My Big Fat Hate Disorder

It has taken me about two hours to get this list together. I'm still baffled as to what I am going to eat in the morning for breakfast. Maybe just some scrambled eggs and tomato's  hmm still thinking.

So I put together my list, I have also done a pre-online shop for the ingredients for my first week I will also add in a small fish wish I will freeze and chop into 5 segments for five evening meals and a chicken breast in two segments for two evening meals.. 

The list 

Coconut oil. Olive oil

Avocado, Soy (granulated)

Lima beans Soy lechin

Almond Milk Fresh red beet

red radish carrot Sweet potatoes

turnip

Asparagus, aubergine. barley grass, basil bell peppers, Brussel sprouts Cabbage lettuce, cauliflower cayenne pepper Celery, cucumber garlic ginger fresh beans green cabbage, kale, leeks lettuce, peas oregano onions red cabbage savoy cabbage Spinach Tomato Limes Lemon Mango Herbal tea/green tea peach and pear

1 chicken breast small

1 small fish

Total: £58.45 Tesco online

For stinking vegetables and 1 tiny ass chicken breast and a slab of stinky fish... I am the budget queen, I refuse to spend this amount of money on fruit and veg.. So check it Linda, listen. I am going to shop around green grocers and little shops to get the best deal. My budget for all of this food will be between £25 and £35 If I don't hit that budget then I vow not to add the meat into the equation.. Actually why am I fuming that's seven days of food its a bargain ha ha ha ha ha  

Apart from that the blender.. I already got the blender on reserve at Argos, reduced from fifty quid to £24.99  Phillips. Fingers crossed this shiznit is bearable.

So first gym session is tomorrow 13:30  and i'm looking forward to it.. Its a mind set, over a year i have been unhappy in my body and tomorrow is the start of my journey.

So raise your waters, to health happiness and success

As of tomo, the pictures and video footage of recipes will be available online so stay tuned and stay blessed..

Love waking up to the sound of the rain.. Was going to start my new lifestyle early but jogging in the rain was not part of the plan.

So I am sitting here, on my hard couch moaning that I am not at my Best friends hen do, I have to pull myself together and keep my target in mind.. Whats my target, LOSE THOSE POUNDS!!!

So as I have nothing better to do, I thought I would check out my local GYMS and see what they have to offer (online).. SO check it, look it Linda, Hunny! (best three year old ever) Having worked for Virgin active, I already know what they have to offer, Fake love and Hidden agendas and at £74 pound per month plus a £30 joining fee how can I possibly ever afford to buy my Alkaline food products, Pay for my kids school lunches and there fortnightly footwear trend (breaking shoes cos its the coolest thing to do) I am a single parent, I own a brand new cleaning company and I really do not have the spare £74 in my budget of healthy living and exercising to spare.. 

Southbury leisure center- A family environment, Kids can play I can work out do my thang!! at £110 for 2 adults and 2 children I might as well go for the luxury of a small adult only gym, Virgin Active Enfield. Why don't they have more options for smaller families. Even if I was going in as a sole member I'm still looking at paying £46 per month and a £35 joining fee, hmm to much space too many people and I would have to literally make a full day of it. Every time I go gym and have to take the kids Either I pay £110 and go gym then take kids swimming to avtually get my value for money or I pay £46 pm and pay £12 for the kids to go to a creche, Wait a minute! that creche is only suitable for kids up to five year old's.. Its pointless again a wasted time surfing the internet on services that really do not apply to my needs and many others in my situation.

Albany Leisure center are in the same price range as Southbury, the difference is you can be a sole member and add children but yet again what do i do with them when i'm doing me, The receptionist wont watch em and I do not think the other members would like me shouting ' Hey you guys, sit down and stop fart assing about'  

Ok I clearly need alone time trying to include the kids wont work, I need to be able to de-stress and except my lifestyle change.. Yes I know some of you will say your only going gym and your eating healthy.. Do you know what foods are alkaline only.. Do you know how difficult it will be to drop SUGAR, Tea, Coffee, McDonald's... CHEESE AND ONION CRISPS Super hard.

Back to the point...

I looked up Pure Gym, Its just that, no extra fluffy towels none of that cutesy stuff just a gym with over forty classes and its 24 hours.. So I looked up the prices £24.99 per month.. The dreaded joining fee was waved because I found a cool site that has discount vouchers and I used the coupon online, they also are not charging me to the 15th of this month.. Awesome balls.. 

I signed up.  So its got a really nice put together members page where you can talk shop or book your classes, I had to book my induction with a man Blah I hate inductions and I would hate it if he was a fit man.. Especially in the state I am in.  This is my week schedule ahead am I going to stick to it.. That's the bloody question.

Monday 7th 13:30 induction with the possibly lovely Chris

                    14:00 Gym session with my niece 

Tuesday 8th 12:30 Pure Box fit class (with my niece)

                     13:00 Gym Session

Wed 9th        09:30 Pure stretch on my own  niece said it was booked up

                               Lies as I can see there are 17 places available

                               Just say its too early.

Thurs 10th    09:30 Bums and tums  Forcibly with niece..

