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i felt like i could feel all of bellas emotions 🤣 how it felt to walk down the isle and to drive away to honeymoon and hang out and swim and be cozy w ur new husband like what a rush

undoubtedly honeymoon era was the best for edward, bellas best era is her vampire era duh

the thing abt twilight is that its, realistic. ok duh not in the vampire and werewolves but in bellas dynamic w her new friends her father how she talks and acts and all that it feels real and natural, it doesnt feel like a script or a basic dialogue with cliche lines and constant banter like in some modern series

thats why i could understand and relate to her. everyones romcoms and romances r with an extroverted loud bubbly girl but no one makes them shy quiet and awkward ! anyway yeah

their honeymoon was so cute and fluffy and new, i myself was getting shy watching 🤭 when i envision and picture a honeymoon its theirs cuz they hit all the vibes and feels soo rightt besides edward destroying the room

the views were stunninggg like whats a good vaycay without a view

and then... she got pregnant. on like the 14th day at that. 14 days to enjoy u and ur husband childless! never!! but then yeah that child drained the life out of her and everyone wanted to abort it besides her and her sis in law.

edward snapping at her bc he doesnt want to keep it bc its basically slowly killing her and he said theyre supposed to be partners but she decided this alone 💔 he is right tho, but bella has more right to keep it

and also she doesnt suffer 9 months pregnancy more like 4 weeks!! but she looked like death tho, compared to her honeymoon self its a different person and this isnt an exaggeration for real pregnancy this is very much realistic and thats reason 392 why i cant have kids

the entire birth scene and delivery my jaw was DROPPED. absolute chaos and carnage and pain and pain and pain. EDWARD HAD TO BITE HIS WAY TO THE BABY WHILE SHE WAS AWAKE cuz the baby was gonna suffocate, WHILE HE WAS STARVING OF BLOOD TOO

ik edward heart was in his throat all the way through and his desperate attempts to bite the venom into her when it didnt seem to be working it broke my heart, he could barely control himself not too long ago but here he is biting into her multiple times to try and save her 😭

and then the whole imprinting thing. when i watched the movies for the first time i made an edit of jacob seeing the baby with the sound "cuz ur the reason i believe in fate ur my paradise" and i understand how WEIRD it is now. thats a BABY and ur over here imagining her as an adult and claiming as ur mate like bro shes FRESH out the womb ☠️

i understand the whole situation and his imprinting on her i understand he doesnt choose it and it just happened but its still weird. he gonna tell her, wow ur just as hot as ur mum when i had a crush on her?! ultimate age gap romance ahh

wth?? i understand the whole having responsibilities thing but why is it normalised to think that women should be dimmed down after they get married???

like this woman she was joyful happy bright, but then she got into a bad marriage, lost her spark and became unlike herself, and after she got divorced and regained herself and her happiness, my point is why is it accepted to think a woman "dims down" and "becomes dull" when she gets married in the name of "gaining maturity"?

and the point is that even tho she was in a bad marriage no one noticed or thought it wasnt unusual that she wasnt acting like herself bc it apparently happens so much they thought it was normal when it shouldnt be

the rest of july and august is work and lessons and planning 😖

staff: excuse me miss, we selling banana bread would u like to buy one

me: uh... sorry i dont like banana bread

staff: its okay miss u can just buy it its the last one someone needs to buy it

me: um i hope u find the person who'll buy it... runs away while he rambles on to himself

assuming the vampire who turned me is friendly and didnt kill me, i would first run my way to elon, compel the guards to let me in and compel him to give me stocks of tesla and nasa in my name. instantly im a billionaire.

then i would buy a villa in the middle of switzerland countryside so that im alone and no one can see me dazzle. next i would go to dubai for a shopping spree and buy my dream wardrobe and go to france to dine at the effile tower.

after my trip i would go to medical school at harvard, since im mentally advanced and way smarter and sharper i would finish all my years of studying and practice in 3 year, which would help me control my bloodlust and give me practice in controlling my thirst. then i would volunteer night shift at the swiss hospital helping ppl and also getting my blood fix.

now after some years ppl would be suspicious how am i young for so long? so i would move to um idk where but i would move and settle there pursuing my passion. maybe greece.

when i get bored ill do law school, architecture, chef, astronomy, anything whatever i want. actually after medical school i will start modelling and studying fashion in france.

it just, suits me. maybe im being influenced bc im rewatching twilight saga but regardless i thing i accept my fate.

being physically, beautifully and mentally enhanced with immortality almost impossible to kill? come on. now im not the type to "want to live forever" iv never wanted to be "immortal" as a human. but as a vampire? u can convince me.

this is my own world so im merging twilight, the vampire dairies, vampire academy and whatever facts i know.

firstly id be flawless, impeccably drop dead gorgeous (not that i need more of it) secondly, id be super fast, strong, amplified senses, healthy, i dont even need to breathe if i dont want to. thirdly, i can compel ppl like in tvd so i can compel elon musk to give me half of tesla and nasa stocks, id be rich forever.

only downside is i have to drink blood, which isnt an issue cuz itd be tasty i hope. now i dont like the idea of murder but i hate the idea of drinking from animals sooo id volunteer at blood donation centre and take my fix there. and i have awesome fangs which i can bare to scare the children.