like really wanna say to you. it would come out rude as fuck to. They have this lurking feeling for you that triggers them really badly so their actions toward you don’t seem to positive. Very cold, dry texts even someone being angry is all the shit i see. there is tension for sure, I see someone being very snappy and the other being very calm collected and grounded. there wad a heartbreak tho, and this person has ideas of smoothing it out, but not before taking their emotions out on you(sorry..👀🤷♀️) very strong energy with the devil being the first card out.
this felt very sweet, i’m hearing “I could’ve done better” this person is very tied up by themselves. They are locked up but they have the key and unfortunately still can figure out how to get out. they think you are very sweet and they know they could’ve given more. They held back their own potential. they do want you but they did s lot of self sabotaging. they blocked themselves in having an opportunity with you and got in their head abt it. they do want this connection and i see them looking in the direction towards it but controlling themselves from indulging in it. also there is smt here you already know abt so use ur intuition. they need a break
signs: scorpio, 3rd house, 333, saturn in air signs(specifically libra), 4th house, aries and uranus
Pick a card: How do you desire people and how can you accept it instead of doing what others do?
Attraction and desire are concepts that have been playing over and over in my head. There are many opinions on what that should be like, from person to person.
My desire manifests itself in an intense yet constrained way with an edge to it and I think to accept it, I need to stop covering it up with being playfully mean, like testing people lol, 'cause deep down I'm a sweetheart; it's immature.
Anyone else relate?
- thepinkscope
Pick a card: How do you desire people and how can you accept it instead of doing what others do?
One
Kash Doll - Doin Too Much
How do you desire people?
Oh, this is such a strong and self-assured energy. I’m picking up that your most authentic expression of desire is incredibly expressive.
You desire people blatantly. That is how it manifests deep inside, lol.
There’s a part of you that just wants to ignore being perceived when you express your desire for someone; you just want to show it. Show them how much you like them or show them how much you like yourself when you’re around them.
DJ Pepsi - Pride (feat. Monique Bingham)
How can you accept your own desire?
Pride is the perfect word. I’m seeing that you can be very prideful about this, like instead of expressing your loud and bright desire for someone, you’d rather get an attitude or brood or cause an argument or two.
I’m seeing that when you are loud about your desire for someone, there’s something inside of you that becomes angry at yourself. You’re harsh with yourself. You might think you lose something in the dynamic between you and the object of your affections.
You might want to work on the self-doubt. Look, you’re perfect as you are. I know you don’t believe that. Fuck, it’s really hard to ignore self-doubts in a romantic context, but I think you have to give those doubts less credibility.
Just because you repeat the thought daily doesn’t make it true.
Two
Timbaland - Say Something (feat. Drake)
How do you desire people?
Oh my goodness, your desire is devotion. You’re such a lover. I think you’re so sweet and so earnest. That is how your desire shows up. It’s very kind.
The way your desire manifests is supportive, like you want to be close with the person by making sure they know you have their back.
You are a giving person, which can be really weird to navigate in today’s world, right? I’m sure you’ve heard that you need to be super careful with that, but that energy is just who you are deep inside.
When you desire someone, you just become so considerate and thoughtful of that person.
Really locked in and observant!
Black Eyed Peas - Boom Boom Pow
How can you accept your own desire?
Oop.
I think to accept this side of yourself, all that support and consideration need to go to the first priority: YOU.
I’m seeing that the more you put yourself on a pedestal, the more you would not mind extending this very soft and kind side of you to others.
It's hypnotic almost. Very powerful.
People will find it hard to take you for granted because they can sense you’re very aware of your own worth and you would absolutely choose yourself first over them.
Like, you can be all sweet, but you’re still wearing the crown. Incredible energy pile 2. So hot!
I think your desire reminds me of a wild cat. Very stable, soft, yet it can stalk anything that catches its eye with this ever-brimming curiosity.
