Everything is Coming Up Aces

she was one for alternative versions, variations on the truth.

9 week old puppy in 10 inches of snow

You are a sentence with no punctuation. A kaleidoscope full of colors that I don’t remember learning in elementary school. Your voice is a sound that I’ve been looking for my entire life. Your smile is the only sunrise worth setting my alarm clock early enough to see . If I could I would shape-shift into the first thing you think about in the morning just so I can be reminded of what it’s like to wake up next to you. I love you in a language that I don’t fully understand. In words that I haven’t found enough courage to forklift out of my chest. I heard that karma is vengeful and is also a light sleeper so I’ve chosen to love you like this. Quietly. So I’ll call your phone and hang up before it actually rings.I’ll write you letters that you will never read. And when I see you in public, I’ll stick my hand inside of a bag full of things that I haven’t done since you left me, and pull out a smile. I’ll say something like: “Hello.” “It’s nice to see you.” and I’ll keep walking.

Some days I woke up and got out of bed and brushed my teeth like any normal human being; some days I woke up and lay in bed and looked at the ceiling and wondered what the hell the point was of getting out of bed and brushing my teeth like any normal human being.