âAnd you still arenât. I donât think you ever could be.â Hope? A damsel in distress? No. Not with the life she was thrown into, that they were both thrown into. Nate wasnât the perfect father, he knew that, but with the world they survived he figured he did a pretty good job. âBut Iâm always going to protect you anyway. I shouldnât have even let them get their hands on you.â
He failed her. There was no way of getting around that. That was his guilt to live with though, and Hope didnât need to hear any more about it. She was already dealing with enough.
âAnger we can work with.â His expression stayed soft and understanding, and just mildly concerned. Nate was no stranger to feeling this much at a young ageâ thatâs exactly how he had been growing up. But he was arrogant, he pushed peopleâs buttons. He was angry and he was scared, and he felt things deeper than he cared to admit. He didnât want Hope to end up like that.
He sighed. âLucky is a pretty relative term. I donât want you to stop being angryâ you have every right to be. But I do worry about you.â That was something he didnât say enough. âIâm stickinâ around for a while and Iâve got your back. You donât have to figure everything out on your own.â
âNah. Iâd rather die again first.â Hope shudders in mock disgust. Thereâs nothing against those who have been shoved into that role, but itâs not Hopeâs thing. She was raised to be smart and protect herself. Getting kidnapped feels like letting her dad down. Even though she knows he doesnât look at it like that, Hopeâs main goals her entire life have to been to make him proud and stay alive.Â
Itâs hard to be so loved. That sounds vain to say, but Hope carries the weight of others love on her shoulders. She was the goddamn messiah, the chosen one who was born after the Decimation. There werenât supposed to be any more mutants, but there was. There was Hope. Sheâs spent her entire life grappling with what that means. Nateâs never made her feel like she has to be anything, but the pressure from others remains. The messiah, one of the Five. The list goes on. If Cable hadnât raised her to have a good head on her shoulders, sheâd have developed a complex.
Anger is easy for her to understand. Itâs got less strings than love does. Both are primal emotions, but anger hits differently when it turns everything red. She doesnât respond to that comment. Theyâll find a way to shape her anger, to make it useful. It wonât burn out.
âAs happy as it makes me to hear youâre going to be around, I really do want to reiterate that Iâm fine.â Shaken, yes, but thatâs to be expected. Hope isnât as vain as some but she had thought herself above a kidnapping by S.H.I.E.L.D. of all people. âIâm not on my own. I promise. I have the Five and the Council. Hell, I even have Exodus even if heâs crazier than a rat in a coffee can. Iâve got this.âÂ