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"It was never personal" but Adler knew how Bell had felt towards him; how he was the only person they felt like they could trust, even after finding out what he had put them through in the name of saving the free world.

"It was never personal" but somehow, he had started to trust them too. Having someone truly understand the horrors he faced in Vietnam was comforting, even if they were never actually there.

"It was never personal" but the pain of them being gone was dragging him down into a mental pit where he was left to rot, just like the body he had left to decompose in the woods that day.

"It was never personal" but killing them was something he would never forgive himself for, and he would spend the rest of his life being haunted by the regret of what he did.

"It was never personal" but he knew it was a lie. Maybe saying that was a way of trying to convince himself he felt nothing towards them, or maybe that it would be less painful.

Either way, deep down, he knew it was personal, and saying it wasn't was a selfish attempt to justify the fact that he had murdered the one person who truly cared about him.

“I need a father. I need a mother. I need some older, wiser being to cry to. I talk God, but the sky is empty”