Twisted

ppl like the idea of you, but chances are they’re not ready to handle the reality of you

love never says ‘i want’. love asks ‘what do you need?’. love asks ‘how can i help you?’. love listens with patience and empathy. love is demonstrated in how we take action to care and make self-sacrifice where necessary. love says ‘let’s thrive together’. love offers a helping hand, an open mind, a full heart and enormous soul 

It’s not easy to just forget. You can believe anything you want. Tell yourself things ended for a reason, or that if things were meant to be, they would’ve worked out. Tell yourself that people come and go in this life, that it’s nature, and there’s nothing you could’ve done to stop it. You can tell yourself anything you want, and maybe it will even be enough to convince yourself for a while that you’re okay - but that doesn’t means it hurts any less.

Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache. You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor, and picks it up. You are the one who feeds it, who clothes it, who tucks it into bed, and you should be proud of that. Having the strength to take care of yourself when the world is trying to bleed you dry, that is the strongest thing in the universe.

i don’t think i’ve ever been loved as hard as i love

“imagine meeting someone who wanted to learn your past not to punish you, but to learn how you needed to be loved. Be inspired by people who don’t run away when they locate the darkness in you; who instead lean in & ask where the darkness stems from & how they can love you in the midst of it.”

i get these violent urges and moods where i just want to fight and bleed it’s like an ache in my chest

I am still the only one you ever think about when you realize that the ocean doesn’t know anything other than coming back. This is your way of knowing. This is the confession you never make out loud. This is what you’re most ashamed of. So you still love me in a fucked up way. You’re still not brave enough to do anything about it.