Raspberry Reich

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Featured tags: Xenoblade Chronicles 3 | Writing diary

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WIPs (some ideas, headcanons, and fragments):

The Tale of the White Serpent - original, a dark xenophilic romance set in a fascist state, a solid list of warnings included.

Second Chances - XC3 early post-canon. The memory of Aionios is lost, but communication between the worlds is established. Someone meets their lost friends and loved ones, and someone meets their murderer. Dirk/Crys.

Element of Chaos - XC3 not-so-early post-canon. Two people searching for lost memories and their place in the old-new world after a thousand-year war. Teach/Ashera and Teach/Zeon (not that it's about romance, though).

Sparks Fly Up - XC3 pre-canon, a little adventure with OCs. Partially published in Russian.

Also, my dark erotica side project (18+, texts only, updated from time to time): @fromhe11withlove

There are #me tag for some silly photos and #we tag for system stuff (not much of it here). Post about system members: here. This blog is by everyone and about everything.

(На секундочку отвлекается, приходит в себя через три часа, ничего не сделано.)

"Мне обязательно нужно это сделать, ща соберусь, ща ща ща".

(Все куда-то плывет, время потрачено неизвестно на что, ноль прогресса по задаче, голова раскалывается.)

"Да, это мерзкая стрессовая таска, но мне НЕОБХОДИМО это сделать, и я себя ЗАСТАВЛЮ это сделать…"

(Вспоминает о самом существовании этой задачи неделю спустя.)

Новый уровень прокрастинации — ✨диссоциативный ступор✨.

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Обойди кучу врачей, сдай миллион анализов, заплати много денег — чтобы узнать, что ты ✨совершенно здоров✨.

(Они ставили мне грузики на глаза, Карл, и требовали не моргать и не дергаться при этом. Нет, это не опечатка, так вручную измеряется внутриглазное давление. Потому что мои оперированные глазки невозможно корректно обследовать аппаратно.)

Голова после этого все еще болит.

Или мне в конце концов поможет простой советский массаж воротниковой зоны N10, или я даже не знаю.

(For context: the Light Elves there look like your typical fantasy elves and have power over magical light, which brought them progress and prosperity — but also started wrecking the local ecosystem. The Dark Elves are anthropomorphic insectoids living in giant hive-like structures and prefer darkness. Both factions have been fighting over control of the light source for ages.)

So anyway, in GoW: Ragnarök, first they finally call a truce, and second, both sides suffer massive losses.

And my brain just got stuck on the idea of these two nations being forced to merge to survive after all the cataclysms and rebuild their population — because they still are the same species (the Light Elves were just magically altered). And how much of a struggle that would be — all the cultural misunderstandings and growing pains. They had lived apart for centuries!

Like, how do I feel about N.? I feel sorry for them, I like them, I want them to kill themselves, and I'm also completely indifferent. Depends on when you ask me.

Or sometimes it's: "Hmm… neutral? Yeah, probably neutral. I don't really care one way or another… Oh wait, THAT MOTHERFUCKER, LET ME AT HIM, I'LL BITE HIS FACE OFF!"

And my behavior can be just as inconsistent—I can switch directions right in the middle of a situation.

Like, "Come here, I missed you… no, never mind, get lost."

Or I'll listen to you during an argument with a completely straight face, perfectly calm, and then BAM—I'll fly into a rage and start yelling, or burst into tears.

This has been going on for many years.

When did I first get the brilliant idea to have an internal discussion about how we feel about different important people in our life and try to agree on a shared, consistent strategy for dealing with them?