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HDG is five years old now, and I wanted to celebrate by talking about how reading that story caused a lot of positive change in my life.

I had originally joined the discord server because I wanted to read more stories taking place in the HDG setting. In the process of seeking more stuff to read, I met a lot of very cool folks who I ended up befriending. I made those friends at a point in my life where I had literally no one, and I went from feeling incredibly lonely to feeling hopeful that folks would stick around this time.

I ended up meeting my lovely girlfriend through the community, and I've formed close bonds with a lot of those friends I met at the beginning. I wouldn't trade the friendships I have now for anything and I truly feel like I belong here. I am seen, I am heard, I am understood. I am no longer the odd one out, I am welcomed and I am treated with patience and kindness.

The stories I've read made me think about difficult things which I hadn't considered before, leading to a lot of self-reflection — I figured out my gender identity, plurality, sexual orientation and sexuality. Those same stories also inspired me to write, which is something I had always wanted to do but never had the motivation or inspiration to do.

HDG helped me to understand and accept the fact that I am disabled, after a lifetime of my parents gaslighting me and telling me that I'm not. I've finally pursued diagnoses and treatment for the various disabilities that affect my day to day life, like chronic pain and brain damage.

Reading HDG started a butterfly effect that resulted in me surviving 2025, which was the worst year of my life. I am immensely grateful for everything that happened since that day I decided to read Glitchy's original work and I am incredibly happy to see that Elvira's arc is finished. I'm also very eager to read Kaiza's arc if that is in the works.

In my eyes, above all, HDG is a disability narrative. It's a world where no matter what, you will be taken care of, and you will be comfortable. Most of all, do you don't have to do it yourself. "Oh but what about the cg/l stuff? That's what the rest of the kink stuff grew out of and it's not disabi-" Nothing has ever made me want to go back to being a kid like being disabled has.

Ideally when you're a kid, you'll have a support network of adults who care for you. Parents, teachers, doctors, etc. When you have something wrong with you, your teacher or whoever notices it and tells your parent "hey something's wrong with your kid." Your parents calls your doc and says "hey something's wrong with my kid" and makes an appointment. Doc take a look at you, says "hey this is what's wrong with your kid, take this medicine and it'll get better." You have no agency in this process, you are cared for without your consent.

One of my memories from when I was a kid was going into the doc's for something, and then while we were there, being told I was going to get some immunization shots. I was normally really good with shots, but being surprised by it, I couldn't handle it, and I bawled and thrashed, and begged not to get poked. But I was immunized that day, and it was for my own good, despite my resistance.

I'm an adult now. If someone notices something wrong with me, they either don't comment to not be rude, or they tell me. I have to talk to my doc and say "hey something's wrong with me." I have to take myself to appointments, schedule my own followups, find a specialist to get myself a referal to. I have to sit around in waiting rooms by myself. No one will hold my hand while I'm getting my blood drawn, or a chunk of my skin taken for a biopsy.

The Affini are incredibly powerful seeming beings in hard to understand ways who make efforts to communicate with Terrans and adapt to them while also often speaking to each other in ways Terrans cannot understand.

They consider that Terrans cannot truly be independent most of the time, and forcefully become the legal guardians of Terrans and that is normal.

They take care of Terrans whether they want it or not, for their own good. They have specific doctors for Terrans too.

I had not until just now realized how much the Affini are to the Terrans what adults are to children.

Like yes ofc I knew cg/l was deeply embedded. But Domestication is analogous to adoption, the language stuff can be likened to how adults usually speak to kids vs to each other, which at certain ages will often mean the kid understands what adults say to them but not what we say to each other. Adults might seem extraordinary, superhuman, able to do anything including change the weather or summon things out of thin air, to a kid.

All this stuff is written into how the Affini are. Every aspect of their interaction with Terrans is filtered through a lens that is very very similar to the one through which human adults look at children.

Every other affini that we interact with can see how desperately you want to be mine. How desperately you want to be broken. Just let yourself... No? You won't?

Fine. I didn't want to have to do this but...

I've read your stories, pet. The ones you post online and then pray I won't notice or read. All about your devotion to me, to Your Affini, to Your Mistress.