S.W.

sam guesses that's why she's made no fuss, the few times she's taken a breather, even when she's come back and her eyes are red-rimmed. tay thinks she can hide. the reality is she's just too polite to say.

he takes advantage of that, plonking beside her, because alexis can handle her own, and dean's smart enough to still be scared of her. it's his one good thing.

"you and dillan ever gonna work it out?"

"i don't know. i don't care anymore."

sam gives tay a look of pity.

"i have dean—"

the crease in his brow deepens. he's no stranger to dean's antics, and it's not unlike him to assume the worst about his brother, when the worst is probably true. tay notices, so she doesn't expand on the point.

"i have you, then. and you're happy, right? you have alexis, and i know i don't agree with your opinion on klaus, but i get it. that was me too. i'm the last person who should be judging anyone about how they feel about him."

based on what sam's heard, and he's heard a lot but not through trying to hear anything, she's right. but it's christmas, and the list of miserable christmases he's had doesn't need to grow by another year, even if she can't help it, or the way her voice shakes.

"dillan is... dillan," tay finally says his name. "don't worry about it."

alexis and dean's voices are nearer now, and that mask re-emerges. bright smile, but her eyes are only twinkling because of the tree lights. she cracks a joke, and everyone else laughs, but sam. he looks at her knowingly when she stands up, expecting he'll be hearing his balcony door open and close.

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what name my muse has set for yours: Tay

what ringtone my muse has set for yours: the default.

what contact photo my muse has set for yours:

what my muse thinks of the way yours texts: sam doesn't like the fact tay uses emojis in place of full stops, and sometimes in the middle of her sentences. he literally went to college, and went back to college to be graced with this.

how quickly my muse responds to your texts: he doesn’t have a reason to ignore tay, but he doesn't worry if he leaves it a couple of hours, to a day or so. when she texts him, it's usually re: dean so how urgent it is dictates how long it takes him.

how often our muses text: as often as there is a dean-related issue sam might be able to help with. sometimes, tay will send the occasional text to check in with him about how he's dealing with his vampirism that she feels at fault for AND guilty about.

how often our muses call: unless something is urgent, they don't.

does my muse purposefully miss calls from yours: no.

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what name my muse has set for yours: Klaus

what ringtone my muse has set for yours: the default.

what contact photo my muse has set for yours:

what my muse thinks of the way yours texts: he doesn't have an opinion. they probably don't even text, really.

how quickly my muse responds to your texts: if sam receives one, it's as soon as he can respond. klaus has done a lot for him. it'd be rude to ignore him for long periods of time.

how often our muses text: rarely.

how often our muses call: more than they text. it's klaus' preferred method of contact, and he calls sam if he needs him to do something i.e dispose of vampires that are bothering him in new york city.

does my muse purposefully miss calls from yours: no.

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what name my muse has set for yours: Alexis

what ringtone my muse has set for yours: the default.

what contact photo my muse has set for yours:

what my muse thinks of the way yours texts: he has no opinion.

how quickly my muse responds to your texts: very. he didn't ignore his teachers at school, he's not going to start now.

how often our muses text: since alexis has practically moved in, it's not often. sam uses his vampirism for good so he'll talk to her if they're in the same place but different rooms. in general, sam doesn't text her often. a lot of their history is sam responding to whatever alexis has sent him.

how often our muses call: again, it's not too often. sam is more likely to call her than text when she's away on recruitment duties, or down in malibu hanging with tay. he's traditional in that sense, and would rather hear her talk than read what she has to say.

does my muse purposefully miss calls from yours: never.

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what name my muse has set for yours: Dillan

what ringtone my muse has set for yours: the default.

what contact photo my muse has set for yours:

what my muse thinks of the way yours texts: sam doesn't have an opinion.

how quickly my muse responds to your texts: as soon as. it can't be a blossoming bromance if sam leaves dillan hanging.

how often our muses text: as often as they need to to organise plans i.e figure out which apartment they're gonna hang in. dillan texts to make sure sam has his favourite snacks on hand also, because he can't trust the health freak in him. (mostly, he does).

how often our muses call: they don't.

does my muse purposefully miss calls from yours: he wouldn't if they called, unless it was accidental.