You become so curious about the person you’re interested in. You embrace the energy of sensuality like you want to be looked at; you want to look. You want to be around the person. You want to ask a million questions.
You want them to reach but not be able to catch you. Not yet at least. You enjoy a game of cat and mouse regardless of your gender! It’s not a gendered thing.
This type of desire is a classic.
Arlo Parks - Pegasus (feat. Phoebe Bridgers)
How can you accept your own desire?
I think to fully accept your own really sensual desire, you need to think about yourself as well, right? Like, think about what you need from others romantically.
The more you think about what you need romantically and what you like, the more you’re able to be that curious cat without feeling like you’re losing yourself to someone else.
Similar to pile 2, you should be your own priority when expressing your desire. When you’re talking with someone, definitely take note of what they do in that moment to make you feel desired.
Otherwise, you might feel used for your attention, and that might make you a bit angry or distressed.
Side note: I think you like people who are very straightforward in their desire for you, so try to gravitate towards those kinds of people.
Pick-A-Card: What makes you hard to forget romantically? 🏹
IMPORTANT: Calm your mind, breathe deeply & focus on what photo(s) you feel most drawn to. Don’t rush, then, when you’re ready, & only if you truly feel drawn to a photo, read the corresponding pile(s). PAC works even if you’ve never been in a relationship. Feedback & tips are greatly appreciated.
Pile 1:
cards pulled: tea leaf - dagger, younger man, stork, tortoise, bird flying, horse. archetypes - slave (shadow), child: orphan. tarot - king of wands rx, four of cups, queen of cups rx
You’re hard to forget because you leave an emotional mark even when you don’t mean to. People remember you as someone who changed something in them like you made them feel exposed or confronted in a way they weren’t expecting. You cut through people’s ego, call things out, & you shift the power dynamic. You don’t let someone keep living in their fantasy version of themselves. You also have this bittersweet, hard-to-place(?) vibe. You feel really emotionally complex, like you’re caring but not easy to fully reach. People may keep replaying you in their head because they never feel like they got the full story with you. Even if you weren’t trying to be mysterious, you come off like someone who holds a lot back, & that can make people obsess over you & your intentions or what you say. It really sticks over time because in people’s heads you represent change, or like a slow building impact/momentum. People remember you as a turning point in their romantic life, like “before [you]” and “after [you].” You make people keep thinking about you from a distance. You’re unforgettable romantically because you create transformation in people & you don’t feel replaceable. You might not be the easiest love, but you’re definitely the one people learn from.
Pile 2:
cards pulled: tea leaf - casket, gong, funnel. archetypes - martyr, angel. tarot - queen of cups rx, king of wands rx, ten of pentacles rx, eight of pentacles rx, chariot rx, hanged man
You’re hard to forget because you feel like a wake up call in a relationship. Its the feeling of someone realizing something ended, they lost something or things shifted/changed permanently after you. You just don’t leave things the same. You probably aren’t even loud or destructive about it, but once someone experiences you, it rings in their body for a long time. It’s like you mark an ending of an old pattern or a chapter closing. Your energy is quite intense, but in a subtle way “humming” way. You feel deep, but also not fully accessible? Like people can’t read you cleanly so they’re left wondering what you really felt, what you were holding in, & what was actually real. That uncertainty keeps you in their head for way longer than they want to admit. People romanticize you, you come off like someone who loves hard, gives a lot, tries to make it work, & carries more than your share. Even if you aren’t perfect, people remember the effort & the loyalty. They remember you as someone who was willing to invest in the connection. You also have a way of making someone focus, when you’re in their life, you become the main thing they think about. They get pulled into your world & your pace harshly so they’re left with that unresolved feeling of “it could’ve been real if we had just gotten it right.” You’re unforgettable because you feel meaningful, like not a casual fling at all, even if it didn’t work, it felt really important.
