CaraChoco CEO

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Please note that I might not get to your ask immediately!! I like to do them at my own pace and I might not answer or do requests in the order I receive them!!

And finally, join the community!

I may bring it back, maybe even sooner than later, but that can only happen with the support from others.

I have a complicated history with mental health and abuse. I try not to overshare but my experiences have caused me to heavily struggle to properly communicate with others (Sorry to everyone's DMs whom I've neglected to reply to). I'm an overthinker, I have an overwhelming amount of thoughts and ideas and sometimes I can't stop myself from saying too much at once and regretting my words immediately after.(wow look at this post already). I've been outcasted, bullied and laughed at all my life, even by my own family, so I struggle to have confidence in almost everything I do. That's why I put such an emphasis on my friends to simply support me, my emotions, and my ideas.

The original purpose of the server was that I wanted a place where I could talk about my main passion, Carachoco, without being straight up ignored because no one cared. I even hoped I could maybe make some friends here too as we're all bonded over the same interest.

I wanted it to be partially a Carachoco server, but also a Fan Server for those who like my art! as previously mentioned, I rely heavily on support from others. I make primarily CaraChoco content anyway so having these two ideas merged in one server theoretically works out great.

However, I didn't see much support for the concept and it was eventually removed. Despite that, I am also partially at fault since my own insecurities prevented me from confidently displaying my art in the sever or even doing as little as having a ping role to invite people to even give their support to the idea in the first place.

I feel like I've been on a mental decay as all my whimsy and joy is being snuffed out by the cruel foot of adulthood and my growing awareness of myself and the world. I still remember how happy and excited I was when I first began posting my Carachoco art online, and I've been working hard to bring that whimsy back. Especially with my new AU.

Outside of that, I managed to feel outcasted in my own server as I realized that not everyone seems to agree on other's interpretations of them.

Which I find infuriating because if you pay attention, the Cookie Run world is one that's nearly devoid of most forms of bigotry and discrimination especially around gender and sexuality. So I find it frustrating how people care so much about having a literal masc4masc couple conform to gender norms? (No matter that your gender hcs are for them, Caramel Arrow is undeniably a very masculine leaning woman (Top soldier in the Cacaoain Military btw.) and a lot of people seem to like erasing that fact. (Not to say she can't sometimes present femininely sometimes, but I'm just saying she doesn't seem like the type to strictly conform to being either masc or fem. both can and should be embraced))

Another issue, one that I see many straight shippers fall into, is people putting a heavy focus on the man of the relationship and having the women basically be reduced to a background character in her own relationship??? It's surprisingly very common in straight ships, if you pay attention it's very easy to spot. (Take note of this next time you read anyone's het fic)

I get Dark Choco has a lot more story substance than Caramel Arrow but come on, be a little creative???? She's the strongest warrior in a kingdom with really strict culture, who's been betrayed, exiled and has had a near-death experience. That can hold a lot of potential!

I've seen a SURPRISING amount of CaraChoco "fans" say they enjoy the ship while also holding a negative opinion about Caramel Arrow, such as calling her annoying.

It's a CaraChoco fan server, but it's also a Dark Choco AND Caramel Arrow fan server. Not a Dark Choco with his little Caramel Arrow-themed accessory fan server.

Fun fact! I actually do love both Caramel Arrow and Dark Choco EQUALLY, but whenever people force me to only pick one I'm pretty much forced to pick Caramel Arrow because if I don't then she'll get almost completely sidelined.

People's display of both these have resulted in making me feel uncomfortable and unwelcomed in my own server. I get that different people can interpret the same piece of media differently. Which to be honest, I quite enjoy seeing other people's take on them! However, we can still interpret them different while also giving the both of them equal respect.

Isn't equal respect like... the main foundation of a relationship...? At that point some of you are no different from those who call them siblings.

This is genuinely why so many people stray away from caring about straight ships because not even fans of straight ships can respect their own ships.

Despite the unfortunate circumstances which caused the server's end. I can also say that this was also inevitable.

I love horror. In fact, my AU Sweet & Bitter contains some dark subjects (all based off my own experiences and handled with the care they deserve), the content warnings for which will be released soon on both my main and AU blog. (Don't worry, nothing too intense will be shown until then).

I love horror and all the blood, gore, violence, guns and non-sexual nudity it may contain and I'd love to give myself the freedom to draw all those things.

However, I'd still like to be considerate to those who may be sensitive to this type of content. By restarting my server I can give those who won't be a fan of this shift to easily leave, and those who are ok with it to freely rejoin if they're chill with it.

I will see how things go as people respond to this post. I will begin redesigning the server just in case things do work out.