❛ yeah, '89, THE CURE’s LULLABY just came out. we wanted to change LUV SHARD’s image, less teenage playboys, more adult, a bit post-BATCAVE, gloomy dark ambient aesthetics. teasingly, y’know, i’m not into that. just to piss off the punks and goths. you’re popculture as well, you muppets! and i can make a heap of dosh with it! wouldn’t believe it nowadays, but there was this staggering amount of wankers telling me not to do it. darcy kept saying: don’t you bloody dare, ryan! don’t dress up as a vampire! no teeth! guess what i did! sod you, mark! point that finger up your arse! […] but really, don’t show me that, i didn’t even keep any prints, i dislike the look; i look like a posh bastard… fuck me, i know i am, i’m a rotten disaster. most people think i’m a cunt, they really do. these are my best fans! they watch the show, they love it. i’m very bent. drank a lot of stuff with a kick back then, y’know… drugs and summat. i mean i still do. but it’s out of fashion nowadays. i’m learning to hate all the things that were great when i used to be bent. i wanna be straight. eat healthy. get up early. stop shagging everything that moves. be friendly. be kind. don’t tell smelly people they need to stop bathing in shite. not being disgusted by babies. bollocks like that, apparently it’s important. maybe it’s a find the right partner thing, a love thing. what do you do when you’re never in love? right now i know someone i think i wouldn’t mind falling in love with, a bit. that’s not going to work out, though! never chat someone up you actually fancy, like a friend. you can’t just dump them. […] in the end i prefer mr. lifestyle of the rich and famous over poncey lapse of taste, even though — and this is the only reason i’m sitting here — it ended in a shag. maybe it will do again if you publish these another time. i can do a lot with these fangs… any of you free tonight? ❜
