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Although the lights had returned and power was restored, his mental health was still in shambles. He still sat, crouched beneath his and Kai’s shared desk. His head laid across his knees as he kept his legs pulled to his chest. Slowly, he rocked back and forth as tears continued to trickle down his freckles cheeks. Being alone was probably the worst thing for him, right now.  He’d tried to call his brother to at least talk to the person he was the closest to. But the time difference wasn’t in their favor, tonight. He knew his brother was probably passed out after a drunken night. 

He tossed his phone, not even realizing the power he’d put behind the throw. The expensive phone hit the way with a bang before clattering to the floor. He knew without looking that he’d broken it. Although he was a gentle man, he often forgot that the Gumiho in him wasn’t. It was a Monster with power and rage that he kept inside. He’d had many things happen to him that could have forced the monster to the surface. And maybe if he let it out every once in a while, maybe, he wouldn’t find himself huddled beneath a desk, crying and craving Malachi’s touch. 

His arms tightened around his legs as his cries shook through his small frame. It was times like this that made him remember that he wasn’t better and that he only pretended to be. All of the videos of him smiling and chatting with subscribers, these past months, it all felt like a mask, when his shit finally caught up to him. More times than he’d like to admit, he found himself talking longer showers because he could sit and cry without anyone knowing. Or the days when he told himself that he’d clean or go out but he found himself sitting in bed afraid to leave the confines of his blanket. The sound of the door opening and shutting fell on deaf ears as Ashton found himself lost in thoughts of anxiety.

Ashton smiled as he read through the comments. “No, Malachi and I have known each other since we were kids. Pretty much been in love with him since I was nine.” He took a sip of his banana milk and nodded his head along to the song that played softly in the background. This was how most of his lives went. “Blue was the first friend I made when I moved to Korea. I always thought that he was really pretty had a bit of a crush on him but kept it to myself and then we became best friends. So, I guess, I have a habit of falling for my best friends.” He joked and clapped as the song changed. “Does anyone remember this song?! I used to sing along to this and pretend that I was in a music video.” Mouthing the words, he acted out the lyrics of the song before giggling and popping a pretzel into his mouth. 

Just as he was gearing up to answer another comment, everything went black. His first instinct was to drop to the ground. He almost expected the sounds of gunshots and screams to echo out. Frantically, he reached for his phone. His breath had began to quicken as his hands shook. What if they were back to finish the job? Memories of searing pain filled his head as his chest began to ache. When he finally found his phone, he pressed the number two. 

Kai was on speed dial and he needed him here. He’d saved him last time but who was going to save him this time? He hadn’t even realized that he’d started crying until he tasted his salty tears against his quivering lips. The phone seemed to ring on forever until there was a click and he heard a voice say ‘Hello’ in English. 

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it was…weird to say the least. he’d always pegged his connection to ash to be something puppy like a platonic. the two had been good friends at school only for their personal and romantic lives to tumble into each other like an impromptu avalanche. this crumble of the terrain around them lead to something, in presidented to say the least and almost scary. before he knew it he was sprawled over ashton’s lap, panting with kiss bitten lips, with a mess in his shorts.

he’d been embarrassed after but moving forward things had…shifted. they kissed goodbye and held hands. their stares lingered and their hang outs had become little dates just like today. he sat on the pretty blanket, leaning back on his hands as he basked in the afternoon sun. his pretty skin shifted and glittered in its rays as he enjoyed the gentle sounds of the nature around them. 

“hm?” blue said turning his head to the compliment, a soft pink blush dusting his cheeks in response. “oh..you’re one to talk ash, you’re literally so beautiful, and that smile of yours could heal the planet.” he teased him gently, nudging him with his socked foot. “hmm, i think i could say the same. though i don’t have much a read on kai. he’s along for the ride and that’s nice. you guys are all so big and protective, it makes me feel loved…even if its unconventional.” he too reached for a piece of fruit from their array of snacks, the sweet taste bursting into his mouth forcing him to hum gently. without hesitation blue invited ashton’s kiss to his lips, smiling wildly before kissing him properly, fingers going to caress the blonde hairs at his nape. 

“mmm, what was that for?” the elf asked still attached to the foxes lips.

Ashton smiled as they pulled away. “It was just because.” He answered back before pulling him back into a kiss. Kissing Blue was a lot different from kissing Kai or even the quick kisses he’d recently shared with Alucard. Kissing Blue was always so soft and never rushed. Even when their bodies were reacting in ways that made them want to ravage each other, their kisses always seemed sweet. “Blue?” He questioned, lips brushing against the smaller man’s. “I…do you want to get out of here? We could go back to yours or mine?”

He bit down on his bottom lip, hoping Blue would catch on to what he was asking of him. They had done a lot of making out and dry humping. But they’d never gone all the way. It wasn’t because they didn’t want to. It just never seemed like the right time to do it. Ashton was sentimental and he didn’t want it to just randomly happen on the couch or anything like that. He wanted it to be special. He wanted to be sure that this was something special and by now, he was definitely sure of it.

there was only 75% of him that was excited to move in with ashton, simply because it was him. they’d spent most their lives with malachi rooming with him or his brother. many nights he tucked clio and atlas into bed on the kims’ couch while he slept on the love seat even if the twins begged him to choose the spot next to them on their own mattresses. the period of time where he and ash weren’t speaking he’d longed for that begging and pleading, just kids wanting their friend next to them, but in his heart an ocean away it meant so much more. 

