ESC

PostShibuya!Nanami who thinks you’ll see him as less of a man because of his scars and burns.

Husband!NanamiXWife!Reader, established relationship (married), comfort, guilt, insecure nanami, oneshot, kinda shorttt idkkk, mentions of scars and burns, NANAMI SURVIVES OKAY?, f!reader

everyesc

After the incident . . . Nanami couldn’t stand to look at himself in the mirror. The incident left him scorched, left as half of the man he remembered being. The right side of his face and neck is covered in extensive burn scars that extend below his clothing, and a black patch of silk permanently covers where his right eye used to be. He knew he was handsome before—but now he felt disgusted with himself. And above it all: he couldn’t help but pity you.

Because what kind of woman would want to be tied down to someone like him for the rest of her damn life. He wasn’t the man you met three years ago, he wasn’t the man you married two years ago. So how could he still be the man that you want now?

One rainy night, after getting home from work: you step into a quiet house. To be fair… the Nanami household had always been quiet. But it wasn’t the same comfortable, warm kind of quiet that the house used to have. It was this new found cold and lonely type.

“Ken? I’m home dear!” You call out as you slip off your heels, placing them neatly by the door a soft sigh escaping you when there came no response from your husband. You walked further into the house, glancing over at the plate of dinner left in the dining room, set for one—like it’s always been these days. Once you step into your shared bedroom, your eyes drifted over to the walk-in-closet:

You find him standing in the small dimly lit room, his ‘ruined’ side facing away from the door like always

“You’re home early…” Nanami mumbles softly, instinctively leaning further into the shadow as he slid on his white long sleeved shirt, averting his eyes away from you

God it breaks your heart to see him like this

To have him think that you’d want him any less because of his appearance. “Yeah, finished work early” you said, setting down your purse as you stepped forward while he stepped back

distance wrapped itself around you both like a fog, making once familiar faces feel like strangers. Along your five years together, you’ve never seem him look so small before

“Ken, can we talk..?” Your gaze softens slightly as you notice him turn away from you. “About what sweetheart?” Nanami said as he finally looked over, his hazel eye meeting yours. “You know I still love you right?” You smiled softly, taking a few steps forward until you were finally face-to-face with him “Just as much as I did back when we first started dating” you continued

Nanami cleared his throat as leaned back slightly, the shadow still keeping his burnt side barely hidden “Of course I know that sweetie…” he replied, tilting his head slightly down to face you properly. Your brow furrowed slightly as he reached out a hand and cupped the side of your cheek, a small frown on his handsome face as he tilted his head slightly to the side and spoke

“I just . . . I’m sorry.” Nanami sighed, his thumb gently caressing your cheek. You look up at him with genuine confusion “for what?” You say, your voice barely coming out as a whisper, shaking your head slightly. “For having to put up with seeing me,” Nanami chuckled bitterly

You shook your head “Don’t say that Ken.” You scold softly, watching as your husband averted his gaze away from you once again

the incident had rewritten him in countless ways, but your eyes refused to read anything except the man you had first fallen in love with.

“Come on sweetheart, dont you find me just an ounce bit. . .” He paused for a moment, trying to find the words “monstrous?” He continued, his eyes finally meeting yours again.

Nanami believes that your love and affection belonged to the man he used to be: the handsome, unscarred version of him that still haunts him ‘til this day. Not the half-burnt man that he sees every time he looks in the mirror

“Not at all.” You answer

You reached out and gently held his hand that cupped your cheek, leaning into his touch slightly as you spoke “Ken you’re still the same handsome—”

“Handsome” he scoffed softly, his hand dropping to his sides

“Yes, handsome,” you chuckled softly, your hands moving over to hold him, your arms wrapping around his neck as you pulled him into a warm embrace “nothing has changed. . . Okay?”

For a moment the both of you were silent. And for once, Nanami finally let you hold him for longer than just a lingering touch. Nanami lowered his head, resting his chin on top of your head as he wrapped his arms around you as well. “Thank you.” He breathed out, his eye closing in a sort of relief

“I love you so much, Ken.” You professed, head nuzzling against his chest

“I love you more.” Nanami returned.

Written by everyesc

Boarder credits to : angeliicide , and cafekitsune <3

A/N: Thank you for taking time to read! It’s my first time writing and posting +English isn’t my first language hehe.