Sat  12th       12:00 Pure dance

                     12:30 Abs smash

I'm just going to throw my self in to it, This guy I watched on you tube lost 10 pounds in 3 days just from the alkaline diet alone.. so i'm going to combine the two and smash it.. I want to smash it so bloody bad, I missed my best mates hen do but no way am I going to look like a piece of rump steak in her wedding photos as I am a bridesmaid.

So, one thing off my change for the best list has happened.. 

My list:

Gym membership

Scales

Blender

Alkaline only food ( :( )

3 to go, then a minimum of 30 pounds to lose and few more during the tone up.  

As I said I will be video documenting all of my recipes, other peoples recipes but mainly my own concoctions as I cannot eat some of the crap they throw together, no taste at all.. Also have you looked into the sea salt cleanse.. I should really do it on Sunday the day before I start the Alkaline diet in fact I hardly eat salt on my food cant stand the stuff, so why would I drink it.. I will just start my day with lemon and hot water i'm going to be stuffed for breakfast I have absolutely no Alkaline friendly products in my house apart from Lemons and limes. 

Good bye breads. Good by meat... I wonder if there are any high in alkaline fish.. I need some form of meat.. Let me Google that.. So I found one ha ha ha.. half an hour later.. 

Tomorrow, I spend my day Compiling my shopping list, this is going to take a while, as clearly I am so new to this, but the dishes I am going to create shall be superb.. The rule is 80% Alkaline 20% Acidic but because I have a disease, I am going full on Alkaline.100% until the disease has reversed and my body is functioning properly.

I will check on my weight every three days, Purely because I do not want to get upset if I lose a quarter of a pound on day two ha ha.. Can it be that fast ha ha ha ha ha.. 

I am still in a state of shock of whats about to happen, No more living like crap.. Making that change for the better

For the first time ever in my life, I had lost everything.. Money, Job and Home, I still had my kids and my ermm Health. well so I thought.  I was constantly ill, had a whopping pain in my side and started gaining weight dramatically, Chocolate was a friend, the crisps were my associates and I had ballooned to a whopping 12 stone. That's nothing when your 6 ft I am 5ft nothing... a mere oomph in your bang.

A million and two blood test later I found out I had N.A. L. F. D Non Alcoholic Liver Fat Disease. The Doctor told me either I lose the weight or I go under the knife.. Its been nearly a year, have i lost the weight YES! have I gained it back HELL YES!!  Recently I started feeling the symptoms again, The pain, the disorientation, the tiredness.. and I am sick of being sick.

Being in a girl group just makes it harder, working with slim bitches and being the fatty sista Just doesn't go down well. You would think it was motivation enough, your wrong. If your not ready to change, it just wont happen, yesterday I decided I want to change, I want to do that change, I want to lose that weight, I want to see me in the mirror, I don't want photo shop to correct who I am, I want to be happy with who I am. Some people are happy being chubby, some people hate being skinny. I just want to feel like me again before I have to lose half of my liver.

Over the year I have tried different diets, the heart bypass diet, the Atkins diet to name a few. They didn't work for me, they were not exciting enough and they were boring as hell.  So after hard core research I have decided not to do a diet, I have decided to change my current eating habit for a healthier option, I have decided to use words that change my perception without making it feel like a chore or a regulation. 

I will eat alkaline only foods for the next 3 weeks, I want to see a change in my health first and if I lose weight at the same time, which is the main goal considering the liver has fat and that is what needs to get lost.

The diet/dietary change emphasizes so-called alkaline foods such as fruit, vegetables, nuts, beans and lentils, which are believed to balance the body’s natural pH level, making it less acidic. In so doing, proponents contend you’ll have more energy, lose excess weight, boost immunity and fend off countless chronic diseases. (Taken from goggle alkaline search)

  So Saying that its gonna cost me in total about £95 pounds to get week one off to a great start.  I get money on Monday 8th of April so tis when I will start. 

  Part of that money goes towards a blender £ 24.95 and a gym member ship of £24.99  that's 50 gone and then my weekly shopping.. now it says, you have to do something 21 times for it to become a habit and 57 times to become a addict.. That's ask Jeeves.. Google said it can take anywhere between 7 to 21 days, Well my first seven days will be easier as I do not have to cook for the kids. I can imagine it, here kids here is your lovely roast dinner with all the trimmings pigs in blankets, Stuffing, Sausage stuffing, Streaky bacon over the biggest roast chicken in the world, goose fat roasted potatoes, Yorkshire puddings and vegetables dont forget chicken gravy made from fresh chicken stock... Then there's me with me cabbage smoothie... minus the chicken stock sad times ahead. NO GREAT times ahead. I'm going to be healthy, I'm going to lose the fat off my liver and off every other inch of me.. 

  I decided that I am not only going to do this for my self, I am going to document it so others can see my progress. From Monday I will film my day including shopping, Making the food creating new recipes and my work outs.. If this works then great, I hope other people are inspired and want to make the change to. 

  So this is my first blog, My opening to the world I am about to leap into.. I'm going to write my prep list for the second blog, my costings and exactly what it is I am buying.. Scales is a must, and a newspaper and photo daily so you can see the before and after pictures with proof I am doing this I'm sure you will follow my you tube page when I start my videos... If your interested in this sort of thing that is.