Pile 3:
cards pulled: archetypes - queen, warrior, poet (shadow), monk/nun, mediator. tarot - ten of swords, two of swords rx, five of cups, the sun, six of wands
You’re hard to forget because you have presence & pride. People remember you as someone who carried yourself like you knew your worth, even when you were hurting. You have genuine strength, standards, & backbone, you don’t beg or chase, & that alone makes people think about you later, because they realize you were not easily replaceable. You’re also the type people regret losing. You leave a “damn…” feeling behind, like the person knows they hurt you or fumbled you, & the guilt sticks with them. They can try and be nonchalant but the truth eventually hits them & they can’t keep pretending they didn’t care or lying to themselves about what happened. You become the relationship they look back on & finally admit mattered. The strongest part is your bounce back though, you glow even brighter before you net them & you get your confidence back tenfold & people see it. You don’t just disappear into sadness & that makes you unforgettable because people remember the contrast easily. Like you were strong, real, hurt, & yet you still came out shining. You’re unforgettable romantically because you have dignity, impact, & crazy good bounce back.
Pile 4:
cards pulled: tarot - nine of pentacles, six of pentacles rx, five of pentacles rx, knight of pentacles, the empress rx, ace of cups rx. tea leaf - wishbone, hills, fire. archetypes - rescuer (shadow), networker (shadow)
You’re hard to forget because you put in a lot of effort & bring the heat. You come off like someone who is worth the time, the risk, the effort, & worth committing to. You’re not just a moment or fling you actually you feel like a real life long option to people. People literally start wishing on you. They fantasize about you as the one that could’ve worked or even try and manifest you back after it’s over. You don’t seem easy to get, maybe it’s not even completely in your control (like theres obstacles, standards, distance, timing or if is just your own self-respect) but you also being a log of chemistry.l & attraction. The spark that doesn’t die quickly & people can find themselves physically into you long after the romantic connection has died out too. But people do remember the ache of not being fully let in, they remember the feeling of almost having you, or losing you, or not being able to reach you emotionally the way they wanted. It can feel uneven, like one person wanted more, gave more, or felt like they were never fully chosen. That imbalance is what keeps them thinking about you. You tend to be significant in someone’s life, like you don’t just date, you get involved. help, connect, open doors, influence, even if you don’t mean to, you change people’s lives a little. You feel rare, steady, attractive, hard to access, & genuinely life changing to experience.
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PAC: You vs Them Love Connection Check-in❣️- 4 Piles Tarot Reading
💞 You, Them, the Dynamic and advice for you 💞
Here is a romantic love themed pick a pile tarot reading focused on checking in on the relationship between you and the person on your mind. There a four parts: first and second part focus on the Current Energy/Thoughts/Feelings and Intentions of You and Them, part three focuses on the connecting dynamic between the two of you, and part four is some advice for you in this situation. It is possible that You and Them is flipped!
-> Focus on the person you have in mind, then select the picture that draws you in the most.
DISCLAIMER
Remember that this is a general reading meant for many different people and situations and it's possible not everything or even nothing at all fits. If something doesn't resonates or triggers you you are free to let it go. Don't ruin your sleep over a tumblr post and as always nothing is set in stone and you are free to do and think whatever you want in this world.
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PILE 1 🔥
YOU
[Current Energy] For your current energy regarding the connection, you seem to be focused on making bold movements and bring changes to the situation. Perhaps there are things you realized about yourself and/or the connection, or you reached a point where the current state of things doesn't satisfy you anymore and you have this urgency to shake things up. There is also a sense of this connection activating the part of you that seeks the sweetness/the thrill of love and flirtation and this is pulling you towards your person quite hard. The issue with this is that you may not have any solid plan or even the mental and emotional ability to bring stability to the situation, like coming boldly towards your person without being able to bring commitment in the long run. Could be a bit immature and wearing rose-colored glass regarding the situation.
