Randomness

The reason why I put so many 'randomness' word on my tumblr is because someone gave it that nickname to me. Someone who live far far away from me. Someone whom I haven't met before. Someone who teach me to be obsertive and also realistic at the same time. Someone that I adore till now. I miss him. I know he will be annoyed if i say i miss him, that he told me to stop missing people and move on with my life. But I dont know, I can't help it. I do still missing people that I left or left me. When i need his advice i always come back to him. I wish you read this. But I know he won't ever found this. If he do tho, he won't remember me. I miss him. I miss him so so much. But I know he would be happy now without this clingy girl. I wish you a happy life my alien. My judge. My little happiness that gone.. I love you.

I wish you knew. I wanna tell everything so you'll know the reason why I feel like this. But no, I don't trust you enough for that yet I'm not ready to it. Eventhough I knew it you trust me much for being your listener. I don't know, it's so unexplainable hon. I'm sorry. And I'll end up telling you that I'm fine when I actually not