Whatever I Feel Honestly🤷‍♀️

I'm convinced that if Sam and Dean were cisgender women, when they were teenagers, Dean would be the one to help Sam if she had a leak during her period. Dean would let Sam cry on her shoulder as they wait for the dry cleaning to be done for Sam's pants.

Holly journals and draws to reduce stress from hunts. She recounts what she sees in detail in order for her to cope. She does this silently so Sam and Dean tend to not notice.

The hardest part of hunting was saying goodbye to her friends. Due to feeling very disconnected to her family as a kid, Holly developed many close friends, 7 to be exact. But due to hunting, she couldn't tell them why she was travelling with a long time. She reasoned that she is supporting her brothers and doing work too but never specified why she was supporting them. She had to disconnect from friends that she confided in, travelled with, and who made her feel like she belonged. Holly never realized how much she would miss them until being on the road for 4 years experiencing horrible trauma and loss. ((SPOILER FOR SEASON 5)) When Sam died and Dean forced Holly to live a normal life, she decided to just buy an apartment and became a recluse for a year. She knew her friends would see right through her lie and she couldn't put them in danger. It was as if she went back to who she was as a child living with her brothers and father but now, she has to adjust to living a normal life from what she has gone through and she grieved heavily, still making art and selling it. She worked out methods in her mind to see if she can get Sam back but she gave up. Until Dean gave her a call of course.

Also me: *Tries to make OCs anyway*

But when Dean learned that she learned classic rock tunes he would “subtly” suggest she learned certain songs despite her not really being a fan.

Ever since she was little and John went hunting, Holly from age 2 and up, taught herself to be more independent. All from pouring her own milk at age 2, learning how to brush her own hair at age 3 and even learning how to wipe a table if she makes a mess at the same age without being asked. This even extended to their family trips, where Holly would pack her bag faster than Sam did and did it usually without Dean’s help. Unfortunately this led her to seldom ask for help because she would be praised for being so self-sufficient which left Dean more time to focus on Sam.

Holly is the type to remain smiling despite the pain that life throws at her. Holly is also the type to pick up someone when they have fallen, often with a small: “Are you alright?” alongside a sympathetic gaze and smile. Overall, Holly has a big heart. She is not the same positivity as Charlie but more “composed” much like a princess.

Sam and Dean are on a late night car ride to their next location during the 2010s. Dean looks at Sam with his earbuds in, his face contemplative but widens at certain points. Dean raises his eyebrow: "Sammy, what're you listening to?" Sam's eyes doesn't respond, until Dean pulls at his headphones. It turns out he was listening to Snarled's "Something Scary" podcast. Soon, that podcast became one they would listen to together to hear the narration of various scary stories.

"Holly Giving Princess Vibes"

Crowley may not act like it, but the reason Crowley is so keen on doing deals involving kisses or makes flirty jokes is because he is actually touch-starved. Being the King of the Crossroads allows him to have henchmen but that's not the same and he is disgusted by the idea of kissing his henchmen. Instead, he relies on the people he is interacting with this. This demon just wishes to be kissed again by a rugged old man is that too much to ask?