Explosions of light

What days are like since you died

I know you never got to read my writing and you wanted to.  You were so proud of anything I did and right now this is the only thing I can do, write about you and write about what Im going through now that you’re gone. Sleeping builds a wall between the ocean of pain and me but the exact moment my eyes open, the oceans pressure is too strong and it starts to seep through the holes until it…

Nov. 21 None of my clothes fit. I’ve been wearing the same pair of black skinny jeans that are becoming increasingly tighter and the same baggy black t-shirt big enough to hide the fat on my upper arms, midsection and hips. As of 3 weeks ago, at least I’m participating in life again. I spent a good 3 months prior avoiding social situations and friends because I didn’t think I could bear to hear…

It’s no surprise that once you hit your twenties it becomes more and more apparent when dealing with friendships it’s about quality not quantity.  For sentimental people like myself, this has always been something that I struggled with, wanting to keep everyone and learning the hard way that you can’t keep people. They out grow you, or you out grow them.  Of course I’ve always had a lot of…

As you can tell, I haven’t written much on here because I’ve been going through some hefty life changes. I left all of my agencies and started free lancing which has been the biggest blessing yet this year. I’ve never worked so much and been so proud myself for doing so much on my own. I’ve been writing a lot about my past and my present and the journey between the two. The places I’ve been and…

If you’re happy & you know it clap your hands

I had one of those nights where my mind jumped from one thing to another and I found myself finally falling asleep at 11:30 only to wake up at midnight back where I started.  I was going to be in a tigers cage in the morning and all I could think of was “what if they get in”… “this is how I will die”.  Too amped to shoot in such a location, under a waterfall, my brain considered sleep a low…

Hi internet!  I know you probably thought I was dead because I havent updated anything in ages, but I am more alive than ever and I’m making changes to my blog.  As many of you know this all started on my experiences as a model, but I’ve felt like I’ve wanted to write about other things beyond what I do.  So this is where Onoption turns into a wonderful blog about anything and everything and I…