ok one day iβll be able to be happy and content with where i am in life, but today is not that day. just gotta remind myself to take baby steps bc im still recovering from hella shit & donβt wanna ruin any progress iβve made. idk weβll see how this works out.
lol maybe one day iβll be comfortable again with people leaving and coming, people lying to me, people hurting me.. still unsure of how i feel but iβll be fine i guess.
maybe i just have to stop caring so much about what people do. i need to worry about myself over others bc why tf am i always worrying so much about other people when itβs not even reciprocated.
iβm gonna be selfish and stop carrying all this pain and do things for myself again. i havenβt appreciated my own success and shit that i forgot that my dogβs birthday passed bc ive been preoccupied with other peopleβs shit. i forgot my dadβs birthday & missed my grandmaβs funeral. idk fucked up in my previous life to fuck up again in my current life lmaoooo
holy fuck i havenβt rly put into words of whatβs been on my mind for the past two years.. kinda felt nice letting it out on a site i know is dead :)
ok back to my hiatus on this site. goodbye.
