The rollercoaster is still going! Although we’ve come to the end of the triple digit road, this train has the audacity to keep on going. Over a year ago, when I started this account, I never thought that I would have kept Legolas longer than a few months. I felt like I wasn’t good enough to be around everyone else and although I had my own experience when it came to roleplay (12 years worth) I still felt as though I didn’t belong. I thought that no one would really roleplay with me after a few moments; that I’d be replaced and forgotten until just the sheer thought of that and the weight that came with it would push me over the edge and cause me to delete Legolas. Now, over a year later and with over 1k followers for who knows what the reason is, I’m still here roleplaying strong.
I’ll admit, my knowledge on everything that has to do with this verse is not as strong as others. I haven’t read the books, barely scrapping through the movies and don’t know much of the lore that comes with a lot of things. I thought my headcanons were stupid. I felt like my roleplay was plain. I honestly believed that out of all the Legolis, mines was the worst because of the knowledge I lacked. But, with this fandom, it really didn’t seem to matter with most. The fact that I was trying was more than enough. I was trying to learn; trying to talk to other people and learn from them. I didn’t feel like I was in my box anymore and although there are times when I feel really apprehensive about talking to people in fear that they want nothing to do with me, I still stuck around with those who actually did want to talk to me.
Its been a long journey and its been a learning experience for myself. In all my years of roleplaying, I have to say that this is the most fun I’ve had in a long time. I don’t feel alone anymore. I don’t feel as though I am just there; someone who is easily replaceable. People approach me and don’t get upset when I approach them and, for someone who has been told (wayyyyy too many times) that they are intimidating, that is huge. Everyone else might say I am intimidating, but let me tell you, I am the one who is really scared to talk to all of you. I’ve had way too many bad experiences with people and it causes me to be a bit of a shut out. I don’t want to do that anymore; I never want to be that ever again and I have all of you to thank for it. Although I can’t sit here and thank you all (I think tumblr would ban me for trying), Just know that my thanks is indeed there.
When we first started talking and when we first started roleplaying, I honestly thought that you were going to get sick of me. I talk alot and can become very long winded when it comes to a lot of things. We started to pair our characters off and although it is alright, I still felt as though you were going to do to me what others have already done and that is leave me behind. You’ve asked for my trust and although I gave most of it, I held back because of that fear. It manifested when we spoke more and more and got to the point where everything overflowed. I thought I was going to lose a good partner and a friend when I opened up to you; I thought that me being completely and utterly honest (to the extent of my ability) was going to repel you so much that you were going to stop talking to me slowly but surely. But, you didn’t. You stayed and kept on talking to me and kept on being my friend.
There are no words to describe the gratitude I feel for that. You always said that you’re no going to abandon me and although I believed that, that gnawing in the back of my head really, somehow tends to overpower. After last night, that gnawing slowly began to die down. I don’t know when it will vanish completely but I know it will sooner or later. I thank you for choosing my Legolas to pair and ship with. My muse has never been so happy, and not just for the ship, for the honor and privilege to roleplay with someone who I felt would want nothing to do with me. I hope that we get to continue that and have our characters grow together as much as they can and with as much time as we can possibly muster. Doesn’t matter if we have one thread, or multiple threads (I vote for multiples!) together, so long as I have the privilege to keep on writing with you and taking this journey down the road of storytelling and watching our two idiots together and mine trying to get yours to bathe then I will be a very happy camper.
Thank you for the support; there is nothing more in the world that I would want or ask for than support. Thank you for the late night talks where we both stay up until wayyyyy too far in the morning, wake up the next days scrambling and sorta joke about. Thank you for letting me into your life and allowing me to let you into mine. Thank you for the headcanons. Thank you for watching The Two Towers with me (I probably wouldn’t have done it otherwise ngl). Thank you for roleplaying on skype with me (take your time with that :p) but most of all, Thank you for being my friend. I can never stress nor say that enough and I hope, no, I know we are going to be friends for a very long time. I missed the wedding but that’s alright! I’ll come to a birthday one day or something. Thank you so much and I’ll probably keep on saying it until I am blue in the face. Thank you.
You’ve all managed to stick with me no matter what the reason; whether I was in over my head or way too far into my head. You’re the people who made me stick around for this long and want to continue to stick around for. I don’t know where this account would be without you guys.
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As much as I want to add all of you onto here because, let us be fair, no one wants this to get any longer on their dash than it is now. So! Instead, I will end it here and let this do the work for me. Again, thank you guys for having me here and dealing with me. I hope that you all continue this journey with me. So long as I keep on going, I hope that you guys keep on following with me. See you guys at 2k!