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what name my muse has set for yours: Dean

what ringtone my muse has set for yours: default. ideally, he'd use a ring tone that warns him not to answer so he doesn't even have to check to see who is calling. alas, he doesn't.

what contact photo my muse has set for yours:

what my muse thinks of the way yours texts: he thinks it's obvious that dean dropped out of school.

how quickly my muse responds to your texts: could be minutes, could be hours, could be days. it depends on what dean's texted. if it's a link, he responds with a 👍without viewing it, within that time frame. he isn't completely heartless and hasn't forgotten about dean (because it's impossible) and will text first on occasion to see how he's doing. but if he's going for a vampirism heart-to-heart, it's in person.

how often our muses text: more often when they're apart. on average, it's back and forth at least once a day. sometimes every two or so. sam's living life. dean should try it.

how often our muses call: urgent things always prompt a call. sam's caught wind of a group of vamps terrorising nyc (klaus has told him he wants them gone), he's calling dean so it can be just like old times. otherwise, sam's happy with checking in over text, and calling occasionally.

does my muse purposefully miss calls from yours: yes. sam's a big boy. he doesn't need dean to call and check in as often as he does, even if he's just trying to save him from the big bad wolf (klaus). if it's urgent, dean will call repeatedly and sam's counting on that. but he'll always follow up a missed call with a You good? text, minutes to hours later.

sam wakes to a different sort of pounding in his head. and an ache in his gums. when he opens his eyes and the light is blinding— he has all the confirmation he needs. it's not just dean's brain that dad's journals are burned into.

dragged away from stanford by dean because john is missing, jess dies during the hunt— killed by the same vampire as mary

motivated by revenge, leaves stanford behind and hits the road with dean. they hunt everything in their path, with no sign of john

months and months pass

tay shows up, somehow and somewhere. sam gives dean plenty of time to warm up to her, and her constant presence before he goes back to school— nyc this time, tay's recommendation

he reconnects with sarah blake, and settles down into his degree and later, lawyer career

he sees dean occasionally, who still holds out hope of finding john. he gets on better with him when they are separated

ends up sick, malignant brain tumour— treatment works the first time but the cancer comes back, as it’s likely to do

the second time, he refuses treatment. he’s good with dying; he wants to spend the time he has left with sarah. sarah understands. dean is pissed.

dean doses sam up on his vampire blood, somehow and secretly. thing is— it’s not strong enough to fully cure his sickness. sam feels better initially, because the blood is a band aid that’s hiding the festering wound underneath. but for the first time in a while, he has hope. even if miracles like that are rarely ever true

he dies anyway, with dean’s blood in his system. it’s another miracle, this time, when it brings him back as something new, and changed. he isn’t on a morgue table, but still in the bed he died in. the only person in the room is dean.

tay acts as bodyguard outside of it, and as a shield for sarah, who knew enough about the supernatural but didn’t sign up to be married to it. and sam can hear her blood rush in her veins through the wall.

sam and dean argue. things get broken. he asks dean if he thinks dad would be proud of him now. it cuts deep. and he uses the fallout, and tay’s concern for sarah to escape.

overwhelmed by the brightness, and people’s voices and heartbeats and the rest of the city noise, he hides between buildings.

it’s not difficult to find him. but when they do, it’s too late. he’s marred with blood, and there’s a body without its head. his eyes are red, and glowing. the sun sets over new york city.

the plethora of unopened video links should have answered dean's question before he'd opened his mouth. but then sam would be lucky, and it's not like luck's ever been on his side.

that, and dean's much easier to ignore when he shoots a text from thirteen states away.

"no?" he tries, and fails 'cause dean shoves his phone into sam's eyeline and he's forced to endure all thirty seconds of videoed baby torture. his face doesn't move an inch. but dean laughs the same way as he did the first two times he'd watched it. sam's boredom turns to concern.

"come on, dude. that's sick," is met with, "lighten up, sammy."