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When you think you're all alone and have no one left, I'm always here.

so when other people plan a wedding it's "fun" and "romantic" but when I do it I'm "delusional" and "need to let my hostage go"

I am a jealous creature. It's inescapable, a part of my being. I turn it inwards, so it does not hurt you my love. I will be ripped apart by it one day

Don't worry single mutuals I'm literally your boyfriend

do you really think i’m that fucking stupid? they mean nothing to you? don’t make me laugh.

i tell myself i will be careful this time, yet i know the next time someone whispers even a few sweet words to me, they’ll keep me up at night,

i hate being obsessive. i hate it. im at war with my thoughts and desires and my morals. i shouldn’t want you this way. i shouldn’t want to do this to other people. i shouldn’t want this for myself.

I'm not sure how to express it but I'd like someone to manipulate me, like really really fuck with me. Make me reliant and dependent on you, feed into my fears and reduce me to a mess that you can swoop in and clean up. Break me down so far that I start doing the same thing to you. Let's be fucking awful together.

You think im actually creeped with your threats?? You better not go soft on me if you want to keep me.