[Feelings] Your feelings are young and full of passion. You look up to your person with excitement and a burning desire to explore them inside and out. There is an aspect of wanting to appear confident, beautiful and strong even if it doesn't match what is inside. Seducing feels incredible with your person and you're enjoying those moments a lot because of the stimulation and excitement it provides on every level. Basically I don't think you know enough about your person to really have a rooted sense of love and appreciation, but the spark is there and very strong.
[Thoughts] Your thoughts are somewhat a bit more tainted by worry as there seem to be something you know has to be left behind in order to move towards this connection and you are reflecting on this intensely. This connection requires deep change, to put an end to something and for some of you that might be a chapter of your life, a part or a version of yourself or even another connection. At the moment I don't think this change has been implemented yet, it seems still in the phase of being thought about as a necessity, a question that is being thought of.
[Intentions] This kinda reflects on the feelings like you want to match this person ''status'' in the sense that you put them on a pedestal and you want to appear like you can match them (I'm not saying you aren't able to, but you defo feel like you aren't). Like fake it till you make it kind of thing. You want to appear confident, optimistic, fun to be around and in tune with yourself. But there is an aspect of you that is watching, judging and holding off slightly, like you are ready to put some distance if things don't go as you want them to go. It doesn't read as malevolent but slightly guarded and calculating.
THEM
[Current Energy] They are in a state of non action, and if there is communication it's very surface level and they aren't investing or unveiling much. It seems they are currently observing the connection in a new angle. Perhaps they came to a new realization about you or perhaps they learned something that made them think differently, so it's like they are flipping things in their head and trying to see things differently. So while that is happening and until they find a resolution to their questions, they hold off and observe you. Basically they are looking for truth regarding what is happening and what this connection is and there is a strong need to get to the bottom of it and not push things one way or another until it's figured out. Strong wait and see what you're gonna do to draw some conclusion about you.
[Feelings] There is a feeling of frustration and dissatisfaction about the state of the connection and this is emerging on top of their feelings. Right now it's like they are worn out and lacking trust in where all of this is going. I get the feeling that it wasn't always like this but recent changes made it this way. They feel reluctant to commit and invest further but again it's paired with the feeling of someone who is observing and holding off while waiting for progress on your side of things. So the feelings they have are quite, not exactly detached, I'd say more like wounded and feeling they might be in need of a way out, but also very contemplative. It seems quite hopeless and heavy, like someone thinking they don't have a choice in the matter but have to make it through without you.
[Thoughts] RIght now their thoughts are on channeling their energy into anything that brings them a sense of movement, like work, hobbies or personal endeavors. They refuse to stay stagnant and are trying to stay strong by staying busy. There is also an element that they don't want things to stay like they are with you forever, they want movement and they want change even if that means putting an end to the connection once and for all. Very determined and very individualistic in the sense that they are focusing on themselves and their needs, and what the future might bring if they put in the work.
[Intentions] Their intentions are to stay in control of their energy/emotions/thoughts while again the idea of contemplating their options is present. However it doesn't read as having any real options, it's more a fantasy about what the future could bring at this point, and they get kinda lost in their head with all the possibilities. It seems they don't want to close the door with you but they also certainly do not want to loose themselves in the process. It can appear as being a bit tricky in the sense that they are keeping their intentions to themselves so as not to reveal their next move and having the freedom and ability to do whatever they need to do in the moment. I'm also getting someone who tries to stay calm even though they kinda want to lash out and express their view of the situation. Makes sense they want to hold off (current energy) as it seems they are a bit lost in the sauce and pulled in different directions in their minds.
THE CONNECTION'S DYNAMIC
[Current Energy] It seems neither of you is getting what they want, there is a sense that a lot of needs are being unmet and feeling of intense lack. Like things could be so different but they aren't and there is pain here and feeling like something is broken or not working. There is also a dynamic of holding off actions and let it up to the other person but both of you are doing that and nothing is happening due to mutual sheer apathy. Things could be different, could have been different and it's like you both think that yet none is making a move at the moment (not saying this won't happen, this is just the state of things). Also waiting for life or something to happen that brings you together not seeing what could be done if you wanted to.
