Uncle life. It’s funny watching my niece grow up and develop her personality. She’s a goofball.

My house is slowly turning into a home. There’s still this sort of empty feeling to it though.

I’ve spent the last 5 years avoiding dating like the plague but I’m putting myself back out there. I will say the dating process, especially in our day and age, is the worst.

45 minutes was all it took for you to no longer be here on Earth. Last Wednesday around 10AM, I got texts from my mom and aunt saying that my grandma had an episode this morning and she wasn’t doing too well. While I debated what I was going to tell work, I started getting my stuff together for the trip out to CA. At 10:45AM, the family group chat was informed that ‘Bama’ was no longer with us. I threw my bags together, picked up my mom, and headed west to CA. It was a few rough days before getting back home earlier tonight.

Bama, I hope you’re finally at peace. You made my childhood so fulfilling and I’m thankful I got to take a month off work in the 05-06 summers to spend time with you guys. I will forever appreciate everything you’ve done for me. 

Some days I feel inadequate. A bad grandson. Son. Brother. Nephew. Friend. Manager. Others I don’t. I’m trying to be a better person. Some days I’m just so tired of the weight of the world. Just getting that off my chest. No ominous meaning behind it. I live alone and don’t want to burden friends with further negativity.

Trip to Davenport, IA to surprise my friend for his bday (This was a “I peed all over the hotel bathroom floor and adamantly denied it” kind of trip. Had a good laugh about it though); Visited my nephew in Truckee, CA. Love that little dude; Have went on a couple snowy trail runs. Wheeler Pass was hands down one of the sketchiest runs I’ve had. Snow changes the game.

Recently did some adulting and signed on a piece of land. Will be a homeowner in 6 months. Been such a stressful process though.