who? your mom

Cus your independent, and I get it

Focused on your creative vision

No time for outsider visits

I don't want to remember anymore.

Who am I ?

Nobody

I fear for my mind in the winter

If this is what summer feels like I might begin to fall when the leaves turn, and die.

I'm tired all the time.

Sockets keep sinking in, the weight of me is slimmering.

The sun hits my skin but im frozen.

This is getting old.

In need of warmth the one that radiates from the soul.

I've slept through the highs of my youth

When does the doom end?

When do the hate feelings fade?

When does my strength return?

Bassist to the treble of my notes.

A sigh of relief when I couldn't breathe.

A dream I once lived,

Chaotic and free.

Stumbled through trees and trails

Strong and never frail

A silent beauty.

I won't say I miss you,

But I wish it were different.

This longing is deep, but shallow enough too walk away.

You deserve the depth and crevices of an ocean urging you too dive, and explore her glorious coral reefs.

I am merely a river in your path.

Everyday

This is all I have

Creativity

That's it

And I love it and I hate it

And I love it more than I hate it

It's shifty and ever-changing

I'm always chasing and chasing and chasing

The high the low

I'm getting better it's coming

We danced on shiny streets, under florescent lights.

Your intoxicating kiss reverbs.

I'm caught in the tension of your unknown.

to and fro.

Swimming in the sea of irony.

Steel-made love, branding burns.

Yet we continue, with stone cold reasons.

Bloody heartache, you caught my lies at bay.

Seasoned fisherman, you hooked and reeled me in.

Dinner in downtown.

Drinks at the hotel lounge.

Listening to Drake sounds.

I dream

Of pinks teals and yellows

Combustions of everything we've never been

Space travel, then

No refunds for the lost years.

No refunds just foookin tears and judgemental prisons.

Leaders leading with fragile egos.

Abusive and fake people

The temple is filled with harlots

Buying selling

aggressive "spiritual" fighting

Gaslighting

Get out now