TheEssenceOFWolf

Sometimes I’m above water, But mostly I’m at Sea

It’s getting to the point that I think I’m losing my mind, little by little. I knew I’d leave you and I would be missing you until I saw you again in three months but what I didn’t know is how I’d have to sit around and think about it daily because there’s nothing else to do.  I can barely leave the house and if I do it’s just to ride around and stare out the window. I spend my days mostly with my mother and then my father comes home in the evenings and on weekends. This all makes me want to settle and get my own space but I know once everything is clear that I’ll want my freedom again.  I miss the road.  But more than the road I miss you.  And more than anything I want you in my passenger seat. Did you know that I’ve started sketching up a new design for the van so that I can accommodate another human into my tiny living space? And not just any human. You.  Which is a big deal, for me.  But you’ve got a job in San Fransisco starting in the Summer or Fall and I’ll be damned if I don’t end up staying there with you until you either get bored or we end up falling in love with the city and make it our official stomping grounds.  All I know is that I want you by my side. All of you. I want to unpack everything I’ve ever held inside and lay it all out for you to see. I want to know you more than anyone has ever known another.  I want to start this life with you and grow old and wrinkly and tell our grandchildren about all of the weird shit that we’ve done.  I want you and nothing more.