Vanilla people are usually appalled by these kind of things. I have a close Female friend who knows my submissive cravings has asked me about such things and will say ābut this isnāt something you like, right?ā. I am honest to her and say āMostly yes but it has to be with someone i really like and She has to feel warmth and some care to me otherwise it doesnāt work for me. If She despises me for having so much power over me then it doesnāt work for me. She may never want to sleep with me and just likes making me Her bitch but I donāt want any Woman to think I am someone to be repulsed by. I donāt want to hurt emotionally.ā
She is fascinated by D/s but has no desire to partake in such a thingā¦ sheās just very curious why i would be. So in this situation of a Woman having me kneel before Her and lick Her feet and be spat on I explained that the mocking and laughing at me by Her is totally welcomed and encouraged by me as long as it amuses Her. Itās like when i go out with friends i am usually one of the funnier in the group. i like making people laugh. I feel good when i make others laugh. I feel it makes me creative and when i see people smile or laugh at what i am saying i feel my serotonin raise. When i do that for an attractive dominant Woman i feel that at such a higher level and it not only affects me cerebrally it excites my body for Her to have such reactionsā¦ and my physical and intellectual feelings of a dominant Womanās degrading me gives me a state of euphoria that i canāt explain. i crave this. I explained all of this to my friend and She is very fascinated by all of that.
i wonāt lie that it doesnāt turn me on that i have confessed these things to my friend. i feel exposed as the 6ā1 bitch boi that i am to a Woman i have known for years (since i was 18 years old). It feels liberating and i do find her attractive becuase she is so open minded about hearing about it and is curious to ask questions about it. When she has brought it up i do feel smaller than Her (even though sheās 5ā5 and maybe 140 lbs) and one time i asked her if it was okay for me to kneel before her while i answered these questions and she was very amused by that and she allowed that. I know she saw me trembling when i asked her for permission to do that. i have asked her a couple times if i could do submissive things for her, but just non-sexual submissive things, and she always said noā¦ except once. She still lived in an apartment and i had just bought a house and had a washer/dryer so i said i wanted to do Her laundry. i was surprised but she allowed that once and so I drove to her apartment and picked up her laundry and took it and i separated them properly and did several loads of laundryā¦ folded them perfectly after going on YouTube to see how to do it right and then i ironed everything! Even sheets and washcloths and her pantiesā¦ after i dropped them off the next day i knew she had a date in a few hours so i just left them and just walked into her apartment and dropped them in a corner where she told me to drop them off. We just basically just said hello as before i came over i rang her up to make sure sheād be home for me to deliver the laundry and she said it would have to be done quickly as she had that dateā¦ i also asked her in that phone call that she didnāt have to say anything dominant to me, i just wanted her to feel natural, but i asked her to not say āthank youā to me but let me say thatā¦ and she was fine with that and that was how the delivery service went! I knew she had a date and was nervous about it so i asked if she wanted me to stay but she said no, she would be showering as she just went to the gym so i left.
i was not going to ask her about if i did a good job for her or if this was too weird but she called me the very next day and told me i did a āvery good jobā for her and she was very surprised and impressed on how I folded her clothes and my ironing everything which she found āvery cuteāā¦ then she asked me point blank with no awkwardness that i could detect ādid you sniff my panties?ā And i felt weird inside and then said yes. āI knew you wouldā¦ did you do anything else with them?ā i said i did lick them at the parts that touched her at the āmost intimate partā (I didnāt feel comfortable using other words because I felt this all could end my years long friendship and i definitely didnāt want to do that) before I washed them. She just said āinterestingā and then paused and asked if I did anything elseā¦ i told her i touched myself as i tasted them, she asked if i came and I said yesā¦ and then i said ļæ¼ābut i swear i didnāt cum on them ā¦ā and i said I couldnāt do something like that without her permission and to that she also said āinterestingāā¦. I could tell she was very enthralled by all of that and there was a definite air of amusement and a smile in her voice even though her words were very limited. She told me I could jack off right there and sheād listen to me doing that. And I didā¦ I know I asked if I could do her laundry again and she said āprobably not but this was all interestingā¦ so donāt feel bad at me saying noāā¦ then after a few minutes of her listening to me moan I asked her if I had permission to cum and she said yesā¦. So I came a lotā¦ and that was it. We are still very close friends and she still asks me about my urges and cravings or serve Women from time to time. She asks about Dominaās i have served. We never bring up this laundry weekend. I wonāt be pushy because I respect her immensely. If she ever wants to bring it up amd revisit her thoughts on it i would welcome itā¦ but sheās married and divorced since then and now sheās entering into the dating world again so i feel my submission is not for her so i donāt need to be selfish about it. It was an amazing experience for me though and I appreciate having such a friend that knows all about me that has no judgements about it.
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