* MOTHER / CREATOR

dearest february, the snow is melting and you wrap your arms around yourself as you  shiver,  longing for  warmth  you have  never  known. you are tired of being  brave,  so please return to the people who have never stopped thinking about you, who still love you, after everything.

using magic that pertains to the own affinity is easier. using magic that is perhaps not connected to one’s affinity is more difficult, but still possible. in fact, people can master magic outside of their affinity. what is genuinely difficult is to truly master a magic linked to the opposite of one’s affinity. for example: a fire mage will have a very hard time with water spells and frankly, most would not even be drawn towards it.

while affinities are an established part of magical science, they are often ridiculed. this is mostly the fault of all sorts of pseudo-science that has used the very real affinities for, among other things, personality tests of the kind ‘answer ten questions and you’ll know which affinity your soul mate has!‘and similar things. there are all sorts of superstition about one’s affinity having an effect on personality, but that has never been really proven, especially since such talk is shunned by most  serious  scientists.

the amount of people who have no affinity whatsoever is incredibly small. precise numbers are difficult to obtain as there is hardly a complete registry of all mages on earthland including their affinities, but scientists who have dedicated their life to this science currently presume that less than one in thousand mages has truly no affinity. some believe themselves to be without affinity, simply because their affinity is either quite weak or because it is something they do not expect; the child of a family of light and dark affinities would probably not truly consider the possibility of their own affinity being something like earth.

those who truly have no affinity are in an odd spot. on one hand, there will never be a magic that will be impossible to truly master due to a mismatched affinity, but at the same time, they will never benefit from the inherent benefit one gains. the few recorded mages who are proven to be truly without affinity often ended in a ‘jack of all trades, master of none’ situation. many of them still developed a preference for kind of magic over others and achieved great skill with their preferred branch whereas others fully embraced the lack of limitations.

as hinted above: while in many cases, affinities do run in a family, it is not always the case that parents pass their own affinity down to their child. a water-leaning couple can have a child with a fire affinity, for example.

this can lead to problems if a specific subset of magic has been passed down in a family from generation to generation, but there is nothing to be done. one either has an affinity or they do not, as there is no way for affinity to be artificially acquired in any shape or form.

it is very important to note that not all light-affine magic is inherently good and that not all dark-affine magic is automatically bad.  in fact, no affinity carries  any  moral connotation  as in the end, the mage decides whether they want to use their magic for good or bad. there have been many great, heroic mages who have used dark-affine magic, just like there have many villainous figures in history who had a light affinity. an example that illustrates this clearly: due to the way souls used in takeover are acquired, this magic is dark-affine, meaning that the strauss siblings are all dark-affine mages. at the same time, the spell  fairy law  that can be used to cause immense harm to both foes and the caster, too.

depending on the source, books about magical affinity will speak of six or more affinities. the ones that have never been fought about are: air, dark, earth, fire, light and water. however, as affinity has become more and more understood by scientists, more have been added to the list, such as lightning, ice  ( as it has proven to differ sufficiently from water )  and nature, the latter being extraordinarily common in plant mages and other mages who have a magic that interacts with the living world.

in history, there have been very few  truly  confirmed instances of mages who possessed two affinities and nearly all cases, this has led to despair rather than glory. for this reason, there have been whispers about mages with two affinities being cursed now and then but again, this is superstition.

STAY FROSTY ROYAL MILK TEA.

i think i got too many memories getting in the way of me.

some princes don’t become kings.

you only get what you grieve.

the only thing stopping me is me.

it seems like the whole damn world went and lost its mind.

all my childhood heroes have fallen off or died.

even at the best of times i’m out of my mind.

THE LAST OF THE REAL ONES.

i was just an only child of the universe, and then i found you.

you are the sun and i am just the planets.

you were too good to be true.

what’s inside you?

i know this whole damn city thinks it needs you, but not as much as i do.

you’re the last of a dying breed.

i wonder if your therapist knows everything about me.

i’m here in search of your glory.

there’s been a million before me.

my head is stripped just like a screw that’s been tightened too many times.

i’m here at the beginning of the end.

if they find you, i will protect you.

i’m done with having dreams.

you drain the fear from me.

HOLD ME TIGHT OR DON’T.

i never really feel a thing.

i woke up.

i took too many hits off this memory.

i need to come down.

hold me tight.

hold me tight, or don’t.

this isn’t how our story ends.

i got too high again.

i love you to death.

i can’t pretend we were lovers first.

were we ever friends?

i’m past the limit.

the distance between us sharpens me like a knife.

WILSON ( EXPENSIVE MISTAKES ).

i was gonna say something that would solve all of our problems.

i got drunk and forgot what i was talking about.

there’s nothing more cruel to be loved by everybody.

there’s nothing more cruel to be loved by everybody but you.

i’m gonna run away and never see any of you again.

i hope the roof flies off and i get blown to space.

i always make such expensive mistakes.

you’re the eighth wonder.

i’ll stop wearing black when they make a darker color.

i’m on the wrong side of paradise.

i didn’t plan on showing up at all.

i hate all my friends.

i miss the days when i pretended with you.

CHURCH.

if you were church, i’d get on my knees.

you’re holy to me.

take the pain.

you’re doomed but just enough.

i love the world but i don’t love the way it makes me feel.

it’s getting hard to know what’s real.

i’m just a human trying to avoid certain doom.

HEAVEN’S GATE.

if there were any more of me, i’d give it to you.

one look at you and i’m on that faded love.

i’m a missile that’s guided to you.

go out in the world and start over again.

would you give me a boost?

i got dreams of my own.

i want to make your dreams come true.

please come through.

you’re the one habit i just can’t quit.

CHAMPION.

we’ve made a mistake.

i’m back with a madness.

i’m the champion of people who don’t believe in champions.

i got nothing but dreams.

i’m just young enough to still believe.

i’m young enough not to know what to believe in.

if i can live through this, i can do anything.

i got rage every day.

the only thing i do is sit around and kill time.

SUNSHINE RIPTIDE.

i don’t even have my own attention.

you say don’t ever change, but you don’t like me the way i am.

don’t ever change.

the world tried to burn all the mercy out of me.

i’m just playing house.

i have no idea what i’m doing now.

there’s not atheists in foxholes.

the pressure is getting to me.

it’s time to throw in the towel.

you came in like a wave when i was feeling alright.

you are my truest feeling yet.

i love you so much.

i love you so much, it’s like oxygen.

i do the best with what i have.

YOUNG AND A MENACE.

we’ve gone way too fast for way too long.

we were never supposed to make it half this far.

i lived so much life.

i think god is going to have to kill me twice.

oops, i did it again.

i was young and a menace.

i woke up on the wrong side of reality.

there’s a madness coursing right through me.

i’m here flying off the deep end.

i’m here to become the best yet.

BISHOPS KNIFE TRICK.

i’m pedal to the metal.

this is my pity party.

these are the last blues we’re ever gonna have.

let’s see how deep we get.

the glow of the city will lead us back.

the glow of the city will lead us back to places we should have never left.

i don’t wanna live inside a cage.

i’m struggling to exist with and without you.

i know i should walk away.

i’m trying to get it all back.