Haven't been on here in half a year. Just stopping in to make my obligatory November 1st post. You would be 3 today. Naturally, we had a blow up with my SD's BM tonight. No better way to spend the anniversary of my aborted baby's due date - enduring drama and strife on behalf of the kid I gave up my chance to be a mom for.

Last year my birthday fell on mother's day (has happened several times in the past). So no birthday for me... This year it's on a Tuesday, so my husband will be with his daughter during his parenting time and I'll be at a volunteer meeting. A meeting I would've skipped since it's my birthday, but since I don't have anyone to spend it with there's no point in skipping it.

I need a new job. Actually I just need the people on my team that I dislike to go away.

My work is now blocking Sophia Learning smh

I haven't left my house since Saturday morning 🥶

My older cat can't do the steep steps to the basement in my 1940s home, so we put a litterbox upstairs. The younger cat has been using it, too, and stopped using the basement box 6 months ago. But now he's suddenly using that box again now that I'm working from home this week.... Cats are funny.

Not my work crush messaging me on Teams

I love waking up to my house rules being broken. What part of "You can only play the Switch on the dock/TV" is being misunderstood?? Misunderstood by the other parent no less. I found the kid in the basement bedroom with the Switch in handheld mode, which I've said she's not allowed to do because she drops it and has already cracked the tempered glass protector.

Taking care of a baby is wild because I feel like I'm just messing everything up but then I make him laugh or get him to fall asleep (and stay asleep!) and I'm like fuck yes I'm doing alright. It's giving me flashbacks to when I was first exposed to my now stepdaughter. She was 3, and I was completely clueless on what to do. Now I'm pretty good at parenting *kids* but babies are a whole different ball game.

Thanksgiving next year - go with a turkey breast (or 2) not a full bird because I have no carving skills. Get another buffet set. We need a heater in the garage. Make the cranberry tart crust with Biscoff cookies instead of the almond flour route I took this year... And actually cook and blend the cranberries for longer to make the curd more vibrant.