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I want to be a woman. I don’t feel like I’m a woman, I feel like I’m a still a man who wants to be a woman. I have a hard time saying this, because I know a lot of people who identify as transwoman feel that they were always woman. And I don’t want to take anything away from that. And I definitely don’t want anti-trans people to use my statement or how I feel as a club against trans people.

But it’s also the way I feel and I don’t know what to do about it.

Is there anyone else out there who feels like they want to be woman, but isn’t one? Is there anyone out there who feels like they can’t transition because they’re to old? That’s how I feel.

I feel so disconnected from trans activism. I guess that’s ok. I’m just living in the closest, deep deep in the closest. Activism should support people who are likely to transition, and I’m not ever going to because I can’t. Are there other people like this? People who want to be woman, but never transition? What are we? Trans? Cis? Something else?

The old male-to-female terminology described me very well, or at least I always hoped it would. This new “always a woman” doesn’t at all. I feel like I’ve definitely benefited from male privilege. Even though I’ve been sexually harassed and had some other unfun things happen to me.

Sorry for putting this on what’s essentially a porn blog. I started this blog to post pictures of woman wearing clothing I want to wear and doing things I want to do. I also feel discontented from sissy blogs, the only blogs to seems to acknowledge to that men might want to be woman who enjoy sex. I don’t want to be dominated or anything like that. I just want to be a woman who has fun sex, in addition to being all the other things I am.