as ashton placed down the last box malachi set down the basket he was holding with a well needed sigh. there was so much relief in moving in with his high school sweet heart but most of it came in that remaining 25% of wanting to keep an eye on him. he’d almost lots him twice since they set foot on agdoeg soil and that was something he’d give everything up to happen again. a small piece of that went hand and hand with the fact that sustaining himself was still hard with his entry level job. even with the blood money rolling in, from his siblings tuitions and bills he was still just scraping by. a smile painted his lips as the gumiho pressed a kiss to them, his hands resting at the younger’s waist. “i love you too baby.” he said with a chuckle, pecking the freckled forehead before him. 

taking a moment he ventured into their now office space, making sure all the pieces of his pc were accounted for as like any boy his age that was the first thing that would be set up, the playstation not far behind. at the calling of his name he wandered back into their now shared bed room, picking at the skin on his lip with his teeth. “no?” he asked genuinely confused at why he asked, “they’re just clothes who cares if they’re folded? no one sees them but us anyways right?” with a wag of his brows he pressed a kiss to his cheek, “no big deal.”

“Malachi Jin, I love you. I love you with every inch of my being. But if you do not fold your clothes, I will kick your butt.” He stared up at Kai with as much of a threatening look as he could pull off. “Like, seriously, Kai, you need to keep things neat. As you said, we are the only ones who see it and I definitely don’t want to see your clothes just thrown into my dresser.” He ran a hand through his hair and took a deep breath. “But let’s get everything else out away. I don’t want to leave things until the last minute. Cause we will both get busy and unpacking will take ages.”

Ashton stepped away from Kai and headed out to their living room. He opened the box with more of Malachi’s gaming things and took it into their shared streaming room. He began to neatly put things away before taking the box apart and putting it in the recycling pile. “We will also be recycling, Malachi! And I don’t want to hear any back talk about that. Think about all the poor turtles being strangled in the sea!” 

Ashton considered himself a smart person. He also considered himself to be a man that gave everyone the benefit of the doubt. Kai and Alucard might tell him that he was way too trusting or nice. And he knew that it was true but if he could help someone by collating with them, that’d be nice, right? When Maja’s manager reached out to him, he was skeptical. It wasn’t until after he checked out her twitch and sent her a message asking if the whole thing was legit that he agreed to the meeting. Of course he picked somewhere public that he was familiar with. In fact, it was the same cafe that he’d met Dragan at. 

He ordered an iced americano and a chocolate croissant before finding a table near the exit. Due to the shooting and mugging, his anxiety always led him to make sure he knew where every exit was at all times. Just in case things went sour. His hair had grown out and was now back to slightly above his shoulders and dyed a dark brown. He had the top pulled into a cute ponytail as a few stray hairs framed his delicate face. He hadn’t bother with makeup and his freckles danced across his face. He was dressed in one of his favorite pastel blue sweaters and a pair of ripped acid washed jeans. 

He looked up from his phone as he heard the chair across from him scrape against the linoleum flooring. “Hi!” He grinned. “It’s nice to finally meet you. I’m Ashton.” He nodded towards the counter. “Did you want anything? My treat.”

The day had finally come. It felt long overdue but too soon all at the same time. Ashton Kim had been in love with Malachi Jin since he was thirteen years old. If someone had told thirteen year old Ashton that he and Malachi would be moving in together and not just as roommates, he would have laughed. But here he was helping Kai carry in the last of the boxes. “I think that’s the last one.” He grinned as he jumped into Kai’s arms, wrapping his arms around his neck. “Welcome home. And don’t say that you’ve basically been living here since I got shot. Which is true but your name wasn’t on the lease until now. So, welcome home.” He leaned in to press a quick kiss to his lips. “I love you. I’m excited to start this next chapter with you.” 

Ashton smiled as he finally pulled away and walked into the bedroom. They’d spent the last two days moving Kai’s stuff into the two bedroom apartment. Blue’s old room was now being used as his and Malachi’s gaming and streaming room. It was still a little bittersweet to open the door and not see the pretty man but it wasn’t like he’d never see him. They were dating, after all. The fox smiled as he opened the drawer, wanting to shower and throw on one of Malachi’s shirts. He frowned, seeing the mess that was once his organized drawer. “Baby, I don’t mean to be that nagging boyfriend but are you really not going to fold your clothes before you put them away?” He crossed his arms and leaned against the doorframe as he stared at his lover. 

It’d had been a few months since Ashton and Blue had acted on their feelings. Oddly enough, there was a connection between Alucard and Kai as well. The four of them had a connection that they were still figuring out but they were all aware that they all felt something for each other. So, every now and again, Ashton and Blue liked to go on little dates just the two of them. Today was no different.

They sat on a blanket, what was left of a spread of sweets and sandwiches was untouched as the two laid on the baby pink blanket. Ashton laid on his stomach as he looked over at Blue. “You’re really beautiful. Like you’re kinda unreal.” The fox blushed as he hid his face in his arms. Smiling, he lifted his head. “Between you, Kai and Alucard, I fee like you guys want me to have a heart attack. I can’t get used to how beautiful you all are. And on top of that, you all actually like me and treat me well. It’s crazy.” He smiled. “I like it though.”

He popped a grape into his mouth and chewed quietly. “I must be the luckiest man in the world.” He scooted closer and leaned in, pressing a slow kiss to his lips. He couldn’t care less of there was someone watching. Besides, they all knew by now, thanks to Kai, that he liked to have an audience. 

“Well, I can’t really handle hard liquor. then there’s people who hurt animals. oh! Brussel sprouts. those are really gross. And don’t tell kai i said this but when he leaves his hairs in the brush! that is so gross. like take five seconds and take it out.”