debitum.

ㅤ— BEFORE YOU KILL THE MONSTER, YOU MUST SAY ITS NAME.

im still on hiatus but i have to put it out somewhere bc the idea of it is so cute… selwyn has such a big appetite and constantly needs to eat. he burns through so much energy out of sheer heat & aether output and physical activity, and he neeeeeds to eat. he likes nuts the most because of the crunch :) but he is very particular about other people seeing him eat or snack as a sign of vulnerability so he’ll literally wait last second til someone leaves him alone or leave himself to go get snacks.

thinking about daisy. thinking about daisy and being such a vicious thing and she doesn't know where it comes from, but it's there and it's apart of her, and she would hate it if it was alien, but it's not, right? because why else would it feel good, to chase and hurt and be the stronger one..... but when she's in the coffin, it's the realization the hunt is not apart of her. it's harder to tell the difference when it's in her blood and loud and everything blurs together, adrenaline and heart pounding and the need to be the one who lords and kills and defeats.....

apparently what i needed to get out of my funk is to think about my original characters. anyway. thinking about how much shame kismet has towards possibly reuniting with his best friend. by default he still has romantic feelings for her because this man can fucking pine like it's his goddamn job, but also very platonically he wants her to succeed and have a good life and now it's been long enough without telling her what happened to him that he feels. weird. for completely uprooting her life and "coming back from the dead." but also like.

rotating the collector’s dynamic to their body in my brain. especially for something that has a ‘true’ form, they’re unfortunately beholden to the idea of having a mortal form. now technically they just need a body. they tend to lean more towards humanoid form because they need a method of communication — although the language barrier serves very little problem to them, as they typically converse in a tongue of what their conversation participant inherently understands — and the collector tends to go for distinctively human bodies. i’ve never written tc with an elvish or gnome or tiefling body, etc etc! they go for very human, because they love portraying the air of someone on the same level as someone else. equal — but it’s because of that they hold so much power. they’re not equal. they want the other person to know this fact. despite the fact that the collector looks like this — unassuming — they’re the monster.