alive with pleasure

anxious-avoidant blogging style

muscle memory is so beautiful to me. my body remembered better than i did. yet we're the same thing, with the same memory.

think it's a deep consolation to know that spiders dream, that monkeys tease predators, that dolphins have accents, that lions can be scared silly by a lone mongoose, that otters hold hands, and ants bury their dead. that there isn't their life and our life. nor your life and my life. that it's just one teetering and endless thread and all of us, all of us, are entangled w it as deep as entanglement goes. v neat i think.

“do you know where you’ll be headed in 5 years?” no. but i do know about themes and motifs. and friendship. and putting garlic on everything

Sorry we really went from free the nipple, take back the night, slut walks, and ending gender/sex segregation in sports being fucking milquetoast feminism 101 concepts to fucking girl dinner and "I just worry about fairness if we let trans girls play against cis ones" and "it was right of that woman to call the cops on a black man for existing near here in public during the day time because men are all violent monsters" and "radical feminism isn't transphobic we just need to kill all men including trans ones those oppressive traitors" and I will legit never be able to be normal about it. What the FUCK happened. I'd say I wonder what the feminists of my youth would say about this but I'm one and lemme tell ya I want to throw up. Go fucking read bell hooks or do something else useful please because all of this learned helplessness, gender essentialism, and transphobia dressed up as feminism is actively holding us back.

SILLY GIRLS in YOUR AREA are waiting to GOOF OFF with you

Children would be so jealous if they knew how many stickers we have in dive bar bathrooms

much like a beautiful horse i like salt and roaming freely

Also? The fact they set up a camera, or told someone to be on hand to film, means nothing that happens in that video is really spontaneous. Nothing they say or do in a fight or if their teenager "talks back" or whatever was unavoidable.

is anyone else annoyed that "ai" encompasses both chatgpt and tools we train to do repetitive tedious work for us. and by the ripple effect of articles like "scientists develop ai to detect cancer early" that make people argue for the merit of chatgpt or become anti-medicine. and by the general state of the world and society

*turns my attention inwards* mmmmm. no *turns my attention back outwards* oh god