give me your electric love

RHIANNON: i don't blame you.

RHIANNON: i just hate feeling you hate me.

MAXIM: i don't hate you. i don't think i ever will.

RHIANNON: Yes.

MAXIM: that's all i care about. your safety. mason'll keep you safe, but you wouldn't be safe if you went back there.

MAXIM: i'm sorry i can't love you- i'm sorry i'm not interested in romantic love with you.

RHIANNON: NO. you don't get to talk to me this way. I LOVE YOU. All I ever wanted was to be with you from the moment we started sharing everything together back with Miss Lianne.

RHIANNON: i wanted more than anything to just be more but i know it wasn't possible. and it just.. killed me.

RHIANNON: i just want to be loved. i want someone to hold me and night and not be gone when i wake up in the morning. i want to go on dates and not just be fucked all the time.

RHIANNON: i'm sorry that this happened. but i can't change the way i feel.

RHIANNON: trust me. i have full preparations of going back home if worse comes to worse and he decides he doesn't really want me.

RHIANNON: and then i won't end up being a thought to either of you.

MAXIM: don't you fucking dare.

MAXIM: dammit now i'm pissed again

MAXIM: you are to NEVER show your face to that house, do you understand me?

MAXIM: you shouldn't even THINK about that shit

MAXIM: man, fuck you then! like, god, after everything- even hurting me like this

RHIANNON: Yes!! I was going to talk to you!

RHIANNON: You are going through this recovery so you can have a healthy life with your Domme and maybe a real submissive.

RHIANNON: You'll find a submissive that doesn't expect you to be in love with them.

RHIANNON: But i was so in love with you I tried to give you the world every single day and it turned me into nothing. And i'm sorry that Sir came to tell you but I couldnt' do it myself. I never would have left and you would still have me.

RHIANNON: i'm sorry. trust me. this is a lot harder than you think this is. because i do care about you and i am going to miss you because you are so special.

MAXIM: well, it doesn't really feel like that, but if you say so, rhiannon.

MAXIM: i'll still be ur friend i guess

MAXIM: good luck getting in the same situation cordelia landed herself into

RHIANNON: He is the Dominant. He felt he should've been the one.

RHIANNON: What was I supposed to say? Sorry, Master, I really have feelings for your brother and I want to explore a relationship with him?

RHIANNON: I never would have left you if I did this myself. You would've told me no and I would've said okay and just stayed there.

MAXIM: yeah, i would have fucking preferred that. not the way it was actually told to me.

MAXIM: i wouldn't have. i told you to find a dominant.

MAXIM: like am i pissed it was my BROTHER? yeah, sure.

MAXIM: am i now like 'why am i even doing any of this recovery then'? yes, duh.

MAXIM: but it...

MAXIM: it just hurts more that you wouldn't even tell me

RHIANNON: Don't do this, Maxim, please.

RHIANNON: You told me I couldn't be with you forever.

MAXIM: You should have come to me to tell me. Not Mason.

@RAYSOFEMM: oh well at least you made sure she was okay. all you need is some kind of lawsuit on your hands from her parents. :P

@FCKNMAXIM: s/o to the girl that freaked out so hard at my show tonight that she literally passed out. like, girl me 2.

Mm, I knew you looked familiar. Awesome. Nice to meet you, bigshot. Well thanks for the warning. Nicholas and I are going to make sure to avoid all stalkerish fans, though like… we definitely had a heckuva ton back in New York that managed to realize what subway trains we’d be on and everything. 

For sure. Though I’m hoping to go to California at some point before. Vegas is neat and as much as it gives me the Celine Dion feel I feel like California is more our vibe than Vegas night clubs.

See, that’s why I mainly stay in the area I need to be when I’m in New York, because I just utterly hate that city sometimes. So, compared to New York, I’d rather be living here or LA. Though, California fans are also... really creepy. I fear the day I take my kids to Disneyland because we won’t ever get one solid minute of peace.

… no. They want me to play some shows here, basically. Make it a tour stop for a few months and then carry on by August to Vegas for a few weeks. I guess the good thing about here are the beaches so I won’t complain too much.