ADVICE FOR YOU
If you want things to move further with your connection, you need to bring a sense of stability and dedication to the dynamic. Yes showing up is great but love bombing and disappearing after isn't gonna make your connection trust you. You want a new chapter so you have to act like it and act in a different way than you did before. Have faith in yourself and your vision but back your feelings, thoughts and actions with stable commitment. Stability isn't made in one day but built times after times of effort and care. Slow and steady wins the race. Give and give from your heart with the sweetness of someone who is not afraid of being seen and felt. They look up to you just as much as you look up to them.
PILE 2 🫧
YOU
[Current Energy] You're currently seemingly quite frustrated at the situation with your person, choosing to hold your position and avoiding making any kind of move. Stagnation mixed with anxious waiting, hoping the person is going to reach out, make a move, clarify things and bring you what you are hoping for which is to things moving off ground. There is a fear of reaching out and facing rejection or silence, and a worry about the other's intentions and thoughts regarding you. Beneath all of this there is a real desire to move forward in the connection, but feeling like you can't or shouldn't at the present time because of the other person's actions or lack of it.
[Feelings] You are deeply reflecting on what this connection means for you and coming to the conclusion that this person is someone really special that has the potential to heal you and fulfill all your romantic needs, if things were corrected. There is a desire to passionately and adventurously go toward your person but you feel somewhat lower than them, less experienced and less confident. You put them on a pedestal a bit, and I mean it's not like you don't see their flaws but more like you shut them down and don't see them as important or relevant. You feel like this connection is worth hoping and waiting for and do not want to give up on it.
[Thoughts] Big over thinker vibes, there's probably hasn't been a single thing you haven't mulled over about this connection lmao You wonder whether you should move on but refusing to do so. Also you don't feel secure in your power to seduce and please your person, wondering if there's something wrong with you or the way you appear to them. wondering if they don't like you enough to move toward you and if that's the issue. Also you're wondering whether you should try to open your heart, be direct, vulnerable, and bold, and see where it goes or if you should just cut your losses and move on. Very worried energy,
[Intentions] For your intentions, it seems you want to remain in control of your feelings, your boundaries and your thoughts, to appear calm, collected, rational and in control. Right now it seems you intend on doing nothing and stay with you are. There is also an awareness of the cycles you are trapped in when it comes to relationships and wanting to break free from them as you don't want to put up with anyone's bullshit anymore. Perhaps also leaving the fate of this connection up for the universe and disengaging from it.
THEM
[Current Energy] Your person seems conflicted and is currently choosing silence and retreat to sort their thoughts. There is like a temptation to go towards you, but it registers as something that would feel dishonest or tricky, indicating a third party situation that you may or may not be aware of. They also see you as out of reach and higher than them from a status point of view. They might think you are closed off or that what they would bring wouldn't satisfy you, and they would rather avoid the whole thing than risking rejection or failure. They also seem to try to convince themselves that what they feel is not worth it in the sense that it is not that serious and not worth pursuing and as a result they cage in their heart even more. There is also something they feel guilty about and they are aware of the wrong they did, but for some reason they don't want to make it right (could be about you or the third party).
[Feelings] They worry they are not able to provide right for you, to be stable and committed and they are in contemplative mode about that, turning ideas about the future in their heads. They seem overwhelmed at the moment, struggling to juggle between their feelings who run deep, their ego who tells them to act a specific way that could be qualified as stubborn, and their life priorities such as work. It's like they feel like they don't have the time/emotional resources to take proper care of you so they feel like it's better not to act. There is also a massive blockage with changing the way they approach their feelings and emotional stability, which they are kinda refusing to learn to do at the moment preferring escapism in what they are used to rather that embracing the change.
[Thoughts] When it comes to what they are thinking, they are suppressing their feelings hard because they feel too much, overwhelming, impossible to control. They are wondering about the choice of choosing you which would lead to change the way their foundations are laid out and completely restructure their lives which they think would lead to pain. Again it's not that they don't feel enough but they don't feel like they can rise up to the task but they also have thoughts about chasing you that feel too much and too excessive for them and they don't want to act on them.
