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The days used to be warm, But the nights never were, The day looked like a blur, None are true, masks of a storm

“The eyes that light up the world for me, the star that gives me joy, crossed my path but not as a friend , not as an enemy but as a stranger

  Guys, the photo is not mine

                                  Dimples Not So Right

Starring : Liz Buxbaum , Wes bennet

                                                     ----  LIZ ----

“Hey Buxbaum”, says my next-door neighbour with a grin so wicked I knew he was going to pull a prank , “You know you don’t really want to die in my front porch” I say , almost too happy he’d think I just ate unicorns for breakfast “It’s going to be a bad omen for hell lying above my house”

“You ok??” Wes asked after a long pause, he tilted his head the way he always did when I lied

”Of course, why wouldn’t I my idiot”, I wasn’t

I don’t want to lie to him he is my best friend slash enemy since 2nd grade. Life has not been so great but I had Wes. He made things better…. even though he didn’t know half of it or any of it at all to be honest. I just can’t seem to trust anyone not even the guy I had been friends with since forever.

“You know you seem all happy and goofy as soon as you leave this street but ….”, he stopped like he was trying to find words to say something and not at the same time, I squinted, “….something dosen’t sit right with the way you are too overly jolly within this street ….almost like too good to be true”, I knew he always figured things out even though even he didn’t know what they were but… this time it felt like he knew exactly what but still choose to say it that way. Then suddenly, with the swift movement of the wind, I saw it, he did that thing where he changes his tone, mood and the environment around him completely, and I stood frozen. It always got me surprised when he did that. I loved it when he did that because most people fake it, but he… he made it feel so real it was like magic instead of …

He then said with that magic “You know you are going to miss the bus if u keep standing there right” I was suddenly pulled back to reality, I was still standing in the porch and he was already ready to go down the road, “Lib as much as I love you we have a test in MATH FOR GODDNESS SAKE, and we both know we ain’t toppers but we gotta atleast pass if we want to be together for more than the 16 years of the life we have already lived together right next to each other”.

“Ok,  ok, I am coming, I just zoned out”, I said, laughing and running down the street as he snapped to realisation and began chasing after me

 “You know I can outrun all of your 5’4 with the snap of my fingers right”, he said holding me back by pulling on my backpack.

He was smiling, his face creased the way it always did when he is genuinely happy. I think he will never know how much I love him and the way he has always been there for me, always noticing when I was not okay

                                                     ----- Wes ----

She did it again, she is not okay…. That much is sure, I can’t really say she’s hiding something but she is for sure not ok. I really love her…. I have ever since 2nd grade but I don’t really think she loves me that way. I was thinking of telling her my feelings if she wasn’t the way she has been for the past month, faking her jolliness, hiding her unease. As much as I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to feel better, I want to help her feel better. But her dimples did that thing again, they faded a shade and seemed a little too tight like they were forced. No one else noticed, but I did , I always did…,she always did that when she was hiding something.

Classes start in 5 minutes students are requested to enter their classrooms and wait for their respective teachers…

“Ughh” Liz says , her dimples are not tight anymore.

“The devil announcements again, we have to go to class” she continues reviewing the formula material tucked under her fingers in pressure.

I am going to confront her today, this has been going on for a month and I don’t think it is good.

“You are awfully quite since we entered school, nervous?” Damn right yes, I am nervous but not for the test

“Kinda” I say bringing up a small nervous chuckle.

This is it, today, right now, confront her idiot, you have been throwing it off for the entire day, I mutter to my self as she is looking up her NEXT TO BUY : BOOKS😊 list online.

“Hey , Lib”, I say trying to act a little normal but I think she noticed the nervousness of my voice and how serious I look, I tried not to but it just flows

She arched a brow and her gaze lingered a little, then she said “Hmm? Something wrong?”

As in beat I replied “Kinda, I have been meaning to ask you something” Her eyebrows arched further almost like she was expecting either a good news or disaster

“You’ve been acting a little strange this past month….”I say trying to sound casual and then, there her shoulders tensed up, I try to continue when a laugh cut me off

It was Liz’s laugh her dimples, one side tightened. Slightly darker. Wrong and she says “What do you mean I have been acting strange recently I am strange, I’ve always been strange. That’s not really new” then she looks over and there , her dimples they changed a shade again they are more tense then usual

“Don’t do that, don’t laugh it off, don’t try to change the topic. What is wrong Lib, you know you can tell me” I say almost pleading

“Nothing, I am perfectly normal” she says, but her dimples don’t

“You know your dimples do that thing when you lie………” I say “So don’t try to act okay with me when I can clearly know you aren’t” And I continue “They just did” I continue leaving her speechless as what I just said hit her rock bottom and shes not tense anymore, she’s not acting

“Come on I just want to help, I just want you to be okay” I say

“Yea I am not okay, my parents have been fighting everyday for years but recently its been different , like a ticking time bomb ready to explode and I think I have had enough already I just want them to get a divorce , they both obviously can’t live without tearing each others lives apart, so why?”

 She says this all with a completely neutral face like it was nothing then her expression changes something I can’t read then suddenly she says “I know you have also been meaning to say something else, may as well say that to . No?”

I was taken aback, how did she know, I think the shock was clear in my face because she asked “You know now its as clear as daylight so you can’t even try to back out of it” she says with a small chuckle and after a long silence, as if a wave splashed through me the words fell out

“I LOVE YOU” I say shocking even myself and she said “I know……. And I love you too, more than I can ever explain” She says

We both sit there dumfounded as all of our secrets lie scattered in the golden sky beyond as we stare at each other

The moment the 7 planets align,

The 7 beauties of nature form a sight, the celestial grand cross,

a sight so rare that the blessed breaths are taken away.

Such is the world's magician,

the one who creates these infinite celestial moments.

Lovely dusk, oh lovely dusk,

To what good have I done to see your delicious cotton candy sky at the aurora, the golden hour like fiery kiss at the point of beauty

Prince of the day, oh prince of the day,

To what pleasure have I done to see your firey creations of the sun as beautiful as erupting volcanoes in its youth

Queen of the dawn, oh queen of the dawn,

To what beauty have I done to see the first rays burst through the tyndall’s of the sky

Generous of the blue blood, oh generous of the blue blood,