Unrequited love, or is it?
Pairing: best friend!ellie x reader
Summary: Ellie finally confesses her love for you, and it doesn't go as she thought it would.
Ellie still remembered when she first arrived in Jackson. You were one of the few people who welcomed her and Joel; you were nice and sweet—so, so sweet. In the short time you two had, you created a wonderful connection.
You and Ellie have been best friends ever since. As you both got older, especially in your late teens, you went on patrols together and spent nights at her place, doing whatever. You two were inseparable. Then things got awkward between you two. It was as if Ellie grew distant; it wasn't on purpose.
She just started to feel weird around you. Her face would grow warm, she felt butterflies in her stomach, and her knees would feel weak. She had never felt this way before. Her journal had so many drawings of you; some of them were how she imagined you looked naked.
Fuck, she had such a hard time drawing those. It was currently the winter dance in Jackson. The area was glowing from the string lights and was filled with music, dancing, and people drinking, including Ellie. She wouldn't even be there if you hadn't asked if she was coming.
She was just holding her drink in her hand, watching you dance with someone else, imagining she was the one holding you instead, making you laugh and you smile as big as you were. She was too lost in her thoughts to notice you walking up to her.
By the time she realized you were in front of her, you had looped your arms over her shoulders. "Hey, babe," you said. God, you were always such a flirt; she loved you so much. Her breathing got heavy, and she nervously bit her lip. Would you accept her love?
Would you embrace all her affection? What if your feelings weren’t the same? "Hello? Earth to Ellie," you said, shaking her and snapping her out of her thoughts. "Shit, sorry, what were you saying?" She gave you an awkward smile. "I asked if you wanted to dance with me, dumbass. So, do you?"
She opened her mouth to say something, but nothing came out, so you pulled her onto the floor with a smile on your face. Once you two were there, she awkwardly wrapped her arms around your waist without meeting your gaze at all.
"Come on, dance with me," you said as you started to sway back and forth. She awkwardly moved with you, leaving a little bit of space between you two. You could easily tell her thoughts were elsewhere. All Ellie had to do was say something, yet she just couldn’t muster up the courage.
She looked around and saw Dina and Jesse watching the two of you with grins on their faces. She flipped them off subtly; she would deal with both of them later. Right now, all of her attention was on you. Then, you wrapped your arms around her neck, causing her to get this stupidly adorable grin on her face.
But how could she not? She was a bit drunk and dancing with the girl she was in love with. Being this close together was making her head swim. "Why the hell are you smiling like that, El?" you asked. She looked at you, wanting to kiss you so badly. You two were so close; it was driving her insane.
You looked so pretty; all she could think about were the things she wanted to do to you. Then she realized she hadn't replied to you. "Nothing, umm, I'm just... I'm just thinking, is all," she replied, looking down. She was never good at expressing her feelings, so she didn't say anything. She just looked at you, wanting to tell you so badly, but she kept her lips shut.
"Tell me, why have you been distant lately, Ellie?" Her throat felt dry. She wanted so, so fucking badly to tell you how she felt; she just couldn't find the words. "I haven't been distant," she finally said. It was a lie; you both knew it. You two were drunk as hell, so maybe you would just forget the whole conversation. To hell with it!
"I love you." It was said so quietly that it was almost impossible to hear. "I love you so, so much. I have no clue what to do with myself around you. My heart beats so fast whenever you're with me. I want to hold you; I want to kiss you." There was silence between the two of you for a few seconds before Ellie took a deep breath and spoke again.
"I'm sorry; I just became distant. I didn't know how to deal with my feelings for you, I guess. Please say something—anything." Ellie looked at you, her heart racing; it was beating so fast it felt like it was going to burst out of her chest. "And I was scared to tell you because I didn't want to ruin our friendship. Please, please say something; I need to know how you feel."
This was it; you were going to reject her, say what a freak she was, and never talk to her again. She was panicking. Did you even feel the same? Was this going to be the end of your friendship? "Are you seriously kidding me? I know I'm a flirt, but it's always different when I do it with you. You're really a dumbass for not realizing."
She was in shock; you had always been flirting with her, but she thought it was just you being yourself. You'd flirt with anyone, but you loved her all along, and she didn’t notice. Was it because she got too caught up in being scared to tell you, "You love me too?" You had just pulled her by the shirt and kissed her.
Ellie's knees buckled slightly; she didn't expect you to kiss her at all, especially in the middle of the floor. It felt weird but so damn good. When you pulled away, she was completely dumbfounded. " Well, that was something I’ve been waiting to do for so, so long." She was still wrapping her head around the fact that this was actually happening.
Damn, she wished she had the guts to do that earlier. You two could've been together way sooner.
A/N: I'm aware this isn't the best; it's my first attempt at something like this. I just wanted to try something different, and hopefully, if I keep doing this enough, I will get better at writing. This is based on "Sex Shop" by King Princess.
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