[Intentions] It shows in their intention as well as they want to move forward with you and see where things can go and are open at the thought of having something with you, but at the same time they are not ready to let go of old crumbling structures, not ready to make changes, not ready to take risks and terrified of what it could mean. Feels like wanting to avoid the inevitable. So like they want a new beginning but without making the needed changes. They also want to keep their relationship with you on the low/as a secret.
THE CONNECTION'S DYNAMIC
[Current Energy] The current dynamic is at a standstill. Nothing is happening and both parties are focused on themselves. It's like there are too many things to worry about or to care about, too many energies getting into the mix, both from private lives or from other people's opinions and energies, and it's getting in the way. There is also a need to clear the air and level things, for example having a direct conversation that is honest and where both parties can express their point of view, but it's currently blocked because none want to see the other's perspective. But bellow all of that there seem to be a deep bond that feels emotional and spiritual that is hard to ignore and that maintain the bond between both parties. Both parties see the other positively and see the connection as genuine, soft and somewhat sacred.
ADVICE FOR YOU
There is a need for you to be more playful and childlike in your approach and not so determined to get to a quick win to fix your anxieties and the pressure you feel. Don't feel the need to prove anything, stay authentic to yourself and have fun as things unfold naturally. Trust your own vision, trust what you want and don't base your decisions on whatever people are telling you or based on what you think you should do vs what you actually want to do. Also, there may be another opportunity on the horizon for you and a choice will be needed between your person and the future one. In all cases it will be your calling to decide what it is you want to do when presented with this or these opportunities and decide what action is needed for you to give you the stability, commitment and happiness you crave for, opening a new chapter in your life. Again I get a feeling of choosing between two suitors and looking at it through the lens of what will bring the most fulfillment in the long run.
PILE 3🌹
YOU
[Current Energy] It seems you are just coming out of a situation that weighted heavy on you, either another connection, a life situation or simply something that happened in the connection you are inquiring about. You feel defeated and quite low, ruminating to the point where it becomes a bit disproportionate to the situation, a bit too exaggerated, overthinking in a negative spiral.
[Feelings] Your feelings for your person are fresh and budding, so it seems likely this is a new connection or someone you don't yet have a deep bond with. There is a desire to cherish and explore those feelings but also feeling carefully hopeful, because what I also see deep down is a very romantic push, with a sense that this person represents something beautiful and pure for you. Like you see the potential in this person, it's like a sense of truth within you you can't ignore, like your mind skips forward to dream about what could be.
[Thoughts] It seems you want to move the connection forward. Things are a bit too quiet or not matching your desires and expectations at the moment and you want things to change. There is a desire for communication with your person to get out of the stagnancy of the current state of things. I don't get a rushed feeling from that but rather your thought are centered around how to move things further in a stable way.
[Intentions] You intend to build something strong with your person, really putting in the work toward something stable and long lasting. There is the sense that the road to get there will take time and effort and you are at the beginning of the journey, but you are motivated to get there with patience and work.
THEM
[Current Energy] It seems this person recently encountered a loss of some kind, perhaps literally loosing someone or perhaps they experienced a breakup. Right now it seems they view the idea of moving on or moving towards you as something akin to cheating. I don't know if it means they would be cheating by being with you or if it's only a guilty feeling not attached to reality that they have, but there is a strong sense of guilt, regrets and wondering if thinking they are doing something wrong here.
[Feelings] They are deeply observing and mulling over their feelings right now. I can tell they definitely feel something for you, something intense enough to stop them in their track and ask them to think before acting. There is also the idea that a choice needs to be made about those feelings and they are not in the position to make it currently so they hold off and try to find the truth in their heart to know what should be done moving forward.
