this is my life

        jacob was not the easiest man to surprise, but what he overheard — no matter the person on the other end of the line — had his heart stop. not in a literal sense, but it felt like it ceased it’s movement and fell into his stomach. there was a combination of elements that perpetuated his currently frozen state, the biggest of them all? hearing more than liz calling him jacob. he’d grown so used to not hearing his own name, his real name, that the past few years of actually being called ‘jacob’ were a little bit surreal.

        he had to stop himself from staring at her — and that was no easy task.

        a part of him was elated that she did forgive him his sins, while the less monstrous part of himself? the part that didn’t quite forgive himself? it raged and clawed to try and escape his throat in it’s fury. he didn’t deserve it. while yes, some of what was between them was real? the pretense and his initial motivations were not good ones. he’d hurt her. physically. mentally. he’d lied to her. in his own mind, he’d stolen from her, he’d stolen time from her; among other things.

        as her conversation with aram ended, a chill went up her spine when she heard jacob’s voice. she hadn’t known that he was there because she had lost track of what time it was. had he heard what she said about how she forgave him for everything? for the hell he had put her through? she hoped that wasn’t the case, but his tone && hesitation were more than enough to make her realize that he really had overheard her conversation. great.

        her forgiveness wasn’t just because of the lingering feelings liz still had for him. it’s because she saw how much he was trying, wanting to help her even if it meant putting himself at risk. he said he was following his dream, but how could that be when he continued to immerse himself in the kind of life he wanted to leave behind? she couldn’t understand why jacob was doing all of this for her.

                        did his feelings for her still really run that deep?

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“I usually like a little more romancing.”

“Would you put day drinking under ‘Experience’ or ‘Special Skills’?”

“I’m scared for you.”

“I’ve been asking the impossible of you, I see that now.”

“Now, that sounded like flirting to me.”

“Don’t… have feelings, okay?”

“Hey, last night was fun, but that doesn’t mean I want your opinion.”

“Again, I don’t flirt, I just say what I want.”

“Yes, you are a paragon of mental health.”

“I’m tired of missing you.”

“You think you can take your shit and dump it one me? You don’t get to do that. So you take your goddamned pain, and you live with it, asshole!”

“Knowing it’s real means you’ve got to make a decision. One, keep denying it. Or two, do something about it.”

“We get it, you’re a real gift to humanity.”

“You still get points for doing good.”

“I want you to know, I forgive you for everything. I’ll say it every day. For as long as you need to hear it.”

“If this is a booty call, I like your chances.”

“God damn you. Just had to be a hero, didn’t you?”

“You are a hard-drinking, short-fused, mess of a person. But you are not a piece of shit.”

“When you wake up, I won’t be around to screw up your life anymore.”

“I don’t get asked on a lot of second dates.”

“I can’t risk you.”

“You’ve been keeping tabs on me?”

“You shoot at me, I’ll pull the bullet out of my ruined jacket and shove it up your ass with my pinky finger, and who do you think that’s going to hurt more?”

“Don’t apologize. I don’t want that from you.”

“I was never the hero that you wanted me to be.”

“You’re exactly the hero I wanted you to be.”

“I don’t give a bag of dicks about what kinky shit you’re into, just be into it quietly.”

“It’s people like you that give people like you a bad name.”

“I let you fight my battles for too long.”

“The way I see it, most people go both good and bad going on. Just depends on which part wins that day.”

“They say that talking about a trauma… that it helps.”

“You help people. That’s who you are.”

“I thought about you. I knew it wouldn’t happen. I couldn’t help it. Picturing us.”

“You’re the first person I ever pictured a future with.”

“They say everyone’s born a hero. But if you let it, life will push you over the line until you’re the villain.”

“I’m life threatening. Steer clear of me. Please.”

“You’ve never loved anyone. You’re not even capable of it.”

“I hate feeling this way, I don’t know how you handle it.”

❝Do you ever listen?❞

❝Please forgive me.❞

❝You’re just lonely.❞

❝Drink up, baby.❞

❝Give me one night with you.❞

❝It’ll all be over soon.❞

❝Have you got something to tell me?❞

❝You’re like a mirror, reflecting me.❞

❝I just wanna take care of you.❞

❝Do what I say and I’ll make you okay.❞

❝I miss the way you wanted me.❞

❝Did that full moon force my hand?❞

❝Don’t go. Please don’t go.❞

❝Why are you so far from me?❞

❝I don’t want to hurt you.❞

❝I’ll kiss you again between the bars.❞

❝You’ll always be the one that’s standing in my way.❞

❝I wanna give up, but I won’t.❞

❝There’s no reasons, no excuses.❞

❝Just don’t go without me.❞

❝Can’t live with you or without.❞

❝Say goodbye and don’t look back.❞

❝I’m going to go home.❞

❝Give me a chance, I’m beggin’ you.❞

❝Oh dear, never saw you coming.❞

❝I’ve been awaiting for you.❞

❝I never meant for this to mean a thing.❞

❝Don’t say that it’s over.❞

❝I could get over you but please don’t ask me to.❞

❝Haven’t you seen me sleep walking?❞

❝You better wait with me.❞

❝Don’t take that sinner from me.❞

❝All your perfectly delivered lines, they don’t fool me.❞

❝How long will I have to wait for someday?❞

❝Let me in the wall you’ve built around.❞

❝Your mouth is a melody I memorize.❞

❝I don’t love you but I always will.❞

❝Eternally, I’m broken.❞

❝Give me the burden, give me the blame.❞

❝In my arms is where you are to be.❞

❝You’ve been lonely, too long.❞

❝Tell me that you’ll always be true.❞

❝You’ll always be the only one.❞

❝You’re still the best thing that never happened.❞

❝Where she walks, no flowers bloom.❞

❝I just wanna hold your hand.❞

❝Oh, why don’t you keep drinking?❞

❝I know you wouldn’t hurt me.❞

❝There’s so much I’m dying to tell.❞

❝Sometimes I can’t tell where I am.❞

❝Try to convince me that I’m not drowning.❞

❝You had me fooled for a while.❞

❝Stop saying those sweet things you know I like to hear.❞

❝Don’t you let me lie here and die here.❞

❝I don’t want to talk right now.❞

❝The killer in me is the killer in you.❞

❝Looks like you made up your mind.❞

❝Why do you keep looking out the window?❞

❝You only know what I want you to.❞

❝There’s a note underneath your front door.❞

❝I’m a dead man walking here.❞

❝Oh, aren’t we a pretty, pretty pair?❞

❝Look what you have done.❞

❝That’s the least of all my fears.❞

❝I just want your arms wrapped around me in this moment.❞

❝I don’t have a choice, but I’d still choose you.❞

❝All the king’s horses and all of his men couldn’t tear us apart.❞

❝Where’d you learn to lie the way you do?❞

❝Who could do without you?❞

❝The less I give the more I get back.❞

❝Meet me in the garden where the weeds grow tall.❞

❝All that he really wants is someone to want him back.❞