gardenias on the tile

I like jax a lot, but the show’s writing and the rest of the cast’s development have suffered immensely for the amount of time that has been put into his character arc, and it’s kind of funny that at this point the only thing that would make any of this worth it is if they go through with making him transfem. but even so (and I really do hate to say this) I think the reveal will fall flat to me because of the treatment of the other female characters leading up to it. while jax was made the narrative’s darling and having all this effort put into hinting at his insecurities, ragatha was getting chewed up and spit out by the fandom for saying the wrong thing a couple times and for being “fake nice”, gangle’s bullying was swept under the rug, we barely know anything about pomni despite her being the mc. like, we can all laugh and say we were fooled into thinking he was just another sarcastic, secretly really sad tumblr sexyman archetype and how “subversive” gooseworx is, but it doesn’t change the fact that a lot of the fandom WAS treating him with the typical preferential male character bias and the other women (+ zooble) of the show did not get nearly as much attention to their own struggles. yes, gooseworx said that he was meant to be the main character alongside pomni, it’s her show, she can do what she wants and have a favorite, but it’s still a bad look imo

thinking about the possible route they’re going to take in ep 9 where the circus is going to be falling apart, the abstracted are going to be loose, and they’ll eventually decide that they have no choice but to bring caine back, but it’s not going to be the caine we knew. it’ll probably be a caine from an old backup that won’t recall any of the events of the previous episodes, maybe won’t even remember years’ worth of his life. he won’t have those experiences or memories.

> be me a couple months ago happily scrolling