[Thoughts] They are trying to keep their thoughts contained and undercontrol. There is a feeling that right now things are shaky and they don't seem to be facing their problems but rather to keep things under the lid, is what I'm getting. Like let's keep things as they are and not change a thing for now. There is a sense of rigidity, like they have their own view of the situation and are kinda unable or unwilling to see things differently. An inability to take a step back to look at things with more distance. They don't want to be wrong, like they can't afford to be wrong.
[Intentions] It seems their ultimate goal is to come out on top of this situation, that no matter what choice they make they want to have no regret and be proud of what they did. They know this is an important moment, an important decision that needs to be made and they are trying to find their truth, a path towards long term happiness and fulfillment. It really contrast with the trickery feelings of the current energies and shows that they really want to make things right and not end up being the villain of the situation.
THE CONNECTION'S DYNAMIC
[Current Energy] There seems to be a push and pull between wanting a fresh start full of laughter and innocence, and a feeling that things are stuck between the two of you. There is a mutual fear that if the wrong step is taken it could mean making things more complicated than they already are. Both of you seem to know that there is a need to communicate better, explain your personal point of view and boundaries, which both feels necessary and exciting, and, at the same time, potentially tricky and scary. All in all the connection is unstable at the moment, mostly due to them being in the midst of a difficult choice regarding the connection and you being put in a position where you don't really know where you stand or what to do.
ADVICE FOR YOU
There seems to be a need to rely more on your logic and mind rather than your heart at this moment, while also needing to let the dust settle and time do it's thing. I'm getting that you should be mindful about wanting things to go a certain pace and a certain way because you are 5 steps ahead in your heart. Rushing for answer might not be the best course of action right now, as would be seeking direct confrontation. If talking happens it needs to remain light and optimistic and not push anyone further in their own corner. That also means staying true to yourself, your own sense of confidence and happiness and not abandoning yourself or letting yourself sink. But mostly I think you should avoid pushing things too much and allow things to move at their own pace even if it is slow. There probably are things in this situation that you do not know or that you do not see, either because you haven't thought about them in this angle, or because some information are not known to you, so there is a need to think about the situation more and differently which will help you gain a sense of clarity, which might mean waiting for new info to be known. Right now you don't have the right view of the situation to take the right action so it is advised to stay put. Things may be quite different once you look at them differently.
PILE 4 🦢
YOU
[Current Energy] This seems to be a case where the connection is already well established and you are about to take a next important step in commitment. Could be about making things official with your person, moving in together or even getting married or having a child. This is not for new connections, there is a history between you and them and you definitely know you love each other. Anyway, your current energy is one of harmonious partnership with your person, you feel good in this relationship and you are very motivated and driven about taking things further with them. The future looks bright and you are really confident.
[Feelings] It's super sweet because I'm getting that your feelings are stable and secure, but the spark of the beginnings is still there, still alive and vibrant. You feel fulfilled with them in your life and the emotions flow freely while also being grounded.
[Thoughts] Your thoughts are about caring for your person and the relationship, overcoming obstacles in a gentle but firm way. You are aware that not everything is always easy but you look at the difficulties with the confidence and trust of someone who knows they can overcome them. Again I'm getting that there is a history between you and your person, you've been through highs and lows and it made your relationship stronger.
[Intentions] You intend on renewing your commitment, offering your undying love and respect for your person, walking towards the future with them. Might not be the case for everyone but there is a strong idea of marriage/partnership tied to a ceremony of some kind, which seems to be something you've wished for a long time that is finally becoming real. Strong new chapter energy that is the continuation of the last. In all cases the idea of showing your love in the physical world, materializing in some tangible way.
THEM
[Current Energy] Your person seems to be a bit less glowy than you so they may just be out of a difficult phase of their lives, or they might be a bit nervous about the future. I'm not getting anything necessarily negative, just that there is a sense that they are leaving a way of living behind and moving towards something new in tangible ways and this is a bit scary. But they definitely see this change as positive, and are dedicated to have things happen smoothly and in a way that is well planned and prepared. Their energy is future-oriented at the moment and as often this can trigger nerves when one thinks of all possible outcomes without knowing which one it will be.
