It gets better

Get someone to hold you. Get them to slide into your bed at night and press their mouth into your back.  Get someone who clicks into you like a key snapping into a lock and get them to fall asleep with you. Get someone to learn the outline of your sleeping body. Get someone to teach you the outline of theirs. Get someone who dreams about you at night. Get someone who hides with you under the sheets from the morning sun. Get someone who groggily talks about their dreams with their eyes closed. Get someone who pulls you back into bed when you get up, just for one last kiss. Get someone who curls up into the warm spot your body just left and falls back asleep before you even make it to the shower.

Spend your nights next to someone who touches you like they are a 6 AM wind in the middle of May–gentle, cool, and familiar.