⭒wannabe⭒

I feel like my height has been an integral factor to driving my shitty body image development, and eventually, accumulated into a series of €DS. That being said, I wanted to discuss HOW my height served as a conduit for this, as well as benefits and drawbacks to WL as a short girl (short being 5’3 or less, in my eyes).

- Ever since I was a kid, Ive gotten commentary on my body…it peaked in middle school. I know everyone is shitty in middle school but my so called friends didn’t help either. The reassurance I got? “You’re not fat..you’re just short so you look chubby/stubby”

-Most of me weight is stored in my lower body. It sounds better than it is. Even at my LW I NEVER had an hourglass waist, nor thin thighs. I feel disgusted by the thickness/muscularity of my thighs, my fat ass,etc.

- My calorie budget is allotted to a much smaller number. WITH the muscle I have my BMR is 1.3k€. With HIGH/athlete tier activity it’s 2.2 k at MOST. One bad binge can fuck up a whole two weeks of progress (it doesn’t even have to be a BAD b1nge). And there’s very little you can do to extend it past its max athletic capacity bc your body has a natural ceiling to how many cals it burns a day.

-weight gain shows up FAST. Like 2-3 kilos is all it takes and it goes straight to my hips and cheeks (both sets 😭🍑)

- My appetite seems to be under the impression I’m a 6’0 man so uh…

-It’s so hard to go sub 120 as a short girl…

-Our BMI threshold is lower. If you’re 5’0-5’1 anything over 130 lb/60 kilo is basically overweight. It’s so triggering that I’m closer to being overweight that underweight.

🪽🩶Bebefits🩶🪽

There are few..but ultimately there are some perks.

-Weight changes showing up faster is a double edged sword…yes, gain shows up faster. But loss does too. After I recently lost those 2-3 kilos from my b1ng3 spree the difference was evident immediately.

- You might not get that long, lean stretched out model look once you get sk1nn1…but you’ll be a tiny doll. Delicate. Petite.

the more u worry the more stressed u are and the more likely u are to e4t unintentionally

u have to fall in love with the empty feeling

remember it's only difficult for a little while