[Feelings] You are someone they hold deep feelings for. They chose and committed to you and they feel ready for this new chapter with you. This moment in time seems to ''crown'' an important life phase for them, the culmination of something very important. They feel like they found their match and their forever-person.
[Thoughts] Their thoughts is where things get a bit tricky, I'm getting some type of decision paralysis like they know they need to do something but they feel currently unable to do it. There is a worry that things could not turn out well for them, which seems to not be grounded in reality but in their own fear. Again might not apply to everyone but maybe this person is thinking of proposing to you and they are freaking out about that and getting stuck when having to actually do it. Or could apply to any situation where something tangible needs to be done but the person that needs to do it is getting stuck on a mental level due to a lack of optimism and confidence.
[Intentions] This is reflected in their intentions as there is a strong sense of nervousness/anxiety that they are aware of. They want to get out of that mindset and again, ''crown'' the relationship in whatever way applies to your situation, it just seems to be such a big and important thing for them that they are terrified they are going to ruin everything. They are definitely working through internal blockages, fears and illusions and overly focusing on what could go wrong.
THE CONNECTION'S DYNAMIC
[Current Energy] The dynamic between the two of you is stable and deeply loving. Again it's pointing at a time where things are about to get more committed in one way or another, with the added idea of making it known and celebrated with the world at large and loved ones. Things flow well between the two of you and there is a sense that you found the perfect match for each other and are happy and at home with each other.
ADVICE FOR YOU
The advice for you is to not do anything lmao It seems that the ball is in your paterner's camp so to speak, and it's on them to make the next move. Do not rush them and do not push your ideas, desires and wishes on them. Let them do their things and observe the situation. I'm getting that you have a strong desire about something you want to happen in a specific way, but you might be sooo focused on it that it distorts your perception of reality a tad. So there is a need to look at things with a clear head and to see things in a different angle. I'm getting maybe chill a bit with the enthusiasm and just let things develop in their own timing. Nothing in the reading speaks about big issues so just let yourself enjoy the ride and see things for what they currently are, not what you wish they could/would be. It seems the time is not exactly right so best to take care of the relationship as it currently is and not push your own timing onto your person.
Pile 1: The Judgment, The Death and the High Priestess
This is an extremely karmic reading! Three Major Arcana in one pile! And you're not just passing through, that's obvious.
They feel that your appearance in their life has been like a sign. Perhaps they were emotionally asleep, and you have triggered an awakening. You mark a turning point in their life. Your presence has erased the old version of them or shattered their most limiting beliefs.
They see you as someone deeply mysterious and wise. They think you keep secrets or have a very strong spiritual connection. Your crush doesn't just think about you; they see you as a transformative event in their life!
Pile 2: Queen of pentacles, 5 of swords and 4 of swords.
Your crush sees you as someone of great value, but also senses a barrier or unresolved conflict between you.
They see you as a stable, attractive, independent person who takes great care of themselves. You're someone with whom they could build something solid.
They think you might be hard to get or that there's been some friction between you. They're afraid of rejection or that you might be too harsh on them. They feel that if they get closer, they could end up getting hurt.
He/she has decided not to act for the time being. He/she feels that the situation needs to cool down or that he/she himself/herself needs time to think about what to do.
Pile 3: 10 od pentacles, ace of pentacles and 8 of pentacles.
Your crush isn't playing games; they see you as something very serious.
They think of you as someone they could introduce to their family, live with, or even build a life together. Maybe it's a little soon for marriage, but they're thinking about the future. Because they want a future with you in their life.
They feel incredibly lucky to have met you, like they won the emotional lottery. They see enormous potential in you to make things truly work.
They are willing to put in the effort for you. They understand that a relationship is built day by day and admire how much you also put into your professional and personal life.
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