memories

she didn’t get along with her seniors. she had enough problems connecting with her group members. it shouldn’t be a surprise she didn’t make it her priority to become friends with her label mates. “no prior drama experience. this will be my first role.” and this is what made her question if she was ever going to make it into acting. it’s been five years since wish debuted and she was still unsuccessful in getting even a supporting role. “most likely. supporting roles seem to be apart of a normal career. but don’t you know idol actresses tend to get leading roles.” idol actresses had a fanbase backing them up when they plunged into their acting venture. but at this point any role would appease her. but a cliche romance wasn’t on the top of her list. but bc wouldn’t want to ruin wish’s image by putting her in something that doesn’t involve a cliche romance plot, but maybe bc would surprise her. unlikely. “it wouldn’t surprise anyone, but what do you expect from bc?”

taejin doesn’t take much to the juniors — always the first to turn a cold shoulder and an air of disinterest. this time, it’d be no different than another chore added onto the list of tasks commandeered by bc. micromanaged underneath a microscope, this would just be another example written off as following orders to buy his momentary freedom. “no prior drama experience? if this is your first role, just be aware you’re going to be met with a shit response from the netizens.” he puts it bluntly. can’t hide the straight-edged words cutting right to the point because he knows that even a hard layer isn’t enough for the aftermath of names shielded by anonymity. 

she sat quitly and listened to the older man. she knew the shit storm she was walking into. she’s seen other idol actresses suffer backlash from the netizens. she was an idol from bc. how dare she try to make it as an actress? didn’t she have enough of the spotlight? and the truth was no. she shared the spotlight with 8 other girls. she wanted something of her own. besides she never wanted to be an idol. being an idol was her mother’s dream. acting has always been a passion of hers. a dream she discovered on her own. she would just have to prove her worth. show the netizens that she had what it takes.

a twelve year run inside bc entertainment, and the gap between decipher and the younger groups come as a disparaging distance, growing foreign as the years carry on. taejin likes to attribute his few friendships guised as blatant ignorance to merely picking and choosing the people the sticks to. yet, it doesn’t come as surprise or an uproot when bc decides to slide him somewhere else for the image of ‘family’ and ‘unity’ inside the company becomes the stark title of what they want to portray to the growing public. and in his case, another wish member apart from the one who holds the nature of his heart becomes a project bc places for him to instill the basics and xyz’s of creating a formidable acting career.

“do you have any acting roles prior, or is bc prepping you for the first one?” there’s no formalities of welcomes and hellos, just pure black and white force that pushes his words in solid monotones. his eyes glance through the papers, flipping through. lips pursed together as he thinks to ten years ago when the roles had reversed, and he was the one on the edge of a new career. “most likely — they’ll put you in a supporting role to test the waters. unless you’re lucky and you dive lead from the start. with wish’s image and how young you guys still are — it wouldn’t surprise me if they want you to pursue a cliche romance drama first.”

it was one of those very bad, no good days. everything had been off since she woke up that morning. and now? it just kept happening. she found a nice little spot to grab something to eat, pulled out the most recent script that made it’s way to her and have a nice little time. until she realized she didn’t have her wallet. ( and she cursed herself for taking taxi and now she had to cancel a few cards. ) 

but there was a bigger problem she needed to handle. paying for her food. “ah..just one…” she looked at the cashier and then looked around, her eyes spotting another idol behind her. and she really, really didn’t want to do but it had to be done. “excuse me…would you be able to help me for a second..i think my wallet fell out in the taxi..and i will be calling my manager to them to bring you the money..” she huffed. “right after i contact my card company.” 

Choi Yejun had heart it at every livestream: you need to play Animal Crossing: New Horizons. It would be so cute if you did. Share your island with us Jude. Really, it was non-stop. Yejun didn’t have anything against video games. He played every once in a blue moon, usually when he was so creatively blocked he needed something mindless to do. Or when he really wanted to avoid eye contact back in his days in the dorm. Animal Crossing, however, was a little too in line with his wholesome image. What was the point in settling an island and shaking trees for fruit? No one could even die in the damn thing.

Really, it had been an impulse buy of his. Now, ninety hours later, he was clearly hooked. Yejun pumped his fist. Yes, Chief had finally moved to his island. He heard a sound and nearly broke the game as he shoved it underneath his chair. He cleared his throat and attempted nonchalance, though he felt a distinct blush around his ears that was normally reserved for variety shows when they made him do something extra nauseating.

“What brings you here?”

savannah was never a gamer. it never seemed to appeal to her. and even if she did enjoy it she never had the time in her youth. she spent most of her time dancing and practicing for the next community production. her brother was a gamer somewhat. he enjoyed gaming to an extent, something she could blame on his friends. he didn’t really have the time to game. but she’d sometimes walk in on him playing mortal kombat. sometimes she’d play with him until they were unable to keep their eyes open. but it’s been years since she’s set her hand on a controller.

HYEMIN CAN’T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME HE’S BEEN GIVEN A DAY OFF. Even though he knows he can reach out to people to hang out and unwind, he still feels like an unwanted bother. It seems kind of rude to him to complain about busy schedules, considering that some people didn’t have as many opportunities as him. It’s why he tends to hang out with his dog on days like this. After a few blocks around the neighborhood, it seems like Ggomi has tired out, panting and slowing down. Hyemin wonders if this is the perfect timing to grab a cup of coffee, a sweet start to his early day.

Before he can give a second thought, ggomi’s already running towards another person. “Ggomi wait!” he shouts out, running without the leash in his hand. When he can catch his breath, he finally looks up and sees the familiar person. “Hey, long time no see! I didn’t think Ggomi would find you before I could manage to see you.” Hyemin bit his bottom lip worriedly. It had been his fault for not reaching out first, something he felt kind of guilty about, and he wonders if the person had been offended. 

wish was busy. with their popularity bc milked them for everything they had. it's not like she cared. she had no friends. nothing to do besides practice for auditions she kept failing. but deep down inside her she knew all she wanted was a friend. she just didn’t want to each out for one. she was in the practice room getting some early practice in before enjoying her day off. she could dance for hours. it’s the one thing she loved about being an idol. despite being forced to dance she’s grown to love it. likes she's grown to love acting. it was after her fifth time through that she decided to take a break.