now is only now

Apple White

Better at breathing Better at coping Better at taking real care of myself :)

I'v been letting myself feel however I feel when I feel it. Sad, angry, tired, hyper. But now, instead of drowning in it, swirling down until i'm burnt out. I adapt my environment to what I know helps, before this can happen.

If I feel the need to cry, I let myself cry instead of holding it in. Then I breath and take time to make and sip some tea.

If I feel angry, I let myself rant and mumble under my breath whilst I clean something. Then I breath and take time to make and sip some tea.

If I feel tired, I let myself day dream a bit more. Go a bit slower. I plan for the night and how i'll make sure to have the coziest sleep. Then I breath and take time to make and sip some tea.

If I feel hyper and distracted, I move, jump, I clean. I keep my mind active and learning. Then, yes, I sip some tea.

:)

all i dream about is a man who will restore my faith that it is possible to love me completely and forever. a man who will not leave when times get tough.