professional chimney rat

hrm. they slightly changed the colors on the goth rave palette. this disturbs me...

GERRRRRRAAAAAAAAAHGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!

also oh my god. we were having a flare up that was making every move very painful last night and i was doing my usual thing where im all tense and moving very deliberately and carefully and taking deep breaths and stuff and then jett was just like "this is not how you deal with pain. you must lean into it and pretend like it is not there" and came to front and did that and it was so much easier to deal with. thank you jett.

my out loud voice sounds quite a bit like siege's we both have a sort of Proper way of speaking and use less contractions and more "fancy" words lol

also i brought my L fictive with me and everything is exploding in my mind. the demon king may be lurking as well but i have not felt his presence on its own as of yet. i feel so fucking weird and fucked up. but also exceedingly normal. aaa.