*is hold*

just got a request for an interview from a recruiter at my dream company that i applied to like a bajillion times but then gave up a couple yrs ago..wow... .is this how cool people feel?

i think the most difficult thing to come to terms with surrounding my weight gain is that i have boobs now and i never wanted boobs i always thought i wanted them but actually they look bad in everything i wear bc i only like turtlenecks and mocknecks it makes me look like my torso is 2 inches tall it's also weird bc having yo-yoed a lot, ive been at every weight but i swear i never had boobs at this weight ive always been pretty consistently small chested so this SUCK!!!!!!S!!!!

i might be projecting but it really killlllls insecure weird people when they perceive you as lesser than them in some capacity and they still see you living life, being happy or appearing confident like they hate it so much!!!

i wish id been healthy and happy when i was young.

i know i will go to hell for being an insecure and evil thing but today i felt quite smug that a woman ive hated for no reason (except that my boyfriend called her pretty) got her lips filled and it looks obvious and bad and i have plump lips naturally : )