Expect the Unexpected

Warm air comes out as I breathe out deeply, I think about you all the time, even in my sleep I see you dearly. In fact at one point i thought i felt you moving inside me, I want to see you so bad and I want those dreams to come true.

I saw you as a kid running around in your little dress, and just last night i saw you as a newborn. I felt your soft little head and smooth baby skin. It felt so real, i wanted it to be real, i wanted her to be real. Just... one more line on that strip, a single little faint line, but nothing. I prayed for you and begged for you. I held my tummy carefully like you’re there.

Listen to your voice,

I would want to wake up everyday just for this, for you.

But please tell me you’re not gonna leave.

Here is the side of her story, that girl that got cheated on. She is dramatic, an emotional wreck and so he got tired and found someone else. She had moved on, believe me she really did, and she started to talk to him, without any more feelings or emotions attached. Now she is happy again, with that same person but with her stone cold heart. She was a mess but her friends got her back. Everyone she trusts disagree to her decision. All she can hold on to now is this strong connection between the two of them, although she doesn’t know what it means and how will it end. He’s probably confused and probably lying, he might still be a cheater, or he might be the one. 

It’s been a while, but my mind is still the same.

It is a mess up there.

I’m doing all these things for my future, planning ahead, having goals but still some days i just want to end it all.

I am living a life that I’ve dreamt to have. But every thing is not real.

I drink and party, I dress up, I’d try to look pretty.

I wake up, I go to work, tries to do my best.

On vacation, I travel, I eat, I exercise, i try to stay healthy.

All these, because I am waiting for my life to end.

I dreamt about you again.

Have you ever met someone and you’re sure that this person is your soulmate?, it is just unfortunate that the timing always suck but you fall every time you look at his eyes and he looks back at you, you’re connected you feel it but you cannot be together. I hope you know that i know, and someday maybe in our next life time we’ll meet at the right time.

I am

Waiting patiently for the end of the world.

Scared to leave this world behind, and so I will wait.

Maybe, It’s easier that way, I will not need to explain why, It will just happen.

My Chest Hurts.

In the morning a new day will start, in my view a safe drive to work, in another person's, it's a question of the purpose of her life. Or maybe they are of the same person's mind.