Curses
He nodded and when Jem left the room he took a dose of the Yin Fen. He understood how James felt about hiding the fact that he needed the drug. He took a drink of water from a glass on his nightstand. The book was open on his legs b the time James returned. He was looking over the text but stopped when he heard the door. He listened to the melody Jem played. It was beautiful, but made Will feel sad by the end. He realized what Jem was saying in it about a troubled life, but strong friendship. He knew it was kind, but he knew he had been a bad friend, a bad parabatai to James. He looked down at his fingers curling in his lap. “It’s beautiful,” his voice was low and soft.
James knew what he was doing. He was taking the drug as soon as James left. Which was kind of why he did leave. James knew what he was going through. When he finally returned, Jem saw that he was reading a book which brought a calm relief look to his face. “I wrote it for you.” James told him kindly with a smile on his face. “Thank you.” James nodded and sat next to his parabatai. “I forgive you.” He told him softly. “And I’m going to walk you through this, okay?”
Will looked away, James spent too much time thinking well of him. If he only knew how Will was hurting everyone around him and wasn't protecting them the way he did his family. "Thank you," he sighed though he wasn't entirely sure himself what he was thanking him for. It could have been for the music or the wrongful forgiveness. He let the words out anyway. He gave a small smile to James. "You don't need to waste your time on me.
