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★ last.fm/user/angelicvomit — i used to be active here, now i just use it to look at what i listen;

♡ en.pronouns.page/u/angelicvomit — my pronouns & identities, preferred names & words;

𐚁 steamcommunity.com/id/namirascranium/ - my steam acc;

꩜ app.thestorygraph.com/profile/eveningrednessinthewest — what i read (i don't use goodreads anymore);

✮ letterboxd.com/angelicvomit — letterboxd, but i barely watch anything rn;

⠀⠀⠀the main fandoms that i'm in (+ my favorite characters in no particular order (!); bold font are my most favorite out of those characters that i listed):

♡ beyhive (lemonade will not be ever topped);

♡ creepypasta & marble hornets (i've loved them both since i was 6, no joke);

♡ skyrim, TLOU, tomb raider (the survivor trilogy);

♡ dexter: dexter, deb, angel, rita, cody & astor (more so their book counterparts), maria (only!show), vince, james/albert, brian, joey, hannah, lumin, jamie;

♡ brba/bcs: jesse, mike, skylar, walt jr, hank, marie, saul/jimmy, tuco, marco & leonel, kim, lalo, nacho, howie, huell, badger & skinny pete;

♡ mlp friendship is magic: besides the mane six & spike (i don't have a favorite one out of those) i really love starlight, maud pie, sunburst, thorax, pharynx, cutie mark crusaders, babs seed, diamond tiara, pipsqueak, toola roola & coconut cream, rumble (he had a point c'mon), luna, celestia, zecora, big mac, trixie, sunset shimmer, cadence, shining armor, flurry heart, discord, the young six, pillars of old (especially mage meadowbrook), saffron masala, coco pommel, tempest shadow, chrysalis, cattail, bonbon & lyra, daring doo/a.k. yearling, dr. caballeron, king sombra;

♡ twd: michonne, rick, carl, daryl, hershel, maggie, carol, eugene, connie, princess, rosita, aaron, gabe, siddiq;

♡ young sheldon: sheldon, george, mary, georgie, missy, connie, billy, john, linkletter, veronica, rob;

♡ some other shows that i've watched and really liked: ahs (only seasons 1, 2, 3, 4 (half of it), 6, 7, 8, 9 and 10 (i would've made the ten bold, but i only like the vampire first half, the other one is pure ass), derry girls, the boys, interview with the vampire, pluribus, sugar (apple tv), ... (there's probably more, but i only listed those i really remember or really like (i struggle to commit to watch bullshit if it's bullshit (that's why i haven't bothered to finish season 4 of ahs and haven't watched season 5 at all even though people lose their minds over them));

♡ ASOIAF (i'm yet to finish all the books, but i've watched the show minus season 8 because i don't want to be disappointed): jon, brienne, dany, sansa, arya, sandor (lowkey only!show), jaime, sam, gilly, gendry, hot pie, robb, bran, rickon, tyrion (only!show but he's an amazing complex character in the books even though he's a piece of shit), cersei, varys, jojen & meera, maester aemon, missandei, grey worm, davos, shireen, ned, catelyn, brynden blackfish tully, osha, hodor, benjen stark, tormund, mance rayder, aggo & jhogo & rakharo, lord beric, tom seven strings, lem, anguy, stannis, melisandre, asha, aeron damphair, arienne, margaery, olenna, podrick, bronn (only!show), strong belwas, jeor mormont, grenn & edd; dunk & egg, raymun, aerion, maekar & baelor, lyonel.

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i obviously am against rape (i was sexually assaulted myself in childhood on a teachers day), murder of an innocent or a child or genocide. OBVIOUSLY. i have a strong sense of justice but i don't necessarily feel empathetic because i'm psychically unable to do so.

i'm only interested in talking to people when the subject involves me or something i find interesting. i try to listen and understand so fucking hard when my friend is telling me something but i genuinely cannot.

i also feel like i could never die. i wouldn't test this theory because i'm a coward though and i don't think it's something to be ashamed of.

i feel like i'm a part of an entirely different species that no one ever bothered to research. i always feel like i'm looking at life from some screen, like i live in a simulation like it's a torture method and i'm actually in some different place far away from earth. i want to wake up so bad and i can't because i don't know how.

i don't feel human, i feel like an alien that nobody gave any instructions to and just sent me here to watch me suffer for something i committed even though i don't know what. i hate being so aware of everything yet being so naive. i feel like i'm about to experience a psychotic episode/breakdown but the fact that in order to be in an active psychosis you have to not realize that you're experiencing psychosis makes me contradict myself/it (?)

and the fact that i have homicidal ideation doesn't help because people only see you as an edgelord but i genuinely would kill and eat people if i knew that i wouldn't go to jail.

i spend my life maladaptive daydreaming every single hour of the day and i don't even remember when it started because it might've been here all along.

put yo' head down when you talk to a pimp"

yes ma'am