Penjelajah

You left the moment I am so ready to fight beside you

Tapi ternyata ada perubahan dalam diriku, melihat dirimu bahagia adalah kebahagiaan untukku. Jadi ku tak ada beban lagi. 😊 Pikiran itu seperti otot, harus dilatih. Jatuh dan kemudian bangun lagi tidak apa, yang penting usahakan untuk terus melawan pikiran buruk itu.

Ternyata melepaskan itu sesulit itu.

Someday I wish I can finally say “good for you” at my utmost sincere. 😉

Even though I wrote I will be feeling grateful not having you in my life, turns out it’s not. Maybe not yet. Still hurts. 😂

You know what's funny? Even after all this time, I still search for you everywhere. And I find you, in the lyrics you might never want to hear.

Checking in. Still pray for you, every other days.

Well. I thought you’ll stay longer. But even short is not the perfect word to resemble how long you stayed.

I thought I’d spend the rest of my Christmas days with you.

You’re accepting the possibility that you’ll regret taking this path, almost as if you’re framing it as a calculated risk. But to me, that seems a shade of cowardice; it’s like you’re choosing the regret in advance, rather than it being an unintended consequence. You choose the decision that doesn’t fear and makes you comfort. A calculated risk means understanding the potential outcomes and confidently owning your choice, saying, “I won’t regret this—it’s the life I want.” Knowing you’ll regret it and still going forward, though, feels like a dumb decision. A man would walk only the road he’s sure he won’t regret, no matter the risk. That’s what defines a man. And that’s the man I like.

If love doesn’t feel intense like you, I don’t wanna feel it.

It’s been five years since I lost my appetite to words, but it has been awakened by thoughts of losing you. Should I thank you for that or should I condemn?

The problem is that I can’t imagine a future without you, while you don’t even see me in yours.