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1981 be damned, my boy sure can have autism!

Struggles with social norms, not in the sense that he doesn't pick up on them - he very much does - but in the sense that he doesn't understand why they're so important to everyone else.

Is considered "weird" by Bret and, by extension, a lot of his classmates despite there being nothing obviously weird about him: everyone does drugs, so it's not that, and Bret's also shy, it's not unusual to be a shy teenager. He's purposefully ignoring social cues and it makes everyone else uncomfortable.

Selective about the company he keeps.

Perceived as quite distant and cold until he actually starts talking and is immediately friendly and warm.

Is very interested in an activity (surfing) he doesn't actually enjoy (Matt Kellner sand-texture-hater, I'm calling it).

Likes watching the same films on repeat.

Happy to listen to the same song on repeat.

Has a favourite item of clothing he wears all the time.

Struggles to communicate how he's feeling to others and seemingly chooses to just bottle things up until he explodes.

Appreciates his alone time (though maybe not quite as much as Bret images he does).

Seems quite smart, but still struggles in school - could easily be interpreted as being deep in the throes of burnout.

Saw, in 1981, absolutely no reason why he shouldn't be attracted to a 1. boy who was 2. a little fat despite 1. the building AIDs epidemic and subsequent fear-mongering and 2. the rampant fatphobia/promotion of eating disorders.

So many neurodivergent!character headcanons are based on how they're perceived by others - I also just think being able to have an autism diagnosis and (though tragically not in 1981) the support that would come with that would be good for Matt. He was so lonely and clearly knew other people, even Bret, thought he was weird, it would have been nice for him to know there was nothing wrong with him.

Grief doesn't always look like crying. Here are some ideas for how to realistically portray it outside of the ‘screaming, crying, throwing up’ phase.

1. Burying Themselves in Work or School: Suddenly the most productive they've ever been, taking on extra shifts, extra assignments, anything that keeps their hands and mind too busy to land on the actual loss.

2. Avoiding Anywhere That Reminds Them of the Person: A restaurant, a route they used to walk together, an entire side of town. They'll go out of their way and never explain why, and probably won't even clock it as avoidance themselves.

3. Refusing to Change Anything of Theirs: The room stays exactly as it was. The voicemail doesn't get deleted. Moving even one object can feel like erasing them, so nothing moves at all.

4. Overcompensating With Normalcy: Laughing a little too readily, insisting they're fine a little too often. This one's great for a character who thinks showing grief means burdening the people around them.

5. Picking Fights With People Trying to Help: Grief makes people prickly in strange directions. Someone offering comfort can genuinely feel unbearable, and lashing out is sometimes easier than admitting they need it.

6. Taking Care of Everyone Else's Grief Instead of Their Own: Comforting siblings, managing funeral logistics, checking in on everyone but themselves. Tip: this one's especially good for an oldest-sibling or caretaker-type character, since it lets them delay their own grief almost indefinitely.

7. Sudden Reckless Behavior: Driving too fast, drinking too much, taking risks they never would have before. It's less about wanting to get hurt and more about needing to feel something other than the numbness.

8. An Obsessive Need for Control: Rigid routines, excessive cleaning, rearranging things that don't need rearranging. When one massive thing feels completely out of their control, controlling everything else becomes the coping mechanism.

9. Talking About Them in Present Tense: "She loves this song," not "loved." A small grammatical slip that says more about where their head still is than an entire monologue would.

10. Taking Up Something the Person Loved: Picking up their guitar, rewatching their favorite show, cooking their recipes. It's a way of keeping them present without having to say out loud that they're gone.

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Hunter Doohan as Joseph Price

Hunter Doohan as Joseph Price

Organized by emotions!

ANGRY/ANNOYED:

Insulted, goaded, jeered, argued, bickered, raged, scolded, complained, nagged, quipped, chided, snarled, ridiculed, snapped, retorted, protested, grumbled, whined, accused, badgered, threatened, lashed, ranted, scoffed, retaliated, stormed, sneered, boomed, roared, yelled, shouted, barked, grilled, fumed, heaved, insisted, bellowed, taunted, sassed

HAPPY:

Beamed, cheered, gushed, bubbled, chirped, resounded, praised, sang, trilled, chorused, tittered, complimented, effused, jabbered, rejoiced, approved, chimed, chatted, exclaimed

SAD:

Bawled, cried, blubbered, sobbed, wept, sniffled, wailed, agonized, grieved, mumbled, groaned, sniveled, apologized, lamented, fretted, gurgled, croaked

CALM/NEUTRAL:

Added, began, addressed, agreed, called, announced, confirmed, described, continued, disclosed, echoed, greeted, emphasized, informed, mentioned, implied, mused, observed, prompted, offered, recited, started, recalled, uttered, reckoned, ventured, went on, pronounced, voiced, noted, remarked, commented, interjected, shared

SCARED:

Cautioned, gulped, swallowed, keened, panted, gasped, shrieked, trembled, shuddered, yelped, warned, hesitated, stammered, stuttered, pleaded, murmured, sputtered,

CURIOUS:

Hummed, questioned, inquired, quizzed, queried, wondered