fancybidet

The last few months have consisted of hospital or sewing but I think I'm finished with hospital stuff for a while. I went into the clinic for TMS but I didn't feel like it was doing anything so then I started ECT. I discharged feeling better but was back a week later after breakdown. More ECT followed but then I ended up fracturing my ankle (put my foot down on uneven ground like a professional walking person.)

After discharging I started outpatient ECT but started getting delayed hallucinations from the ketamine used for anaesthetic. Reader, it was pretty horrible. I have opted to cease more treatments for now.

I feel like my world has shifted slightly, maybe 10cm to the side. Everything feels strange and I have to find a new way to live my life.

The internet has been my friend since 1995 but I feel increasingly untethered in recent years. It all went to shit post 2012, I reckon.

Anyway here's a video of me swinging a second hand yarn garland I made in the craft op shop I manage. 💕

PS free Palestine

I now have tshirts in sizes 8-32 and some hats and bum bags.

After living life balls deep in anxiety for 42 years, it's weird just goobering along and not really too bothered about much of my own brain stuff. Mostly just extremely bothered by the genocide of Palestinians and textile waste.