everythingeverythingeverything

i had a dream that caseoh posted a cooking video (was was making shrimp alfredo) and the first thing he did was set something on fire. he burned his onions and his shrimp (but not the garlic for whatever reason). also it was an 8 hour video.

i feel like i've beed dead for 7192 days

showing art is always scary bc i say im a photographer and pull out some shit like

and call it untitled painting

but its a picture of flowers i saw in a cemetery! but i feel like photography is like super focused on things looking (within the realm of) real (as the bastardisation of painting) so photos that lean towards abstraction are generally dismissed

sorry 4 the rant, art school blues :(

(on the flip side i made a video and im really happy with how it came out)

what do you mean it’s not normal to go to a store you saw on tiktok walk around for 20 minutes because you can’t afford anything buy a pair of gloves because it feels wrong to leave without buying anything and then panicking when the (really nice) cashier asks basic questions that literally every single fucking cashier asks and then trying not to cry on the L back???

i wanna do an intro on here so i can maybe make friends but i don't know what to say AAAAAAAA

im zeke! im 19, bisexual, from the states, currently in art school (unfortunately lol)

interests:

music!! (joji, johnny goth, lil dusty g, get scared, radiohead, fall out boy, lorde, grim salvo, twenty one pilots, i could literally go on forever im SORRY) (also always looking for recs!!)

photography (check below ^_^)

my dog <3

writing

psychology

cooking

minecraft + sims 4 + the binding of issac

that's pretty much it i think??? im pretty boring but i love listening to people talk about their interests!! (boring) fun fact: i ran a project on my school's campus where i was collecting voicemails from people! they could talk about whatever they wanted for however long they wanted. it was super fun! (you can leave a text/voicemail too if you want, they won't be published anywhere!! +1 872 240 2617)

the class goths don’t like me :( and i am so sick of myself and i am so sick of myself and i am so sick of myself and one day i’m going to sleep and will never wake up again and time doesn’t pass fast enough

working on my vampireness. it's actually a cover for not having friends. no one wants to hang out in the cemetery and look at the moon with me :(

i’ll find it one day. and you will never see me again.

have u ever heard the voice of god?

i grew up playing piano

my instructor had a ruler

one of those wooden ones with the metal strip

she's strike my hands when i messed up

or when my nails got too long

i remember when i had to memorise fur elise

i never had a good memory

and it was hard to get my hands to remember their own parts

i remember going home with bloody knuckles

i do not play piano

https://pulledteeth.neocities.org

We talk like best friends

He wants to see my work

day one

day two

His lips were on mine

on the floor of my room

week one

week two

He likes wasting time with me

We'll never be anything more

month one

month two

I told him to leave

But I wish he would've stayed

Left (2023)

8 May 2023 23:06 CDT

forgot yesterday, who cares